Good morning at the 13th off November, 2026.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's rainy and dark outside. 

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You might have heard the rumor that I am a slut, and Vana Events is spreading the rumor. It's not true. I am actually very prude and true to myself. I never had a man to begin with, and Vana is spreading that slut shaming on purpose, to posess power over me by taring down my reputation for so many years. Nothing has ever been true about it. It's just a group off very evil men. Claiming to worship a goddess and freedom, but doing and talking otherwise. I am not a slut. It's not my thing. Vana has just been doing me wrong to keep your attention from a diffrent scandal: Mark and Frank being wrong, It's been going on for years, and no one ever speaks in my defense. So let's speak the truth myself. 

I'm not a slut. Nor a whore, and I'm not vulgair. Just a female a group off men could not control. It's a pattern throughout history they start to talk low off her when that's the cause. I believe there is No evidence off something actually to have happened, no witnessing off slutty behaviour, since I never attend at their locations to begin with. I'm very much stay at home and on myself. So where do those rumors come from? Nothing has ever happened to begin with. It's their sick idea off power and control over an innocent woman. And they let rumors spread on purpose. It's not right. I'm not a slut. I'm innocent and I want you to know. Vana Events spreads sick bullshit. Someone just should have told you before. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good morning at the 9th off November, 2026.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's grey and kinda fresh outside. 

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I got a little saving tip on bras for women. If you lost weight, due to whatever cause, and a bra slobs around your chest, and you don't have money for new ones, you can shove up it's straps, and close it at a tighter hook. Like I did recently. My bra started to slob, my regulair fit became too large, so I had to solve it. Instead off spending a fortune, I started shoving up shoulder straps and close it on a tighter hook. You can do so untill it's flattering you again. And doesn't look slobby anymore. It can save a fortune on smaller bras. Life is so much better if your underwear fits perfectly 😉

Other than that, I barely have any news, except that I lost weight. It's not easy, it goes painfully slow, but I do- about two sizes this year. I fit most clothes perfectly, or they slob around me. I think it would have been easier if I wasn't on medication. But it says a lot for the effects on this heavy mental meds. And yeah, practical thinking saves on my budget. Simply to replace my entire closet is too pricey. 

I hope you have something on to this. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

 

Good morning at the 18th off October, 2026.

 Good morning everyone, 

Tonight it's cold and dark, with a clear sicle off a moon outside. 

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Yesterday was my youngest brother's birthday, and it's time to reveal what I gave him. 😀 You probably know it as a wrapped gift from a previous post. 

It was an Octopus fish mobile. Handmade by de Boed's handcraft team. It was Bulls Eye, he totally liked it and so did my family. They loved the original and affordable gift from de Boed's gift shop. They think what we make is so incredibly nice, it's rewarding. It's made by a care taker. It was 10 euro's only, and perfect for what it was. Alongside a handmade keychain, capital T, also from our gift shop, it was a perfect gift. It's so thankfull what de Boed does. 

And I got a saving tip... a way to be more spare with juice 😉 I got some food donated by mom from my visit yesterday. And I want to make use off it in the best way possible. 

 So a small glass off juice has to do the job for this. It's extremely tastefull, and we (Me and my brothers) used to gulp this in with glasses the size off a flower vase. But I can't afford this on a daily base, so the old fashioned small glass has to do the trick. It looks spare, but hopefully I can make the best out off this pack this way. Make sure to own a small glass or two, to be capable to be frugal with juices and soft drinks. You could save tons that way. My main way to less my thirst is still tap water. In the Netherlands that's safe to drink. Though recently, some times I do a pot off green tea, but usually I don't do juices like this. It's a way to use your mind with these packs. I don't find them cheap. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.    

Good evening at the 1st off October, 2026.

 Good evening, everyone. 

Today was cloudy yet warm outside. 

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It almost feels like robbing my fellow client: An artwork where they laid their soul in simply to calm their mind, sold as a greeting card for one euro only, like all our postcards. But it comes in handy. 

This greeting card will be for a cousin's birthday. It's diamond painted nicely, and I have the idea they got the nerves to actually sell new cards like this in common shops for 5 euro's each to begin with. It's almost charity what we pull up with. But I wanted to show you. De Boed and it's handmade card artists always give me the opportunity to keep on sending greeting cards. For the last coin in my wallet. Or in this case, a bin for occasions like this. I love how they keep up with these, handmade gifts. I'm not capable to give otherwise. I used to love gifts, now it's occasions only. Life can be sometimes so giving, even for a poor woman like me. And I have to accept what's given in such circumstances. That's how it is nowadays, and how it's often been. I suppose they look down on everything later on, 'cause that's how they are. But for nowadays time and space, it's so generous how the universe keeps poor old me alive. 

  

I also made a semolina walnut pudding this weekend, it came out off it's pudding mold perfectly, It tasted perfect for what it was. I was a bit low on money, so I'm glad this treat came out so well. I also made a bread pudding with almonds from my pantry, from cheap ass 99 cents bread left over, but it tasted like Italian christmas. 

I felt inspiration for bread pudding by resembling a song in my mind, and the idea I should not waste old bread. It tasted perfectly, and I made a girl from care staff taste a piece. She loved it. So yes, bread and butter pudding not to waste old bread. It was delicious. Despite being low on money, I made it through. And I made semolina walnut with a hint off extra sugar before, but it did not come out as perfect. 

I also have a picture off a perfect ending for ripe bananas, banana custard pudding. 

In the United States, they fill these with waffers and top it with whipped cream, but I did not have access to them. So just pudding with bananas. It was a treat. 

It's a blessing to still be capable to bake this way. I'm a bit moody. So I deserve this. 

Allright, that's about it for now, 

Thank you for reading. 

Good evening at the 25th off August, 2026.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was modest weather. Not too hot, not too cold. I think it was just right. 

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Today was for wrapping gifts. For Christmas. I purchased my family some cute Holland gifts. We're not extreme right-winged, but my mom loves those Holland souvenirs, since I live in this touristic area. 

I wrapped them with paper from the give away closet I found there previous year. But compared to this year, the Christmas gifts are not completely free. I purchased them myself, but I found them affordable for what it was. 

Next Item I wrapped, was my brother's birthday gift. An Octopus mobile, with dangling fish, handmade at de Boed, community centre in Zaandijk. Combined with a handmade keychain letter T (His capital) it will be his birthday gift this year. Childish? Probably, affordable? Yes. I hope he aproves off it. But we all still got a soft spot for the stuffed animal category. I just don't have a picture. Care staff took a lot off effort making these gift items. They are nice. 

I have quite an original take on wrapping items, I'm totally not good at it. But it's always done with love. It's handmade and heartfelt. I hope he likes it. It's just that it's some time untill October. And some time untill Christmas. So these gifts have to wait in here with me for a while. Luckily they don't spoil. It's not food or drinks. The motivation behind being early with gifts, is that sometimes I see something in a shop and I just 'Got to have it.!!!' Before it's gone, especially for family gifts. Right before it's out or someone else got aways with it. So I also purchased my capital key chains a bit ridiculously in time, just before someone else could 'steal.' them from under my nose. Usually I'm not that sharp. I'm not as sharp as I used to be, or greedy- not at all. I just can't afford being greedy. It's just that this gift-for-family makes me almost fight over a bargain. (Between you and me, these where bargains. But it's all I can afford for for gifts nowadays.) I'm somehow proud to have gifts for Christmas this year to begin with, it promises to be an expensive Holiday season. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

Good evening at the 14th off August, 2026.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's about 30 degrees celcius outside. It's hot. 

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I don't know if it excists yet, but Vana's sick moral preaching can come to a high point, where people start to gossip I'm a pedophile. Which I'm not. Those moral preachers, ready to beat everyone who isn't like them, settled and succeeded with two children, are actually jealouse off me and the way I make things happen for myself and in the home. 

Actually I'm a bit hopeless. I like blonde, cute, geeky men. I'm sorry, they could accuse me off being a fascist, since you're supposed to be blonde. I'm tolerant, but my personal preference in men isn't. I accept all kinds off people, but for interest, only the cutest and the coolest and the fairest off them all. Natasha Marchall would call me a fascist for choosing blonde men over Faust, but that simply is what it is. I'm not a phedophile, I just think the moral preachers are self righteous assholes, over knitting patterns on winter sweaters. Being single for a lifetime, (I actually can't get the guy) and being a simple geek myself. I'm mentally handicapped and prude. And when it comes to the Fantasy scene, a little shy. It makes it so easy to start a filthy gossip about me. But I would not have it with a child. That's a rumor too much about me. Shame on them who claim that. 

Allright, back to your caves. 

That's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good evening at the 12th off August, 2026.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's a warm summer night, guided by an eclipse. But it's not visible. 

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I have signs that the Ukraine war will last for a while. It's no science, it can't be backed up by science, but I doubt this will be the year for it's end. I wish it was common sense to claim it's actuall end, but I would look like an ass if that goes wrong. I should not claim it, but I believed it was 2028. 

And no, no change in Dutch government could stop it earlier, it just keeps the country moving more decent than populists. Like what most people actually want. To be honest, I like the current prime minister. He looks young and tolerable. I hope this will last, it would be so bad for the country to change parliament time and time again. I hope it will stick for a while this time. A little peace off mind for the government would do it good. 

I feel not much can be done about crisis in the current time off Saturn in Aries, up untill 2028, and we just have to sit it out. I don't fear it. It is what it is, though people should brush their teeth and look after their appearances again, if we don't want to make a bad figure to the government like this. I have been poor for over 20 years without bad grooming. It's an insult- Be poor, don't groom. But that's my opinion. How do you come to think poverty means we should not groom and look ratchet? I avoided that for years, and nowadays I find it so stupid from other people. I mean, I have been on governmental wages and no income for ages, but ugly? Not off my concern. You can still look neat if you play it smart. It's my poor woman pride that hates people looking insanely ungroomed due to the economy. 

But nevertless, this crisis not something to fear if you can owe up. Not much will change, except prices for everything will increase and it's evil. It's threatening, and maybe that's what they're after. Life threatening to not being capable to owe up for health care and food. I think people already died from it. But I can't see it changing soon. The future for these two years is kinda unfortunate for the main population. I can't paint the picture more bright. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

And I would like to end this weblog with a picture off a small sailboat on the raft, nearby a local historical spot. It was such a lovely picture. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.