Good evening at the 2nd off April, 2026.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's been a changing yet dreary day in The Netherlands. 

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This week, I made this necklace at de Boed, community centre in Zaandijk, The Netherlands. And it will be for sale in their gift shop. I'm a bit more creative lately. At times, I got really inspired. I also designed tulip postcards. Also for sale in their gift shop 

They found my tulips very pretty. It's available to be send for everyone interested. My grandma is the biggest fan, she purchased the entire set. And the previous jewelry set has been sold. It's getting somewhere, people think I make pretty items. Inspiration is sacred. 

Aside from creativity, (With their materials, let's be honest, I could never afford that myself. And I personally don't profit from it, the upbring is entirely for their small gift shop) I'm a bit down in spirit, a bit more unstable and sensitive. I'm happy creativity flows, so it can breathe a little. But it's not easy. This time is not easy. I'm over-thinking and overly sensitive. It can be a bit hyper in my mind. Life is beautifull, but things are insanely painfull, and sometimes I try to figure out mankind, but it usually hurts and I still don't have a clue. Mankind is cruel. Difficult... I wish for a better climate in it, but it feels impossible. I'm so gratefull for Leviaan. They keep me standing while I would break from it otherwise. Leviaan is the care home organisation I live in. It hurts big time, always having people against me, and the world being so cruel. It feels lonesome. Inspiration feels gratefull. Or so to say, I feel gratefull for inspiration. The card set's name is Zaandijk Beltaine, but I think they won't accept, and I did not make it the official name. Tulips at the month off may, with the sun in Taurus and the moon in Scorpio and the Beltaine energy in the air off floral Zaandijk feels magic. Almost given from the gods. The fairies out and the garden off our place being so beautifull, covered in flowers with the cherry blossoms out. It's god given. It looks magical, and it makes me feel gratefull to be alive. People might think it's a bit out off place, ancient magic and typical Dutch floral beauty, but I think it connects perfectly when it's out in the month when it's supposed to blossom. It's spectaculair. Everything else goes backwards and is impossible nowadays, but the gardens bloom lovely. Nature is inspiring, and gives strength. It doesn't withhold answers, sometimes it's what I overthink myself, what comes to me, and it becomes how I personally see things and how I think about things. I'm a bit phillosophicall. It triggers both and makes me come to interesting conclusions at the same time. It might be a little bit strange, weird little me... Overthinking is difficult. To keep a bit off track off life, I like to keep things simple in life. Simple, yet meaningfull... Everything else is already complicated. It's easily a bit too much with everything going on in my head. And it hurts... litterally. I always have headaches from overthinking. It's why I'm in here. Life is difficult to figure out. I wish I could find a clue. But probably, it's impossible, and that's why I'm in here. Due to an over-active mind. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

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Good evening at the 25th off March, 2026, 2.

 

Good evening everyone, 

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I handcrafted these myself, a necklace and a bracelet, from random inspiration, just out off nowhere, just the memory off making jewelry, and the inspiration off the materials they had made me do it. It's been ages since I made jewelry. These are for sale at de Boed's shop. 

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Good evening at the 25th off March, 2026.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was changing, mostly rain and grey. 

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Somewhere in May, I have an aunt celebrating her birthday, she is off old age. I made them make a capital N key chain for her birthday: 

It's made by de Boed's handcraft team. It's the first letter off her name, and I wrapped it: 

It's done with old wrapping paper, and I'm still not good at wrapping, but it's done with love. I'm about to give this with a bush off pink roses. At least, that's the intention. If I'm not fit enough, I will send it by post. Often I feel unstable, so the trip to go there can be quite irresponsible. Still, I wish to go. I haven't been there in years. I hope she appreciates. 

Lately, I haven't got much to mention. Life goes by, I'm still alive. 

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Good morning at the 19th off March, 2026.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's rainy and cloudy outside tonight. 

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I did not feel like sleeping, I could not catch sleep anymore, and I giftwrapped my brother's birthday present. The crocodile plushie from two posts ago. 

It's not done tidy, but like I said, I'm not good at it, but still it's fun to giftwrap presents and hand them like that. It's a bit unpersonal to just push stuff in someone's hands and claim it's a birthday gift. I think it's better when they're wrapped. It's just that my brother's birthday is actually in June, so I'm early with this. I wish to adjust a handmade capital keychain from de Boed to it. Though I also think they're not manly, so they might not fit for a man. So it's a matter off doubt about it. And maybe I just let it, since I think my brothers won't be charmed off it. 

This country has elections all the time, how are they about to govern the country to begin with when power is elected again and again all the time? I think you can't work out long term plans when the government does not function, and the people off control always end two years before it's going to happen. In the end, nothing is actually done about problems. It's something that's on my mind. It happens all the time in this country lately. It's always elections, and nothing is done about real problems. And meanwhile the people are stuck with it. It's problematic, but it's not solved. Something to think off. 

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Good morning at the 5th off March, 2026.

 Good morning everyone, 

Today is a bright morning in spring. 

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I purchased an Easter gift for my family, and I wrapped it. It's a handmade wooden charm from de Boed, and it's 1,50 euro's only. Coffee service did not take place today, due to lack off staff. Still I fixed them a kettle off coffee and bought their gift. The kettle is for the creativity participation where they handcraft items, that was open. But public coffee time could not take place. 

This is the rabbit charm, it's the back off a rabbit with a tail, and it's green and purple. It's perfect for Easter, next month. 

And this is how I wrapped it, it's kinda messy, but it's cute. It's how I wrap, I'm not good at it, but I still do it this way. It's always straight from the heart. I think the elders bale most from coffee time not taking place. For them it's most difficult, just like for the fellow clients. They always crave those coffee moments. I hope it won't happen again, but there are so many sick people, it's impossible to be certain. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

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Good morning at the 1st off March, 2026

 Good morning everyone, 

This morning is mild for late winter when it comes to weather. 

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Yesterday I purchased my oldest brother's birthday present, he's only two years younger than me, and he has his birthday in June. I felt it was a good idea, given it was on a discount, so it was 7 euro's only. Not that I don't value my brother, it's just that during this time and day, I found it acceptable for a birthday gift. I still have birthday wrapping paper on the shelves, so it will be well-ment and straight from the heart. 

It's a fat crocodile dragon plushie. It's very big and stuffy, and I think it's a funny present. Some time ago, I went a bit overboard in my opinion wrapping paper shopping, you could only order four rolls. But now that comes in handy, since I still have it for Mr. crocodile. I'm a bit sober with gifts, a bit frugal in my opinion. But I hope they forgive me that. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

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Good afternoon at the 16th off February, 2026.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today is cold and grey in The Netherlands. 

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I already set up my Easter Branch, and other Easter decorations, very cute, very deliberate early. I was pretty early with my Easter Branch, it has all kinds off decorations from previous year onto it, and it's in an old vase. 

It's snowing outside at times. It's still February, but we got an early Easter. 

I'm in a phase off over-reactive acting, I'm not myself, I'm hyper-energetic, doing all sorts off things, over-shopping, spending too much money. It's not good for me. I already foresee it's going to go wrong with me one day, and I should take it easy instead. Take it more calmly, simply not over-do things. I'm off minded and I believe I'm delusional. I'm acting weird. I can't sleep well at night, this morning was for 02.00 AM awake, and 05.00 AM showering. It's like that, -Like that. I know more psychiatric patients got this. My head is crowded, too full to read novells or write poetry. I try to cook simple yet healthy receipes to set off my mind, like apple sauce and tomato soup. I do a lot, but it's not much off a set off. It's over-reactive and strange. Like with this, it's hard and close to obsessive. Not preferable. I got a strange tense. I have to take it more easy. Like a stressed chicken. 

I'm already proud I got my Easter decorations on, it's early, but last year I did not do so at all. Out off some sort off grump. Maybe I do feel a bit guilty about that. Luckily the Elders still like what I cook, Often I cook for my friend, the retired zookeeper, he says my food is delicious. The tomato soup got approved off, luckily I'm not so far off I don't know what I'm doing in the kitchen anymore. But cooking every day would be too much to handle. I'm lucky to live in a care home. It's done for me three times a week. And they make delicious foods. Life is tough, but it's manageable. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.