Good morning at the 2nd off November, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's cloudy and dark outside, the sky is still invisible. 

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Yesterday I had great dessert, I had a bowl off skinny forest fruit yoghurt topped with rubies. 😉 

It's actually pomegranate seeds, but they look like rubbies if you make them decorations for desserts. It was pretty good, actually. It's my idea off luxury: eating fresh fruits and vegetables during this time, and to keep my health good with it. It was on a discount, so it wasn't as pricey as rubbies. 😋 I'm proud to still eat dessert on my small income. Low fat fruit yoghurt, sometimes topped with fruits. It's a good idea, actually. And it's not expensive, except for the fruit topping. But for good health, I think it's worthit. 

Life goes by this Autumn. I'm fighting ghosts from the past. It trigges delusions and psychosis. Just too bad. I talk about it with care takers. It's fighting the past. It's impossible, since only the now takes place here and now. We should live in the now. But the past can be such an echoput. Especially for us, mental types. We constantly got overhwelmed by situations from the past, and they trigger. I feel like being kept prison in Azkaban, where dementors keep you caught on bad memories. It's no suprise to me prisoners lost their mind there. It's also the ambience, it's constantly negativity, as if it's actually crowded with dementors, in Zaandijk at Gortershof, invisible for muggles. It also rains a lot here and the sky is so grey. 

What I do to fight it: Ambience and foods. A little more cozyness, well-cooked meals and music. Music from the past. I'm a homebody with a soft witch style in my home. I like it, despite others might think it's a bit weird, shabby chique and old fashioned. But it's my personal thing. It's how witches keep the negativity off dementors out. I hope people don't dismay me for it, I like to show some off it on my internet. It can't keep me from still being a bit negative and moody from time to time. Appearently, the classic British way is not the answer for everything. I still feel the moodyness. Though it's helpfull and more fun than Dutch in my opinion. 'You're fighting ballroomclouds.' But sometimes, the ballroomclouds are so strong, especially during these years. And chocolate is also not the answer for everything. It just softens sharp edges. (Usually I eat it moderately, but I had voices in my head making me order it. It was good, but it's no solution to darkness) 

Care takers think I'm crazy for refering to myself 'Like Ginny Weasley.' at times, but I like to think myself as country oriented and cheap but still fancy, like her. Having to do witch chores and try to keep my head up despite it all. If I refer to Harry Potter, they don't like. If you don't get the reference, you might think I'm crazy for it. But I feel like a poor county witch daughter when doing it this way. Maybe I should make them read Harry Potter, or stop it. It's just that it doesn't matter, it makes me do house chores and try to keep it cozy and in order despite it all. Everything that misses, is mince pies for Christmas, 😉 but that makes me more poor and restricted than Ginny. Still, seeing her mildly as a role model works to straighten my back. 

I hope for a miracle to happen for my bad mood, it's a bit difficult. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.