Good evening at the 4th off January, 2026.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today is for snowstorms in The Netherlands. 

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Sometimes, something stares at you and you gotta have it, or elsewise you just know it will be gone. I got that with a present for my family, it was short before Christmas, and I felt Christmas wasn't the time for it, it looked more like a Spring time present, so I shove it to Mother's day. It's a hand clayed and painted serving tray with ducklings. 

It looked so cute, and I found it reasonably priced for a gift. It was so cute... and if something stares at me like this, it's for the fam. I wrapped it, and to tease mom, I send a message with it, but she doesn't read this weblog. 

I got very bad wrapping skills, but still- it's 'creatively' wrapped. The wrapping paper was just a bit old, from the storage room. But still fit for the job. I also wrapped grandma's capital G keychain 

Did I already mention I got bad wrapping skills? I just hope they like these. Hand-made and well ment by de Boed, community centre in Zaandijk. Grandma's birthday is at the end off this month. For Mother's day, I'm a bit too in time, but it's in time. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

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Good morning at the 3th off January, 2026.

 Good morning everyone, 

Wet snow is falling outside the window. It's still dark. 

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I'm out off coffee. That shall teach me to hamster. I have been hamstering an amount a few years ago- but it was all spoiled and it ended thrown away during a time where coffee is something to win a prize for. I think it would be totally acceptable if people would do house games and one off the prices is a pack off Douwe Egberts coffee. Expensive as it is. 

It's 02.30 midnight, I can't sleep that well. I watched a movie last night, and even over something simple as Love Actually, my mind is over-acting and prickly. I barely watch movies, but it's a pitch dark winter, so I'm going to. Maybe I should get used to movies instead off acting so whimpish. It's healthy to take media in. It's unhealthy to be an austrich. But it's a bit off a challenge for a mental patient. Today is a free Saturday, so I got all the time to watch Netflix. Though I should not over-do it. But still, if I wish to stay ahead, I should watch all the classics. I have started to watch classic romantic comedies. From the era where actresses where actually a tad too perfect. I totally see why women did have such a low self-esteem in the days. But still, nothing but therapy from a romantic comedy to soothe the mind. 

But each to their own, I'm a bit mentally prickled from actually doing something aside from watching the news. Usually, if I can set myself to it at all, I watch the evening news, and otherwise the TV is out. Often it's all I can take. The news is not recommended, but I do watch, to be informed about what happens in the world, and about what they want you to know. It informs about governmental cuts and the duration off wars. So I can make a mental sketch off whether it's gonna cost and what is gonna cost. It's one reason to watch the news. Bad harvests and war make groceries more expensive. It's interesting enough to keep me watching, if I can. Usually my mind is too full to take media in. But it's important enough to tune in at times. If something doesn't want you to watch the news, you should not trust it. My intuition tells me I should watch every now and then. Like, it was on the news energy prices are increasing- it's important to know. Especially during wartime, the people should stay informed. The situation is desperate, and the news gives more off an insight. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

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Good morning at the 22th off December, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's a cold and dark morning in The Netherlands. 

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I worry a lot, I shouldn't, but it happens. I worry about starving fellow clients who eat bad, and about my mom who cooks cheap and unhealthy. I should not mention everything, that can be shamefull for them, but I worry about their health. It's on the poor side in my part off the world. I myself eat healthy, but I'm also hungry often, from eating moderate. More moderate than what it used to. If I eat in moderation, fruit, vegetables, brown bread and healthy meals are still possible. Just like tea and milk. So I can feed myself. It's the holiday month, so I have a little extra with my coffee or tea when people are generous, but usually I don't. And If I have it's picture worthit. I get by, but I worry about others. If they can pass healthy. I decided I want to eat healthy during this crisis, despite everything being expensive. I save on other things. I'm sober with stuff, I don't even buy books anymore. There was a time when I spend money on novells aside to food. And it's not due to lack off money I saved on them, it's due to lack off motivation to read I don't buy those anymore. I had a thing for Japanese literature, usually containing cats. It's a bit basic how I live. But if times are expensive and uncertain, that's how we do. Still, at the moment I'm reading one off them, I have been hoarding quite a few. And there's still Japanese books I wish to read, despite the fog in my head. I got quite a pile. So it's not completely dry how I live. At the moment I read this book: 

 It does not has an English translation, sometimes Japanese books are only translated in Dutch. It's really feelgood. But I haven't added a new book to the 'to read' pile in a while. Still, it's piling. But that's the only thing my money went to this year. Healthy foods, and books. I have been behaving so poor, it's almost unbearable if I was an ordinairy person, but I had to tolerate poverty ever since early youth. It's been a bit harsh, but not undoable. I have been poor ever since I was 16. What can I say? Unemployed and mentally ill. Strange enough, I can cope with this crisis. 

But I should shove this weblog back on topic: I worry. Other people are not me, and I wonder how families are to be fed if this continues. One day, this will end. I'm certain. One day in the future, it's done with poverty on food and we can sigh in relief. I'm kinda certain about it, but it's difficult. The next year, will still be extreme. I'm doing hard from it. I can feel so guilty when someone is doing worse than I do. But I keep on continueing my standard, I still got to eat. I have to feed on healthy foods. I can't ditch it in my opinion because someone has low standards. They would not for me, so why would I for them? 

Last thing I wish to share, a picture off my dessert from last night: 

 

It's been low fat peach fruit yoghurt with fruit salad on top. It's been delicious, yes, I still eat dessert. I prefer healthy dessert, but I still eat it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good afternoon at the 15th off December, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

It's dreary and cold outside in The Netherlands today. 

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I have won a christmas gift for my mom at bingo some time ago, and I found a roll off free christmas wrapping paper in the give away closet, donated for free. I wrapped the gift, and now it looks fancy 

I also have a small box off chocolates for the family, which was the headprice, since it came from a real chocolate shop with handmade chocolates done by chocolate professionals. I took a cheaper amount than usuall, since I'm not that rich I can afford the 'biggest box for mom, please.' For this year. But still, it's Christmas chocolates. And they're for the family this year, combined with this so I have Christmas presents for Christmas 2025. Evil as it is. Expensive as it was. But I still got presents 😊

And I think today is for sending Christmas cards. 💖 It's the only thing I went overboard with this year, but I have few people to send them to, so I thought a fancy Hallmark box was acceptable. And yes, I still do Christmas cards. I'm still a bit old fashioned. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

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Good morning at the 15th off December, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's a dark and stormy morning. 

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De Boed has new coffee cups 

The old ones where more plain, these have fancy ridges and come from IKEA. I think they're so fancy, they could come from Paris. But maybe that's how I look at them. My mom also has these, but they did not copy her on purpose, at least that's what I think. I feel like a whole lot off something at our community centre when having coffee out off these. 😊 And yes, we always have it with a piece off fruit, since we're not allowed sugar holding products anymore with our hot drinks. (It's a new law for health care institutes in The Netherlands.) 

And I try to cope with the haze. The immense haze off these times, poverty and the war. I try to deal with it, but it's so hard, sometimes nothing works against it. It's really impossible to fight the moodyness that comes with it. And sometimes I feel Saturn in Taurus is not going to do well for crisis. It comes after Saturn in Aries. And we're about to deal with it in two and a half years after Pisces. It's astrology, and Taurus always means sobriety. Like we have seen the previous years with Uranus in Taurus, which was almost out off it's mind. It indicates sobriety and strictness. My advice? Hold up your pants a bit stricter, be after bargains a little better, and safe it on money a little louder. If you still can. I should not joke about it. It's serious business. And this country better doesn't hop to new trends, since I'm almost certain most ordinairy people can not afford. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

 

Good evening at the 14th off December, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Outside it's stormy, grey and windy. It's kinda moody. 

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Sometimes, there isn't much to say, I feel satisfied after cooking and eating traybake, and a dessert. The evening wasn't too bad so far, and I took pictures. I'm always proud my traybake ends up looking so festive. And my plates make it pretty. Just like my dessert, somewhat festive, and so pretty in a fancy bowl. It's all I can do to fight the gloom. I'm fighting negativity with cooking. And to me, it works. Good foods and a nice presentation do the job. 💖 My kitchen is simple, yet healthy. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 😉

Good morning at the 10th off December, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's a dark and stormy night outside in The Netherlands. 

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How to fight the blues, the worst poverty, the hunger, the ratchetness and the vulgairity? Simply by doing house chores and stay basic clean. Be a homemaker and keep the place tidy enough to keep it sane and very comfortable, and keep yourself clean up to a basic despite most people are poor. 

You might think I joke, but these basics can prevent the situation to become worse, and keep us healthy and comfortable in our own home during these expensive times. It doesn't has to be expensive to stay tidy, as long as you do it. It doesn't matter if the floorwash is cheap, as long as you weekly mop the floor with it. Just like brushing teeth: It has to happen. We're at that stupid point where ordinairy people stopped doing it. And start to look like street filth to me. I don't care if you think I'm unemancipated, at least I can stand this war appropriate and we can't say that about you to begin with. I think this would be less painfull if we could keep our dignity despite being poor. That's my opinion. 

I'm not a fashionista and I have never been, but I think I look better than the gross majority out there nowadays. Clean is a must. I don't care if they keep me for old fashioned, at least I can pass. I have never been a make-up princess from the past, but at least my face is clean and my clothes are tidy enough. And my hands are clean and groomed. That's how we do it during a war. I hope this ungrooming phenomenon among young people is a war phenomenon, and not something that will be continued. Offcourse I feel with those who can't afford a clean outlook, they have no choice. but those who choose to, should re-think themselves. Utmost basics in cleanliness should even be taught at schools in a time where people are hopelessly filthy. It has to do with health and hygiene. It's a basic in health care. But I'm preaching like an ass, so I should beware. 

I think I better end this weblog with a picture off my last night's dessert: 

Low- fat forest fruit yoghurt with fresh raspberries on top. It was delicious. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.