Good evening at the 14th off August, 2026.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's about 30 degrees celcius outside. It's hot. 

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I don't know if it excists yet, but Vana's sick moral preaching can come to a high point, where people start to gossip I'm a pedophile. Which I'm not. Those moral preachers, ready to beat everyone who isn't like them, settled and succeeded with two children, are actually jealouse off me and the way I make things happen for myself and in the home. 

Actually I'm a bit hopeless. I like blonde, cute, geeky men. I'm sorry, they could accuse me off being a fascist, since you're supposed to be blonde. I'm tolerant, but my personal preference in men isn't. I accept all kinds off people, but for interest, only the cutest and the coolest and the fairest off them all. Natasha Marchall would call me a fascist for choosing blonde men over Faust, but that simply is what it is. I'm not a phedophile, I just think the moral preachers are self righteous assholes, over knitting patterns on winter sweaters. Being single for a lifetime, (I actually can't get the guy) and being a simple geek myself. I'm mentally handicapped and prude. And when it comes to the Fantasy scene, a little shy. It makes it so easy to start a filthy gossip about me. But I would not have it with a child. That's a rumor too much about me. Shame on them who claim that. 

Allright, back to your caves. 

That's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good morning at the 19th off March, 2026.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's rainy and cloudy outside tonight. 

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I did not feel like sleeping, I could not catch sleep anymore, and I giftwrapped my brother's birthday present. The crocodile plushie from two posts ago. 

It's not done tidy, but like I said, I'm not good at it, but still it's fun to giftwrap presents and hand them like that. It's a bit unpersonal to just push stuff in someone's hands and claim it's a birthday gift. I think it's better when they're wrapped. It's just that my brother's birthday is actually in June, so I'm early with this. I wish to adjust a handmade capital keychain from de Boed to it. Though I also think they're not manly, so they might not fit for a man. So it's a matter off doubt about it. And maybe I just let it, since I think my brothers won't be charmed off it. 

This country has elections all the time, how are they about to govern the country to begin with when power is elected again and again all the time? I think you can't work out long term plans when the government does not function, and the people off control always end two years before it's going to happen. In the end, nothing is actually done about problems. It's something that's on my mind. It happens all the time in this country lately. It's always elections, and nothing is done about real problems. And meanwhile the people are stuck with it. It's problematic, but it's not solved. Something to think off. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.   

Good evening at the 19th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was a nice warm day in The Netherlands. Most people enjoyed this maybe last day off summer weather. 

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I belief we can discuss. People are born with a mouth and a mind, so we are made to discuss subjects. Also in relationships. You can talk things over, instead off heaping it up and assuming things are allright. I think a lot can be saved by asking your other half 'but how do you think / feel about this?' And let them have their way in a situation you won't die over if they had it. I'm not an expert. But people are such strong minded individuals, headstrong most off the time, and it doesn't make a relationship work all the time. 'But what do you think about this?' 'Is this allright with you?' And simply quit if you feel it's against their feelings, or you might hurt them or make them feel uneasy with behavior. People are headstrong and stupid, but we can discuss and we can use common sense. And a relationship is not a one-way road. Sometimes you have to compromise with them. I hope you have an equally intelligent individual in front off you with who you can discuss on a common ground about everything. Communication is important. Communication is key. 

I could sound like a psychologist, I just wish I had someone who understands and who I can be gratefull for. I wish for someone I can discuss the world with, without them to grow tired. Someone with a good opinion and their heart in the right place, and stories to tell. As easy as I come off online, in real life I'm quiet and a bit held back. I wish for someone who talks easy and who loves good conversations about- everything. You can get really close to someone if you know who they are on the inside for real. It's intimidating, but important. The key here is to feel I'm understood by him or her. Understood and felt with. It's so important I feel heard. Heard, and loved. I love a good man with a good sense off intelligence who loves to talk with me. But maybe for a man who isn't a care taker with a psychology care study, that might be a bit gay or impossible. It's bonus points if we can laugh togheter and if he has a certain charm. It's really hard to get to me, love and friendship begins in the mind. You can look sophisticated, but if you can't talk, that's a red flag. I learned from a crush on a care taker, that to talk to begin with, is important and underrated. I think we better find out as soon as possible about religious beliefs, relationships and political opinions. If it oposes yours, it says everything but at least it kicks you off off your pink cloud. So it's very important. Who you are is what you think. But often we don't speak our minds in public. So it's good to ask if you like someone. Care takers are impossible, but at least his opinion left me with less butterflies. 

Care forces people with diffrent opinions at the same table. It can be very interesting to hear them all. And this situation forces us to deal with each other each day, so we have to keep it mild and 'forgive and forget.' all the time. It's just that I barely speak my mind with them. About spirituality or politics. They don't know me at those points. And they do influence me. I shove a bit more to the centre in politics. I'm not completely left winged anymore. When it's to food or foreigners, I'm not left-winged, just like with the farming plans for the future. While on the social-economic part, I'm completely left-winged. I'm not racist or against foreigners, but the country is full. Too full for new refugees, and our own people have to live first and get the houses. Not the foreigners. The home market is too tight for that, and the assylums are too full in this country. It's not that we are not willing, it's just that it's not possible. We need homes for our own youth first. 

And food, I find the left wing healthy floaty and too strict on things. We have health problems, but to forbid my cookie during coffee time? Uh-Oh, that goes too far bro. The new health rules on health institutes are very strict and impossible to live by. No sugar, no smoking, less salt, and it's decretes from the government. Most fellow clients do hard with no smoking, and I could kill them for stealing my cookie at the coffee moments. It's the only treat I allowed myself for a while, the only snack I ate for a day. But they claim people stuff themselves and it's unhealthy. I'm obese from medication, I have little money for snacks, so that one cookie at de Boed with my cup off coffee was an outcome. I got cookies myself now, but I forget them all the time. I'm not used to snacking at my own home. 'If you don't like it, you can buy cookies yourself.' That's what they told me. I'm a sober person, so I buy cookies for cheap. It's not much off an issue to have them that way, but it doesn't make sense. Now I can stuff myself with it, while my own strict one cookie a day policy kept me from it. Not at all is too strict, too... 'Zeikerig.' from de Boed. They're ant-fucking with this. And people can't keep up with it, I can tell that ahead. But it's all due to health policy. 

I'm a bit classic conservative with foods. Not that I eat a pile off meat each day, but the common things and the ordinairy old fashioned ingredients are more my thing than those floaty ingredients or vegan stuff they try to sell. And it's more expensive. I'm a low income budget who can't afford such high flying elite foods, so I do it feet on the ground. And I do eat meat, since I think humans need it. And if we don't kill animals for it, we are likely to kill ourselves for it. Humans need it for their brain. Not an unhealthy amount, but still a good part off meat with our meals and in the matter 'humans first or animals first.' I picked humans. We need to eat meat, I decided to turn a blind eye on animal rights since we are meat eating species ourselves. Sad but true. 

So no left-winged floaty stuff on the food subject for me. It's too much. I love to eat vegetables and world dishes, though. But in balance with meat and diary. Just what a healthy woman needs. I may sound old fashioned, but I know in the future the left will lose on food, and health will be taken less strict. Since we can't keep up with this style off food. It's impossible or too expensive. To replace sugar is too expensive and not profitable for the west. All the replacements come from abroad, and the scale is too high. It's not possible for The West to replace sugar on the scale on which it's needed. 

I think if you as an individual can handle your sugar intake mature, there's nothing going on with it. Sugar doesn't kill people, it's people themselves who should moderate sugar. No soda and juices, no sugar in hot drinks, and moderate eating can be a good thing. I also got over my sugar addiction, so why can't you? But by force from the government this way goes too far in my opinion. No cookie with my coffee is not fair. I do eat a cookie a day, it's a personal choice. 

But I do prefer it healthy. I eat veggies and fruits, and I don't drink soda or juices. To prepare foods the responsible way is my choice. A bit old fashioned, but old keys open new doors. And it's going to be the best way for this century. I'm not likely to be found at a fastfood restaurant, That's something I'm against, but I do eat moderate meat and normal foods. That's my opinion. 

Allright, that's about it for now - 

Thank you for reading. 

     

Good evening at the 17th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's a rainy, almost Autumn day in The Netherlands, I even spotted mushrooms aside the road. 

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I'd like to share a theory with you. 

What if the establishment wants to regain it's power? Wilders is gone from the cabinet, but what if the ordinairy, wishes to regain their power during the upcoming peace? I think it's almost peace, and de Hague wishes to have it's usuall parties in the cabinet again when that happens, simply to let the country roll a certain way. Under controll of what's always been. That would make these elections a mild scam, for the economy and the regain off power sake. I think it's oldskool parties that will rule after the elections, and short after that there will be iron peace in the world, or at least in Europe. Cause that's 'how things have always been.' And 'How they want them.' In this country. It's going to be right-winged. I think the farmer party and the populists will be gone out off the cabinet after these elections. And it will look oldskool and familiair again in The Hague. Because it will be peace soon, and things have to be under their controll again. It's a theory, a thought, a certain way things go. Just a suspicion. 

If the regulair parties win, it will be peace all off a sudden next year. That's my belief. Out off the air, or mildly forced. It's not coincidence. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

Good evening at the 4th off April, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was bright and sunny in The Netherlands. 

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You know what, they should have written down in Twilight how Edward Cullen raised his kid, because that's really difficult. Everyone thinks they can pop out kids nowadays, but honest, a death horse can do it- But it's really difficult to raise them well. I might repeat this joke in the future. Having kids is no joke. 

It's beautifull weather, it's scorching already for my skintype. It's a very sunny day in spring. I barely feel like home cooking anymore. By the end off the day, I'm always so tired it's usually pizza or take away. I eat lunch and breakfast every day, but dinner is such an issue for a single, mental person on heavy medication, I lack energy and I can't really rock it like the olden days. I don't starve, but it's such an issue. I have no energy for better. I do my best, but I'm so tired and drained from the day. 

I think the world will be solved in the future, but it's not near soon. Maybe I'm a slant old optimist. Thinking there will be peace and a normal president for the United States, but in the somewhat distant future. Honest, 2027 will be the worst year for all off this, but there will be peace again one day. I don't know if everyone who wants to, can still read my blogs. Since it's all so expensive by then. It's just that it's not the end off the Earth, that would be shocking. I'm convinced, but who am I to fool? Maybe you should all see for yourselves. I just should remember not to act like an optimist weirdo. People think I'm crazy if I would do so. 

And really, Americans can't have Dutch coffee on a large scale anymore in the nearby future due to import taxes. Or our cheese, or our flowers. It's bad for them. Everyone knows nothing comes near Dutch coffee off good quality. The world is not as connected as it used to be nowadays. It's a loss for everyone. The World was an understanding, a real power statement for everyone, everyone was connected, and if you wanted to, you could belong. Even if in a diffrent time, you would have been the biggest nobody on the planet. Nowadays The World is not capable to hold up it's pants anymore due to costs and war. I think The World is not as connected as it used to be to The Internet, so I don't know who reads, and if people can still read. Who would have thought we still had to fight out a war, dressed and dolled up in 90's fashion? At least that's my idea, young people have no money for dressing up, and above a certain age or rich all fights stuff out in 90's fashion. I miss the idea off a connected 'The World.' before it all came down. Broad mindedness is not usuall anymore. It's a miss. I wish you would see what I see, and it's not the standard for the future. But then you have to be a really good seer. And I better don't claim that anymore. But for the next 5 to 7 years, we're stuck in it. It's also in my beliefs. Somewhere in between my ears. It's not how I would like to raise children and young people, in this narrow mindedness. It's difficult. I'm a globalist who believes in equal rights. That used to be a cool thing, now I better shut up. 

These are dangerous times. And something I see as justice is far off. Nowadays, it's really local, close by, our own lawn- all those things that don't require internet, or import or export. I post pictures off stuff my neighbours would like to see. Fancy and old as they are. Like flowers, or old Zaan houses. I think I do well to it, under these extremes, I make myself a well-behaved kid. Floral beauty, timeless and under any circumstances agreeable. I have people to take count off, I better don't go overboard. And they like me and my style. At least what I think is timeless, nice and agreeable. To misbehave is such a thing for rats. Or maybe people with less off an understanding with their neighbours. That's why I might look a bit frumpy on Facebook. It keeps me going. And I can afford. I don't know how I would have been among my own age, or just care takers. I think it means I care about my neighbours and fellow clients. It's a dark world, but at least I try not to offend them. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

   

We will get out off this

 

Good afternoon everyone, 

It's a cold day in Autumn 

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For all off you with no money on the bank, and barely food in the fridge, reading this from their mom's computer: 

We will get out off this. The crisis won't last for a lifetime. The world will get out off it, and the next decade is going to be brilliant again, while this one looks like nothing. I swear, it won't last forever. 

Maybe you feel desperate, maybe you have seen it all, maybe you can't get by another day. But we will pass this by if we're healthy, and one day, after 2032, we will have handled it and we can look back all decadent and saturated with stuff and homes to this period again. It's one Bitch off a crisis, but if we grow older, we will simply get out off it. I'm talking to my fellow, screwed over generation peers in the outside world. 

The crisises and the war won't last forever. Period. We just need to stand this a bit harder, grid our teeth a bit sharper and bear the burden a bit heavier. It's not going to be cheap. And we need to depend on our parents and family a bit heavier. But we'll make it. (DON'T forget to thank them later on.) 

And don't forget, you are not the only one doing bad, or being in a strange situation. With no money, barely food in the fridge, reading this from their mom's computer. You matter, you are NOT alone. You are not the only one without presents for the holidays, or bills getting out off your nose. And remember, it's good to be alive. So seek the cool things in life and keep on getting joy out off them. I mean the free things. Hopefully for yourself, you know what those are. 

I don't know who I inspired with this. - I just hope I did. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

P.S, I wanted to share this image with you: 

I shared tray cake at de Boed this week, home made. And I found this image off it worthit for my weblog. It's with berries. And served on a serving plate like this is gorgeous, and the audience loved it. 

A golden age for alternatives and rock

 Good evening everyone, 

The 2030's will be a golden age for rock and alternatives, including the Fantasy subculture. 

I see Faun winning an Edison award for best album, 

I see rock becomming just as much an official classic music style like opera 

I see fantasy items you would before only find at events being sold in common home deco stores 

I see some Fantasy novels becomming official literature. 

It's something that starts, probably, when Uranus is in Cancer, and the war and the crisis are done.Fantasy  Gothic becomes THE It-style for fashionista's that decade. 

It's such reccomendation for what they have done. And the world can't deny it anymore: This is official culture. And the Fantasy Gothic Rock people are the artists. Mind my words, it's going to happen, it will be a period off bloom for them. 

It's just that during the 2040's the hype is over. And people will lean towards orange and green. Really, it's going to feel insane how much reccommendation the scene will get during the 2030's. It's incredible. 

If I would have been in school during that era, I would have dared to speak up about my interest to people. While I kept quiet during my younger years, afraid to be beaten up or bullied, or left out by them. I never told them Elfia saved my soul. But during the 2030's, I think ordinairy people, where 'alternative.' and 'subculture.' lies very sensitive, can openly brag about such things. I never had the guts to. 

It's sad how it's now the other way around, and real life keeps me from the mental havock from events. The scene doesn't work for me. So I prefer to stay away from them, and live in relatively peace. I can miss being demonized like a hole in the head. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good morning at the 28th off October, 2024.

 Good morning everyone, 

Today is a rainy and dreary day in Fall in the Netherlands, leaves are colouring and falling on the pavement. It's Autumn Ambiance at it's finest.

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I personally think the Ukraine-Russia war will still be there around 2026. And it won't have to do with planetairy transits or the upcoming American elections wheter it ends then and there. Planets can do magic and they mean a lot, but it won't have to do with this filthy war. And the transits won't make it to an end. It's kinds tricky business to predict that. 

In short term we have Pluto transferring from Capricorn to Aquarius,  Uranus transferring from Taurus to Gemini, and Neptune from Pisces to Aries. Followed by Saturn from Pisces to Aries. All off that won't have an influence on the war's end. Though some might believe miracles will happen with it. Unfortunately I think the war will still be there in two to four years. It's a whole lot. And we have to grid our teeth when it comes to this one. It's an obscene mark in history we have to live through. I can't be any more positive about it than that. In two years we will still be in this shiny bright business, so to say. Don't believe in miracles when Harris will get elected. That's my warning to you. I don't know if she will, but it's a possibility in this rathouse called world, that Trump will be elected for the second time. 

Any prissy who wants it softer, won't come to their satisfaction with it. Thank me later on. I can't go more soft during a war era with this. That would be dangerous, and people might get unrealistic expectations. Shove your big plans on the very long term. It may not sound nice, but I can't go soft on you with this. That'd be irresponsible. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

Good morning at the 23th off October, 2024.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's still too dark outside to see the weather. 

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I'm writing this weblog while my nails dry. I painted them 'but first Toffee.' by Essence. 

I'm taking over a lot off coffee shifts this week. My colleague is on a vacation, and I took more than half her shifts. It's quite a lot, given that usually I only work one shift a week, officially. But last month I took over from a sick colleague, which made two a week, and this week it's four a week. It's quite a lot. I can't work, officially, and these coffee shifts are tiring and I'm not that stable as a person, but my nice side wanted to cover up for my colleagues. So I helped them out for now. The lady who got sick returned, so I got free Fridays again. (She broke her wrist. I took over for a bit longer than a month for her.) I decided I purchased a cute hat from all that working. I purchased a straw hat on the internet. I think it's a cute and funny item for Summer. I don't earn that much. It's a bit more than 10 euro's a month for serving coffee for my regulair shifts. All the take overs are still counted- and I already purchased that hat. Maybe I should think like a common work person: You can only buy when you earned it. Not when you see it. I paid it from my payment account, but I believe I earned it back. The hat was on a discount. Including shipping costs, it's what I granted myself for these shifts. It's just a volunteer fee off 1 euro an hour. It's the participation and the working that counts. It's just that it almost feels like a regulair job with all those take over shifts. But it's allright for this moment. It's just that I can't work that on a steady base. So it's just a simple volunteer job for me. 

I think Ukraine is going to lose the war with Russia, and it will leave the West with loss off face. As far as this looks, it's as if Russia is going to win. But then I'm using my common sense and logic. They're too strong for Ukraine to beat. As far as I can see. It's the logic off the day to simply live by if the war develops itself like this. I think we won't come to their rescue. It's tragic, but it's what I feel will happen. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

   

Good evening at the 10th off September, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's raining cats and dogs this evening. 

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I wish for you to consider a certain possibility, something, an outcome that might be. 

Namely for Trump to win the American elections and the situation in the world to continue the way it is. It is very well possible Trump will win those. I don't know why I'm telling you this, just the fairies whispering it in, so to say. It's a potential, it's drama, it's not the end off the world, but it could be bad for economics and peace. 

Why do I think so? Is it just a personal fear? No, it's the fairies whispering in conservative America is not ready for a black female president. It's too much for them to handle. Despite Trump having records as long as an arm. (It's how they said it back in the olden days in films: 'A record as long as an arm.') 

I know some off you believe in fairytales and Kamala sounds too good to be true. Be aware conservative America might strike in this. I think I should warn you for the possibility. I don't know if 'the world ever after.' will come true with Trump for the American president. And all MY hopes for the future are fairytales after all, including that wicked 'New Grunge' look I have foreseen. 

'Een gewaarschuwd mens telt voor twee.' As how they say it in Dutch. 'A warned person counts for two.' As how it goes translated, I don't know if there is a litteral American translation to that proverb. I think the world should be warned. It's something that might happen. Don't be too optimistic about the future these days. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good evening at the 9th off September, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was the last nice day according to weather forecasts, we're at the beginning off a period off Autumn, cold and rain. 

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I'm on period pills, pills that are supposed to cause a woman's menstruation period. And I feel it. I'm emotionally kinda wobbly. And I'm mentally wobbly. Kinda stressed these days. I could do better. 

Maybe they will call Dirty Blonde hair Mayonaise and Ketchup hair later on. You know, that modern 'IT-hair.' In the shade Dirty Blonde. I also have it myself. Mayonaise and Ketchup colour. I told Mark van der Stelt's ex-wife to 'vreet her arrogance with Mayonaise and Ketchup.' ('Vreet die kapsones op met mayonaise en ketchup!') On the back off a letter omce. I don't know if she got that. To think you are a whole lot off something is one thing, to think I respect that when it's not adjust is another. 

But yes, the Mayonaise and Ketchup hair off modern war-era. And everyone has it. I think I'm the first one to come up with 'Mayonaise and Ketchup hair.' While having it myself. I have the feeling we're not off that trend yet. I'm moody enough to offend people with that certain hair to Mayonaise and Ketchup hair. It's something else than calling it 'statement hair.' all the time. 

I have trouble eating and getting food in. I eat, but with difficulty. I still get my meals in, but not that much and not wholehearted, and not scorfing it in like a wolf, like sometimes. It's in moderation and that's allready kinda hard. Not because it's expensive- I eat according to Dutch standards, and it's not too bad, but with trouble getting even one plate in. I think it's not worrysome yet, but it could be better. Maybe because there's such a burdensome topic about food going on, which makes it hard to eat. And maybe I should respect my nature. And not go against it. As long as I get basic needed food in. I even had fried eggs for lunch and because it's 'that time',  I forced myself a chocolate bar in. (Which was very good, actually.) I need food to keep the medication working. A start up in the morning to fill my stomach before I got my meds. I think it's not that worrysome yet, As long as I eat. But it's strange how actually I eat less, and gain weight. Since food seems less appealing to me. I think something is wrong with me if it makes me lose a crazy amount off weight. Since that's not the matter yet, it's only a small issue. 

Maybe it's even a good thing, given I'm a big woman with enough fat to handle less food. And maybe I'm going back to honey blonde when this crisis is done. I love a nice shade off honey in my hair. No matter if it's the latest trend. It could just be an awfull lot off time further when I do so. Just like new glasses. Maybe I should not wait too long with them. I just hope I don't have to owe up in vanity when it comes to frames. I'm sensitive for them looking awesome, but it's probably gonna cost. 

Maybe I need to reveal something about this crisis and war. There are rumors about Iluminati wishing to enslave us to make us work for them with high debts to owe up for basic life costs. But that's not true and that's NOT going to happen. After this war and crisis, it's truly done. And people can act a little barbie-goth unruly for a while. And we're going to see better glamour than the Mayonaise and Ketchup fashion off nowadays. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

 

The 'Aquellium'.

 Good evening everyone, we're close to night. 

It's just that I had the idea short before bedtime to explain the Aquellium to you, the Pluto in Aquarius era we're passing. 

Aquarius is future and peace driven, but as far we can see, Pluto only comes with stuff we already know and war, it's the exact opposite off the Aquarius, and that can happen. Sometimes people are the exact opposite off their starsign, and I think this Aquarius to come with the old fashioned, is due to war. Appearently, when war occures, it became incredibly old fashioned and sober. Also due to lack off money, but it's something that stands out: The crave for the old fashioned. I believe it's the 'Aquellium.' As how I had it 'whispered in.' That causes it. And we will have to deal with it for the next 8 years at least. After that, it becomes a bit more modern, but Gothic. Not your average airy Aquarius style. Fashion will become dark, somber and Gothic. I swear. From a lipstick trend, to a serious 'It' hype for Barbie Gothic, as how I call the style. And I think the 'Aquellium.' will continue diffrently, since it's out off the usuall Aquarius style. But as far as I've seen, people who are an Aquarius, can be incredible cranks. Being all negative all the time. So, yes, Barbie Gothic. But it's more rich and decadent. 

I think the internet and people who are into Astrology are supposed to know, since it might make them wonder why Aquarius is so negative these days. It's because it's acting it's opposite. Extreme outcomes are less money, less improvement, war-driven and the crave for the old fashioned when it comes to style and fashion, and no improvement in entertainment and make-up. We will be a generation without true legendairy icons. These 10 years will end with a number one hit we heard time and time again by the Rolling Stones. And it's a bummer for the music industry. Namely 'Angie.'  Which will be 'The' hit for this decade. 

Most sergeants will tell you 'who the hell cares? It's war!' But it has a massive impact on youth, welfare and perceivement off these years. It's the most sober time since WWII, 

A time where we better be glad we can still live. Still eat, still dress, and sunshine on outside benches is free. Despite it will make us such poor idiots without a choice. And it draws us back to a minimum. Though it does to those without a safety net. But honest, Pluto in Aquarius does cause this, but it's an Aqualerium. Not the positive direction from the French Revolution, but more the negative side off it's opposite sides. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

Good afternoon at the 29th off July, 2024.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

It's way too sunny and hot outside for my liking. It's not my type off weather today. 

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Honest, I think it's not even visions, but something on my mind told me it's NOT going to be peace by the end off 2024, and it's going to be a damn dry Christmas for most. 'Zo droog als Sinterklaas zijn kont.' Like vulgair old ladies at Gortershof say. I think I don't like the idea off predicting peace wrong, so, I quit predicting peace on this weblog. Hell and heaven know if it's 2025, 2026 or 2028, for godsake. I'm fed up with it. I just know there should be peace concerts worldwide after peace came true. A real, big peace celebration. But is that going to happen? Usually I see too positive scenario's when I'm fed up with something. Then it's not clear enough anymore. 

But so far, Christmas is not going to 'feel like it.' This year, even worse than previous year, or during Corona, where everyone already seemed unpleasant to be around and cranky. With sky high prices and bills. But I think it's rather common sense that whispers me that in. If it continues like this. I hope my predictions for the short term will come true, and this whole situation won't last and last. 

Fasten your seatbelts, it's going to be awfull. Who am I with these kind off prognosis? Who wants to hear them from me? I could be an economic or a politician without the slightest idea off a spiritual gift if I start to talk like this. Or even a lobbyist for war economics, (since they seem to be in charge off everything)- but not a true future predictress.  

In that same category falls the idea economic quarter marks show a shrunk economy for the last quarter off a year. It's not predicting, just a feeling. I learned not to be positive about these years. And people start to think off me as a trouble maker if I point things out too loud these days which don't come true. I haven't happened to have done so in real life, people don't have the faintest idea I have done a prediction and try to point out actuall peace. But it's un-doable. But somehow I have the idea it will be a dry Christmas out off poverty for most this year. ('Gortdroge kerst.' Like how it's said here.) 

I should stop it at that for this weblog. People are un-doable annoying when I predict it wrong. I don't like to end up in fights, cold behaviour and discussion, and most off all: It's stressive. So I quit predicting on this weblog. The future at this point simply could not be more vague. 

Allright, that's about it for now-

Thank you for reading.  

Good afternoon at the 22th off July, 2024.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today it's changing clouds with sunshine. I find warm temperatures doable this way. 

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The news stated Zelensky wanted to discuss peace with Putin, but somehow I came to think it won't end soon. The Russia-Ukraine war won't be over that soon. That's what I think about it. Don't get too cheerfull too early, and don't start to hate me over a wrong prediction, don't get too harsh on me, it makes you dumb.   

To be honest, I don't think it will be over before 2026. And all attemps to peace will end up in vain somehow. Don't cheer too early, and don't get naive with life untill it's truly over. It's best to use your common sense a few months longer than to stop it before the war and the crisis end. If you use survival methods- don't quit them by now. I honestly think we are up to two to four years longer with the war in Ukraine. Maybe I should not step off off that point. But I can't guarantee it's true. 

And Biden is out off the race for American president, it was in the newspaper this morning. It's an even bigger point where I personally think Trump will win these elections. And some things are ment to be. But visions are a bit vague at the moment. But to be honest, I think Trump will win the American elections, and the war will continue. It's the worst case scenario I trusted to become true all the time. It's nothing to become cheerfull about for now. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.    

Good evening at the 11th off July, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today the weather was pretty good. Moderate warm but not too hot. And sunny but not scorching. Like how weather should be.  

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Today I took an escape to mom's. This morning was for swimming a few lapses at the local pool. I still swim every week. It's just that there happened to have been waaay too much children at the recreation section today. A school's game or so. It's very much to my relief a child is not off my own concern. 

I'm so concerned about the world all the time. I wish we could all afford everything again, and people would not have to suffer so much from the crisis. I overpainted bladdered off statement pink nails, so the colour is on again. It's bright fuchsia pink. 

I took an escape to mom's. de Boed is not very positive these days. People are negative and cranky. I don't know if bold, fuchsia pink is actually 'statement pink.' Just like the buzzing bright green. Maybe I'm just following a fashion trend and declaring it 'statement.' Just like my shoulder length, dirty blonde hair and my bright red lipstick. People are not complaining I'm disruptive or annoying with these. So I guess I'm not doing harm to anyone. Maybe I'm just annoyingly following stupid fashion. 

Maybe I'm even the only one trying to make these statements with fashion. I barely see anyone out on the streets or in the shops with it. I do see bright pinks and greens being worn, though. I'm not harmfull with it, maybe they'll just see me as someone wearing what's in fashion. And the fuchsia and the bright green where just a temporarily but expensive trend, though I did not pay much for having both on my nails. (In my opinion, it wasn't much.) Maybe it wasn't too bad off me doing so. I didn't pay the head price for it. 

Trends are following each other like crazy these days. I think that's Pluto in Aquarius. It's not so steady to tell what's on trend, or truly in fashion. Let's not be too bothered with it, unless I really like something. I decided on trying to keep pretty hands this weekend, though. I'm glad I put the nailpolish in my purse, so I can over-paint, and maybe it's not fashion (anymore) but fuchsia pink nails are really lady-like for a change. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

   

Good evening at the 11th off May, 2024, 2.

 Good evening everyone, 

It was a bright and sunny day in the Netherlands, almost too hot. 

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I think anyone sane should not be ignorant about my war predictions and statements. It's just too obscene and wrong to be. Austriches should be kicked up their ass about it. 

And something I have been wondering about, where are the lists and the overvieuws off top selling items off the 2010-2020's? The main hits off previous decade, the best items off the previous 10 years? Maybe everyone forgot during the crisis hazes, but most things are not known. Unlike the 2000's-2010's, which are already listed. Ain't nobody got time for the 10's? 😉

I think that sort off information is important to give an impression off era's. Maybe documented for later generations, maybe documented for us to look back on, and it should be made public. It could be interesting and even fun. But so far I haven't found the information about the 10's. 

It's just something I wanted to state this evening. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good afternoon at the 10th off March, 2024.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today it's cold and cloudy in the Netherlands. 

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This morning was for finally having my friend, the retired old zookeeper over for coffee. It was nice chit-chatting, and he is getting better from to have had bad health. Before, I didn't have the opportunity for coffee with him. He liked my Easter branch. 

I could start a statement on how having neighbours over for coffee and letting them admire your Easter decorations is also off importance for warfare. It's important to do so and still have these sorts off visits. What does it make it important for warfare? I think it is, but I just can't explain. I think it's the status that comes off from it. Some sort off 'Look what we still got.' To the Russians. I don't know how to put this, but is it truly usefull? Well, my neighbour had a good time. Liking an Easter branch, complimenting me on my good taste off living, and conversating with me about life.  The good energy off friendship that goes beyond borders off age. That makes it also important to me. What we do won't cause peace. It's just been coffee in a nice home among friends. 

So how is this well put togheter home, aside to having coffee and admiring an Easter branch off true importance for a war? It's how a British home maker from WWII would have done it in her days. 'As if nothing is going on.' ? No, it's a statement that life is still good in here. And they haven't taken that away from us yet. It's not perfect to live here. But even during a war, it stands firm. It's something to be proud off. And my pride is displayed in this small yet cozy home. It's even a bit decadent. (For a small care home.) If this was anything bigger than this flat, I could not have put up with it. I don't know if it truly helps waging this war this way. Maybe I'm just silly, and should not even do an attempt in showing off pride. But to me personal, it's better than dwelling in dirt, feeling sad all the time. I have no clue if it's good or bad, but at least I did an attempt to do something. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.     

Good evening at the 7th off March, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was sunny yet windy and cold. Winter gets over to spring. 

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Facebook had a bug, it was good enough to bite the tail off my Schizophrenia. I believed I was hacked ans right-winged secret services wanted to take it down, because I was a threat to national safety. Due to my letter to the newspaper. If people would look me up and see I'm left-winged, I could influence the elections. But it turned out to be a bug. 

I'm weary off secret services. I constantly think there's a spy in my computer. Litterally commenting on what's on screen and voices coming out off my laptop. 

What if a sane guy would see something in me? That passes my mind, too. I can't help but thinking I need the 'we need to talk.' sentence for that. 

'Listen, son. We need to talk about this before it gets out off hand. I'm a psychiatric patient, with a governmental wage living in a care home. I'm NOT fit and sane enough for daily life. If you haven't seen me for real, I think my real life appearance would make you pass me by at least ignorant, but probably it makes you disgusted. I'm 6 foot tall, I weigh more than 180 kilograms and I wear thick glasses.' (In Western Europe, I count as too much for people.) 'And I need medication, I function badly in real life, and I got bad condition. You would not think off me the same if you knew me in real life.' Especially given the stigma there is on people like me. I would not be capable to be a good wife, and I can't be a mother. There is no future for me with a normal guy in the ordinairy world. Aside to that, I'm less sharp in real life than I tend to be on the internet. I think sharp, but I don't react as cool as I do on here. And I'm declared mildly autistic on top off everything. I'm too difficult for the ordinairy public, that's why I'm put in here. Don't think you make an exception.' 

I can think off a millon con's on why an ordinairy guy should not want me. I'm declared anti-social autistic. I am anti-social. A normal guy would get sick off it. I think we got the reason for why making real life friends is so hard: Autism and Schizophrenia. And ugly obesity. I got admirers in real life, mainly too old fellow clients who love my cooking. But I keep my sane distance to them. 

I happen to tried to impress a young, admirable care taker this morning by bragging about Mexican Nacho soup from the Soup Bible, but I had a kind but always filthy fellow client who I see as unsuitable litterally drooling over it. (drooling can be a side effect to medication.) Pushing the care taker away with his walkng frame. And staring at me like I was the admirable one before they had to take off to get his medication. 

The young care taker I feel a click with is A. Out off my reach, and B. Not impressed to begin with, probably. To brag is probably not the way. It's how men try to impress women. And even then it's not a guarantee for succes. People my age I find suitable are mainly care takers who are not allowed. And perfect soup making from 'The one and only Soup Bible, hearhearhear.' this Wednesday... I'm afraid I'm just a client in his eyes. And big, fat and ugly, and my hair was blowing in my face all the time from it being windy outside. It could have been a perfect sketch for a comedy. But that's how far my love life reaches: Completely desperate. I got the luck I'm at the point where I try to be as clean as I can get myself each day. So I don't have to be embarassed by it anymore. But pretty? Naw, I'm not good at that whole 'love interest.' - stuff. Just being stupid old me. Care takers are not allowed. But I can't help being a bit mesmerized by this one. He has the luck off being a Pisces from the end off February,  (The beginning off the Pisces period.) and that whole Leo-Pisces magic works between us. It's usually the Leo being struck by it. (Me) But I don't know if it's luck or bad luck to us both. He's such a sweetie. The world misses a guide. Something especially for Leo-women on 'How to catch that Pisces.' Since I feel a bit hopeless with it. But maybe that's a good thing since it's a care taker. My natural respond, is a form off bragging. Trying to impress. But maybe that's not the way. But so far so good: I'm not allowed with him. 

Normal men should safe their ass and scorf off to sane business when it comes to me. I'm no option. 😉  

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

     

Good evening at the 29th off February, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's been dark and gloomy weather all day. It's been even misty from raining this morning. I didn't know that was possible. It's something you only see in movies: When there's such rain the lines blurr and everythng becomes misty and vague. 

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I have something positive and original in mind. What if a studied through Emeritus professor from a university in the field off war and foreign politics advises against participating in the war for the Union, and for the presidents simply to take that advice very serious? Simply there will be no NATO-war due to his utmost serious, well-thought out advice simply because off nuclear threat? What if we had such a professor, all presidents and Ursula von der Leyen would listen to? And for the war simply to stop because a council off professors and scientists would advice against it. 'It's not the smartest thing to do.' And they will simply end it then and there, without further escalation. I think I'm very naive, optimistic and maybe day-dreaming about the scenario. I'm thinking off a '70's professor with a mustache and glasses. A vintage suit and smoking cigars to the matter. These well-thought out types probably don't excist anymore. Thinking out bad situations with daydreams is something bad about me. It's then I myself become optimistic, or simply had enough off all the bad and my endings become dream-like. But sure, what if? 

Another thing, what could people use nowadays? A bit off feel-good, vintage comfort cooking! So probably a well-read magazine receipe for cheap semolina pudding from a vintage pudding mold with berry lemonade as it's sauce. Something achievable from grandma's age. With a beautyfull, glossy, shiny pudding situated on a perfect picture in a nice article. Griesmeel pudding! Something to pass through a boring weekend. On a budget, kid- friendly and bursting with that nostalgia we all crave these days. It's not expensive. I could advice it to anyone wishing for a mind set- off and a great dessert during the weekend. A nice ending to a family dinner. Something to keep up our spirits with. 

I have been making Brocoli-Zuchinni soup this week for Wednesday Soup at de Boed, community centre in Zaandijk. With small cubes off ham I baked in a frying pan before adjusting. My soup had several green herbs from de Boed's pantry in it. Today we had a left over from it. de Boed pays all ingredients when I'm preparing Wednesday Soup. I picked it up again some time ago. This week's soup is a speciality off mine and was well-received by fellow clients and staff. I don't know if we can declare Zuchinni soup out off fashion already. It's been a food trend during my younger days and I'm not aware off what's in fashion for food anymore. But dressed up like my version, it still goes in perfectly. They don't care. To them it's probably not out-dated, old as they are. But they love the soup. It gives me a feeling off appreciation. And I love the 'It doesn't matter, we love it.' - feeling that comes from them and this work. Everyone should have that somewhere. The sincere feeling off never to be found stupid and outdated simply because they're still loved for what they do. 💖 I think we all deserve that. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.     

Good evening at the 13th off February, 2024, 2.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today started beautifull, but ended dreary and rainy. 

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I happen to have a feeling about the year 2025. I swear, it's something I can't explain and it's something utmost good for mankind. I think peace will break through that year, and the Russia-Ukraine war will come to an end. It's something great about that year. And peace might happen. But that's a positive scenario and it's diffrent from the doom I have seen before. 

We will see this year an utmost bad year for economy, so prepare and I think you will think I speak in fairytales. But 2025 is going to be amazing acording to my underbelly feeling. It's peace. It's positive marks. And the next year we finally dare to spend a bit more and the economy off our sweet old Netherlands will be saved. Around 2026. If I follow this feeling... it's perfect. 

I was preparing for 2028 so to say, but it's going to be earlier. I hope I'm not a charlatan. And it's going to be the last thing we will see off this war. It's so optimistic, bright and positive for 2025, I would not believe it if I would not feel it so clear. I'm not an optimist, I'm not a pessimist so it seems, I'm a realist. Also with this feeling. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.