Good morning at the 17th off November, 2024.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's still too dark to see the weather outside, it's 07.00 AM, but it's forecasted to become cold weather today. 

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I put on 'but first TOFFEE.' by Essence on my nails. 

It's a nice nude, and I type you this while my nails dry. I find blogging a perfect way to let nails dry as I'm buisy on the computer. And it's an innocent colour. I think hearts won't break over this, and eyebrows won't be raised by neighbours. It's as innocent as an apple. Yet it looks delicate and polished. It fits my skin colour well for a nude. 

It's a but prude from me when my eyebrows are a bit raised when someone wears fuchsia pink in their daily outfit. I know it's fashion, but I think it's something for the evening or a party nowadays, not just to show off with. But some ladies still do that and wear it loud and bright during day time. Maybe I should not be so judgmental about it, but most off the time I'm like 'You don't get it, that's for occasions.' But I don't say it out loud. I got a fuchsia pink shirt in my closet, too, but it's really for when there's something to celebrate. 'Make every day a celebration!' 'I do whatever I want!' I hear them say, and they would ditch me. It's a bit annoying, and I won't get there with them. But in my opinion, fuchsia pink is too much for daytime in this time and day of era. We should leave it for occasions, when there's something to celebrate. 

I have the obligation to behave when it comes to clothes. I live amonog elders who want it a bit normal. Not too weird, yet not too boring. The rest off my outfit is orange shades, and a black pants. (A fuzzy orange sweater over a light orange longsleeve. In pumpkin shades.) But that's acceptable. It's soft enough not to harras. Combined with this nailpolish, it looks very nice. 

Maybe I look back at this later, and think it's a bit weird. But these are nowadays dresscodes at a place where they want me to behave. I think they started to accept a bright red lipstick as a statement colour, so I wear it during coffee services. But it's best not to pull it further than that with them. Why I adapt? Because I love them. They're judgmental, narrow minded and prude, but they accept me and they like me for who I am and I love them for that. So I decided to keep it in their lines off acceptable. The elder neighbourhood folks and the fellow clients. It's not really dogshit I do this for. So Yeah, 'But first TOFFEE.' combined with pumpkin shades. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.     

 

Good evening at the 16th off November, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was a grey and gloomy day covered in fallen leaves. 

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Today was for trying at de Boed again, I had called in sick for two days. I felt a bit off. Today I had coffee moments and I baked for Sunday. It's been productive and usefull for a Saturday. I baked stuffed Speculaas, since Sinterklaas entered the Netherlands, and our 'Sinterklaasperiode.' Has officially started today. 

I will share this tomorrow afternoon. It's spiced cookie stuffed with almond paste, and decorated with almonds and eggwash. I smuggled with a package. It's an art to make this from scratch, but that's too expensive during this crisis. It requires fresh cookie spices and a special technique. It will be something for after the crisis. I think my fellow clients and care staff won't mind about it, though. It's perfect weather for this. All gloomy and dark. I couldn't cover my entire top with Speculaas dough, so I tried to fill in the gasp with almonds. haha, I hope that won't be an issue either. Usually the dough from those packages comes spare. I had to roll the bottom out with a rolling pin. I should try a smaller springform. (This is a square springform) but it was about 24 cm on the package, and this is about it. I think they don't mind, but it was a bit off a jigsaw to fill it in.  

I slept little, I start to become a little weary. I get up too early. Around 5.00 AM, and I can't sleep much longer. I start to feel it, also mentally. It happens too often for me to sleep so little. Mental patients need their sleep, and they need a lot off sleep. I have to get out at 8.00 AM for medication, officially. But that happens barely. I also got in quite late. Well I never worry, now that is a lie (- Under the Bridge, Red Hot Chilli Peppers.) I think I will get in early with an 'if necessairy.' extra medication. And my head hurts from voices, it's a bit buisy in my head. I should stop overthinking things. Finally put a dot after it, and end the tale. But it keeps on bugging me. I have been through a lot. It's difficult to forget. And the voices keep on creeping up. 

This is what I'm doing at this moment: I have tea, but this picture is not made on this day, but I have too many tea pot and tea glass pictures on my phone. So it's replacable. I'm having green tea, since it was on a discount and I ordered a stock off it. I love green tea. It's a healthy heart enhancer. And it's good for you when you drink it without sugar, on a regulair base.

My headache is getting too much, I end today's story here. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

   

Good afternoon at the 10th off November, 2024.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today is a cold and gloomy day in the town off Castricum 

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This weekend, I have been at my mom's. She has her birthday tomorrow, but I've been here all weekend. My family takes me being here very well, sometimes my brothers got a bit annoyed by me. When my Schizo symptoms show up a bit too much. But it has kept quiet this weekend. I have two younger brothers. 

The eldest is going cookie baking today. He's up to making gingerbread. Last time I was here, he had prepared pumpkinpie, and he's kinda good at it. I think he loves baking as much as me. There was a time he got all into home made chocolates, and he's great at preparing Asian cuisine. he's easy to purchase gifts for. Asian cookbooks usually do it for him. Or any kind off 'manly' cookbook with cool receipes he wishes to try. And yes, he cooks well. I tasted it, it's fine. 

My mom has her birthday tomorrow. 

 

I have a cute gift, aside from the usuall big box off local handmade Zaandijk chocolates she loves. My mom adores those. But yes, this year it's sided with a gift. it's also easy to purchase my (picky) mom a gift, she likes the old fashioned Zaandijk culture, so usually a gift in that style does it. Or the biggest box off chocolates from the chocolate shop. I have set money aside for that. It's just that the retailer is going to retire, and she doesn't has a follow up. It's better than Leonidas, and it's really one off a kind vintage chocolate shop with spaces for artists to hold a gallery. It's so cozy and sweet, it's like coffee and chocolates at a decadent great grandmother when I sit there. And the coffee cups are pure gold vintage at that place. 

 I couldn't resist to purchase a small bag off it for myself, and I'm spare with it. One or two at a time. She's perfect at chocolate making. And she has the perfect, decadent old fashioned interior. In Zaandijk, we all hang to the 1930's sometimes. It won't get any more modern in our minds than that. And I love it. I can't help it, I just love that old fashioned decadency from decades ago. If you're not up to that sort off style, it's not on you. It's just that this is the real old fashioned style off the Netherlands. And if you love it, it's perfect. I'm kinda fond off the old fashioned. like maybe you can see  and feel on this weblog. It's mainly love I feel for it.

My home even leans to the vintage style. It's classy furnitured. Not too old fashioned, but still it's nice and coquette like. I think everyone is secretly a bit vintage at heart. I can't help it. Somehow I think it's something most people love, or secretly hold a soft spot for. The vintage, the 1920's-1950's, the old fashioned, the styles, it's in all off us somehow. I live in a place where the classics never die, and where Chatlie Chaplin, impregnating a woman at the age off 80 is still talk off town among baby boomers. They still talk about that. And where they still love Laurel and Hardy, and where those rock classics never die. Perfect for an old soul like mine. They got me into Sam Cooke and the Buena Vista Social club recently. It never gets old among them. I love it.  

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

 

 

We will get out off this

 

Good afternoon everyone, 

It's a cold day in Autumn 

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For all off you with no money on the bank, and barely food in the fridge, reading this from their mom's computer: 

We will get out off this. The crisis won't last for a lifetime. The world will get out off it, and the next decade is going to be brilliant again, while this one looks like nothing. I swear, it won't last forever. 

Maybe you feel desperate, maybe you have seen it all, maybe you can't get by another day. But we will pass this by if we're healthy, and one day, after 2032, we will have handled it and we can look back all decadent and saturated with stuff and homes to this period again. It's one Bitch off a crisis, but if we grow older, we will simply get out off it. I'm talking to my fellow, screwed over generation peers in the outside world. 

The crisises and the war won't last forever. Period. We just need to stand this a bit harder, grid our teeth a bit sharper and bear the burden a bit heavier. It's not going to be cheap. And we need to depend on our parents and family a bit heavier. But we'll make it. (DON'T forget to thank them later on.) 

And don't forget, you are not the only one doing bad, or being in a strange situation. With no money, barely food in the fridge, reading this from their mom's computer. You matter, you are NOT alone. You are not the only one without presents for the holidays, or bills getting out off your nose. And remember, it's good to be alive. So seek the cool things in life and keep on getting joy out off them. I mean the free things. Hopefully for yourself, you know what those are. 

I don't know who I inspired with this. - I just hope I did. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

P.S, I wanted to share this image with you: 

I shared tray cake at de Boed this week, home made. And I found this image off it worthit for my weblog. It's with berries. And served on a serving plate like this is gorgeous, and the audience loved it. 

I feel I'm kinda noisy

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was a cold, autumnal day in the Netherlands. 

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I feel I'm a bit on the noisy side, I wish to know about other people this Christmas, what do they wear? What style off decoration do they choose? What will they eat? What's for presents? Just style in general? Is there a pattern among diffrent people and homes this year? Is it more cheap due to the economics, or does it sparkle as ever? Strange, but I would love to know all that. I have friends and family I can ask, offcourse, but I like to know about more people. And how they Christmas this year. What's most for style in general? Maybe they should open a platform  or a website 'Everything Christmas.' or something in Dutch 'Alles Kerst.' Where the whole country can discuss. I hope mainly common people will answer, and not troublemakers or trolls on what they will do for Christmas. 

I would like to know from other people. Maybe they can inspire each other on a platform and share tips on certain Christmas topics. I honestly have never found a Christmas forum on the internet. Or a platform on Facebook. I would like to see nicely decorated homes, trees, dinners, presents, outfits- Maybe Christmas 2024 should have it's own Facebook page, but I'm not kinda good at those sort off things. So I think I should not open it. I'm kind off a troll myself, so I don't know how to maintain peace at a webpage. 'Everything Christmas.' sounds original. I think to know about it all is very interesting. And they should refresh the website every year. I'm just not much off a webhost. Sometimes I come up with ideas I can't practice. They pop up but don't make it. Just like Fantasy themed baking ware- just as impossible to make happen. 

But yeah, what everyone does. That's the main question. Maybe they'll all dust off old stuff and good old classics from the ceiling this year. I expect that in an expensive time. Especially in a poor place with a hang to nostalgia like Zaanstad. But that's for them, and actually I don't know about others. I feel I'm kinda noisy with it, but I just want to know about it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- Thank you for reading.   

 

A golden age for alternatives and rock

 Good evening everyone, 

The 2030's will be a golden age for rock and alternatives, including the Fantasy subculture. 

I see Faun winning an Edison award for best album, 

I see rock becomming just as much an official classic music style like opera 

I see fantasy items you would before only find at events being sold in common home deco stores 

I see some Fantasy novels becomming official literature. 

It's something that starts, probably, when Uranus is in Cancer, and the war and the crisis are done.Fantasy  Gothic becomes THE It-style for fashionista's that decade. 

It's such reccomendation for what they have done. And the world can't deny it anymore: This is official culture. And the Fantasy Gothic Rock people are the artists. Mind my words, it's going to happen, it will be a period off bloom for them. 

It's just that during the 2040's the hype is over. And people will lean towards orange and green. Really, it's going to feel insane how much reccommendation the scene will get during the 2030's. It's incredible. 

If I would have been in school during that era, I would have dared to speak up about my interest to people. While I kept quiet during my younger years, afraid to be beaten up or bullied, or left out by them. I never told them Elfia saved my soul. But during the 2030's, I think ordinairy people, where 'alternative.' and 'subculture.' lies very sensitive, can openly brag about such things. I never had the guts to. 

It's sad how it's now the other way around, and real life keeps me from the mental havock from events. The scene doesn't work for me. So I prefer to stay away from them, and live in relatively peace. I can miss being demonized like a hole in the head. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good morning at the 3th off November, 2024.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's still too dark outside to see the weather. 

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Yesterday was for a walk across de Zaanse Schans, and photographing it. It was kinda nice, it wasn't too crowded, and it felt nice and cozy being there. Zaanse Schans is almost around my corner. Just a small walk and I'm among windmills and heritage buildings in a park that's dedicated to Dutch life centuries ago. I like it there. It's always crowded with tourists. And nothing screams 'Dutch Pride!' Like those authentics. Let's share some pictures off it on here. 

This duck came over to me and sat a while with me, almost as if we had some friendly understanding. 

I purchased a pack off fresh syrup waffles to share at de Boed's afternoon coffee, and a souvenir. 

This lovely cake tray off Amsterdam canal houses is one off a series. I also own the one with the windmill, so I wanted this one aswell. It's been really going after treasures today. And everyone was gratefull for the syrup waffles. It's been a great day. Dutch heritage is something to be proud off. 

I don't like to come off extremely right-winged in politics with that, it's something the national socialists have claimed for a while, our cultural heritage. But it's not what I stand for, or wish to stand for. I think it should be claimed much more by left winged political parties, Dutch pride, our roots, our feeling off comfort that comes from our cozy cultural heritage before it's too late. People here get a lot off comfort from it and are proud off it. We should all be proud off our cultural heritage. So I'm not some sort off extreme right nutcase with it. 

I think it's good to share it on here, with what's going on in the world. We should take even more pride off this during a war time. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.