Good morning at the 22th off December, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's a cold and dark morning in The Netherlands. 

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I worry a lot, I shouldn't, but it happens. I worry about starving fellow clients who eat bad, and about my mom who cooks cheap and unhealthy. I should not mention everything, that can be shamefull for them, but I worry about their health. It's on the poor side in my part off the world. I myself eat healthy, but I'm also hungry often, from eating moderate. More moderate than what it used to. If I eat in moderation, fruit, vegetables, brown bread and healthy meals are still possible. Just like tea and milk. So I can feed myself. It's the holiday month, so I have a little extra with my coffee or tea when people are generous, but usually I don't. And If I have it's picture worthit. I get by, but I worry about others. If they can pass healthy. I decided I want to eat healthy during this crisis, despite everything being expensive. I save on other things. I'm sober with stuff, I don't even buy books anymore. There was a time when I spend money on novells aside to food. And it's not due to lack off money I saved on them, it's due to lack off motivation to read I don't buy those anymore. I had a thing for Japanese literature, usually containing cats. It's a bit basic how I live. But if times are expensive and uncertain, that's how we do. Still, at the moment I'm reading one off them, I have been hoarding quite a few. And there's still Japanese books I wish to read, despite the fog in my head. I got quite a pile. So it's not completely dry how I live. At the moment I read this book: 

 It does not has an English translation, sometimes Japanese books are only translated in Dutch. It's really feelgood. But I haven't added a new book to the 'to read' pile in a while. Still, it's piling. But that's the only thing my money went to this year. Healthy foods, and books. I have been behaving so poor, it's almost unbearable if I was an ordinairy person, but I had to tolerate poverty ever since early youth. It's been a bit harsh, but not undoable. I have been poor ever since I was 16. What can I say? Unemployed and mentally ill. Strange enough, I can cope with this crisis. 

But I should shove this weblog back on topic: I worry. Other people are not me, and I wonder how families are to be fed if this continues. One day, this will end. I'm certain. One day in the future, it's done with poverty on food and we can sigh in relief. I'm kinda certain about it, but it's difficult. The next year, will still be extreme. I'm doing hard from it. I can feel so guilty when someone is doing worse than I do. But I keep on continueing my standard, I still got to eat. I have to feed on healthy foods. I can't ditch it in my opinion because someone has low standards. They would not for me, so why would I for them? 

Last thing I wish to share, a picture off my dessert from last night: 

 

It's been low fat peach fruit yoghurt with fruit salad on top. It's been delicious, yes, I still eat dessert. I prefer healthy dessert, but I still eat it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good afternoon at the 15th off December, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

It's dreary and cold outside in The Netherlands today. 

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I have won a christmas gift for my mom at bingo some time ago, and I found a roll off free christmas wrapping paper in the give away closet, donated for free. I wrapped the gift, and now it looks fancy 

I also have a small box off chocolates for the family, which was the headprice, since it came from a real chocolate shop with handmade chocolates done by chocolate professionals. I took a cheaper amount than usuall, since I'm not that rich I can afford the 'biggest box for mom, please.' For this year. But still, it's Christmas chocolates. And they're for the family this year, combined with this so I have Christmas presents for Christmas 2025. Evil as it is. Expensive as it was. But I still got presents 😊

And I think today is for sending Christmas cards. 💖 It's the only thing I went overboard with this year, but I have few people to send them to, so I thought a fancy Hallmark box was acceptable. And yes, I still do Christmas cards. I'm still a bit old fashioned. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

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Good morning at the 15th off December, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's a dark and stormy morning. 

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De Boed has new coffee cups 

The old ones where more plain, these have fancy ridges and come from IKEA. I think they're so fancy, they could come from Paris. But maybe that's how I look at them. My mom also has these, but they did not copy her on purpose, at least that's what I think. I feel like a whole lot off something at our community centre when having coffee out off these. 😊 And yes, we always have it with a piece off fruit, since we're not allowed sugar holding products anymore with our hot drinks. (It's a new law for health care institutes in The Netherlands.) 

And I try to cope with the haze. The immense haze off these times, poverty and the war. I try to deal with it, but it's so hard, sometimes nothing works against it. It's really impossible to fight the moodyness that comes with it. And sometimes I feel Saturn in Taurus is not going to do well for crisis. It comes after Saturn in Aries. And we're about to deal with it in two and a half years after Pisces. It's astrology, and Taurus always means sobriety. Like we have seen the previous years with Uranus in Taurus, which was almost out off it's mind. It indicates sobriety and strictness. My advice? Hold up your pants a bit stricter, be after bargains a little better, and safe it on money a little louder. If you still can. I should not joke about it. It's serious business. And this country better doesn't hop to new trends, since I'm almost certain most ordinairy people can not afford. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

 

Good evening at the 14th off December, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Outside it's stormy, grey and windy. It's kinda moody. 

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Sometimes, there isn't much to say, I feel satisfied after cooking and eating traybake, and a dessert. The evening wasn't too bad so far, and I took pictures. I'm always proud my traybake ends up looking so festive. And my plates make it pretty. Just like my dessert, somewhat festive, and so pretty in a fancy bowl. It's all I can do to fight the gloom. I'm fighting negativity with cooking. And to me, it works. Good foods and a nice presentation do the job. 💖 My kitchen is simple, yet healthy. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 😉

Good morning at the 10th off December, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's a dark and stormy night outside in The Netherlands. 

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How to fight the blues, the worst poverty, the hunger, the ratchetness and the vulgairity? Simply by doing house chores and stay basic clean. Be a homemaker and keep the place tidy enough to keep it sane and very comfortable, and keep yourself clean up to a basic despite most people are poor. 

You might think I joke, but these basics can prevent the situation to become worse, and keep us healthy and comfortable in our own home during these expensive times. It doesn't has to be expensive to stay tidy, as long as you do it. It doesn't matter if the floorwash is cheap, as long as you weekly mop the floor with it. Just like brushing teeth: It has to happen. We're at that stupid point where ordinairy people stopped doing it. And start to look like street filth to me. I don't care if you think I'm unemancipated, at least I can stand this war appropriate and we can't say that about you to begin with. I think this would be less painfull if we could keep our dignity despite being poor. That's my opinion. 

I'm not a fashionista and I have never been, but I think I look better than the gross majority out there nowadays. Clean is a must. I don't care if they keep me for old fashioned, at least I can pass. I have never been a make-up princess from the past, but at least my face is clean and my clothes are tidy enough. And my hands are clean and groomed. That's how we do it during a war. I hope this ungrooming phenomenon among young people is a war phenomenon, and not something that will be continued. Offcourse I feel with those who can't afford a clean outlook, they have no choice. but those who choose to, should re-think themselves. Utmost basics in cleanliness should even be taught at schools in a time where people are hopelessly filthy. It has to do with health and hygiene. It's a basic in health care. But I'm preaching like an ass, so I should beware. 

I think I better end this weblog with a picture off my last night's dessert: 

Low- fat forest fruit yoghurt with fresh raspberries on top. It was delicious. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good morning at the 8th off December, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's stormy and dark outside at night, it's even so nasty, internet fails sometimes. 

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Yesterday, I decorated a christmas tree at de Boed, community centre in Zaandijk, at the second floor. It's kinda simple, and the tree was almost good for thrash when they found it last year. But offcourse, it's an organisation that has learned to flip it's pennies- so the tree was saved, and this year, bulbes and pine tree cones where bought for it. Last year, they borrowed mine for it. But decorating was still fun 

I got complimented on how well I did this. It's affordably cheap, and I know it's going to be liked by everyone who sees it. My own Christmas tree looks like this: 

It's been 5 euro's only for a tree. Done with previous year's decorations and a straw pot. It's cute for what it is. It's nothing too expensive for days like this. but still it does well for the home ambience. My interior decoration for Christmas is kinda kept sober this year. Moderation, since I think that's appropriate. And it's a real tree. It has a loot and it needs water every often. I should respect that. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

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Good afternoon at the 28th off November, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was grey, gloomy and dreary outside in The Netherlands. 

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I ordered a capital epoxy raisin G keychain for grandma's birthday. It's in two months. 

I ordered it at de Boed, and requested blue details in it. It also has some cute pink flowers. It's a very simple gesture, and it reminds me off Weasley sweaters. Wasn't it in Harry Potter where Mrs. Weasley always knitted letter sweaters for her sons? These somehow remind me off it. Maybe since these are affordable, compared to what is common nowadays, despite it almost being the price off a box off eggs. 

But I only have one grandma, and she deserves it, just like my stepdad. I'm about to wrap this either, offcourse in a small, left out piece off wrapping paper. Wrapping these cute small key chains is even affordable. Wrapping a letter sweater somehow seems more expensive, especially if you have to do about 7. But you got it: My presents for a sober January are almost safe and sound thanks to de Boed, community centre in Zaandijk and it's affordable small gifts and greeting cards. I also got a Mother's day gift, it was handmade and cute hand painted, and it almost stared at me 'I'm perfect for your family!' And if something pierces me with it's eyes, it's for my younger brother. I'll show on here when it's almost mother's day. 

This country has a long baking tradition, and the internet usually had the receipes off classics, semi-classics and new interprentations full in sight and on hand, but the crisis made those impossible and low in the algorhytms. You know, those very easy Dutch baking receipes everyone always did, but which are now too pricey, since they sell key chains the price off an egg box. Maybe I start about it since I'm only allowed fruit at coffee time. I sooo feel like stuffed speculaas, boterkoek or appeltaart, but I'm not allowed. Something delicious at coffee, home made and warm. Sometimes I got a syrup waffle or other cookie from Leviaan, only three times a week, and only if I attend at evening coffee. But usually they are incredibly strict and it's just fruit. It's a bit dry. Those receipes should be high in the charts again, everyone always making them. But what do I know? I think only my rich stepdad still bakes regulairly. And I'm not allowed in here to bake to begin with. Due to sugar rules. The government has strict rules on cookies and sugar in here. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.