Good morning at the 18th off November, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's rainy and dark outside in The Netherlands, but what do you think? It's Autumn and it's almost 6 AM. 

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De Boed has some cute, handmade cards. They're only one euro each, and they're worthit their money during this crisis. I think this year will be for handmade Christmas cards. They used to be made by an elder fellow client who passed away this year. Her well made cards are perfect as greetings and wishes. Compared to bookstores, these are more affordable and more heartfelt. I think they're perfect for this Christmas. I got some holiday stamps from previous years, donated by mom. It helps to cut the costs on Christmas cards. But they should still be totally part off the holiday tradition. In my opinion, they always belonged there. I cut out on who to send them to, so I need 5 only this year. It's not much that will be spend to it. And it's worthit. During this expensive season, I think I do well to it. I might post pictures off them, each are special handmade, in this weblog later on. Maybe you'll like it. and that's the power off this weblog: The receiver doesn't see it ahead, but the reading fans do. 

Edit: I went out to purchase some, but my critical eye found them too bad off quality, and not made by the elder fellow client. What they had was junk, so I refused. I think it will come down to purchasing a set this year. I hope that won't be a problem. I found what de Boed had too stupid. 

I always got this feeling I'm about to die early, that's due to medication headaches. It's really difficult. When I'm this difficult in my skin, I'm absolutely not open for a relationship, I'm simply too sick from mental issues. I see things too trouble. So I have to give no for an answer to everyone. I think it can't be solved, so I won't like to give false hopes to people. It's too hard, too uneasy, and I got psychotic on love, so I can't handle it. No is for our both safety. It feels better to be single with such a troubled head. I'm at a point where I believe most world religions would forgive me to have stayed single my entire life for being sick. Given I'm still a virgin. I think they would hold a hand above my head for it. I'm sorry, I just can't be married or a mom. 

I'm still delusional, I still got aches, I'm still tired very easily. 

Last picture off this blogpost: 

I went out walking in a forest this weekend, a good hike in the Castricum dunes. I ended with Chocolate milk and lunch in Johanna's hof, the local dune restaurant. I needed to get my mind clear. It was really a good thing to stretch my leggs. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.