Good evening at the 27th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Outside the Autumn winds blow. It's gloomy and a bit depressing outside. 

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I honesty have no clue if this happens, but it's on my mind: I may seem a bit expensive or impossible during crisis, but if they start to compare after crisis, I think they'll laugh or call me a scam. I do and eat things that are not supposed to be expensive, or still somewhat affordable if you saved your pennies ahead to this monkey crisis. If you did so and you compare, it's still possible. But for those without my insights- it may seem a little too much. I think I make people jealouse. It's been half my intention, but now I feel guilty. When they see me eat stuff they can't afford anymore. It's a bit sad. But I think after this crisis, it will be pulled straight, and I'm the laugh off the world again with my affordable old fashioned stuff and style off living. Like I used to be. Well, affordable? It's supposed to be. It was, some time ago. 

What old timer drinks their plain coffee with milk from a glass mug? And eat cheap vegetables like me? Or just slices off brown bread with toppings? People are jealouse, but after this crisis, I'm probably a bit too old fashioned, or arrange a birthday with old fashioned pastries one euro each? The old fashioned way is the way nowadays for me. Even if it makes me a bit off a plain Jane. But I'm on governmental wages, and I can get by this way. I hope they won't mock me after crisis for being a bit strange. If my dad would not have been such a babyboomer, I think I would not have accepted this style off nostalgia. But I don't mind this old stuff and a bit off a rigid home cleaning routine. I feel like a cozy, Vintage Belle in my cute doll closet. I wonder what my passed dad would have said about it. All the stuff from his youth brought back during a wartime. But honest, it's not a thing I mind. If we have to deal with it for a while due to lack off innovations due to money. I'm perfectly fine. I seasoned it with timeless shabby chique, and it's cozy. It can pass for a while. 

But still, it's a sport. To spot things fitting this style off living. But life is possible. Cuba has been dealing with the '50's ever since it's been '50's, and most poor countries don't improve that easily. Maybe that's our fate. But it's possible. Though not willingly. If you do timeless shabby chique and a bit off effort, you can maintain a sense off wealth, despite economics and prices. I don't want to make people jealouse, it's having a bit off an eye for style that makes it. Not the expensive stuff. It can perfectly be from ACTION's or second hand. Or a bit older. It has such a soul. It's beautifull in my eyes. Like a timeless ghetto home can have. A bit Old World, a bit off American New England, A bit classic British, A bit classic, blessed with a radio and feel good music, and we call this a crisis for the world outside. As the Autumn winds blow by, it perfectly works when I sit here with my cup off tea. Really soulfull. 

It's never been too expensive, that just has never been possible. But it's something I love and feel. And I mentioned well- ment soul stuff doesn't cost that much and always fits. No matter what. A bush off plain long stern roses for example, always does as a gift. And simply to make fresh coffee taste perfect warms the heart best- really minding how you make it. It makes a diffrence. And if expensive has never been possible- then how about tidy enough? It still gives a good feeling off luxury. They call this a ghetto. And it's a crisis. But I refuse to enlower standards. And that might give me a bit off a snobby feeling, while it's just classic junk and how you do it. I hope they don't mock me too much after this is done. Or start to compare. I might become the laugh off the internet for it. But it's been my way off taking on this crisis, and the idea off looking poor always has been against my pride. So I choose this real classic way off doing it. It's an inexpensive way off looking chique still. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.            

Good evening at the 19th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was a nice warm day in The Netherlands. Most people enjoyed this maybe last day off summer weather. 

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I belief we can discuss. People are born with a mouth and a mind, so we are made to discuss subjects. Also in relationships. You can talk things over, instead off heaping it up and assuming things are allright. I think a lot can be saved by asking your other half 'but how do you think / feel about this?' And let them have their way in a situation you won't die over if they had it. I'm not an expert. But people are such strong minded individuals, headstrong most off the time, and it doesn't make a relationship work all the time. 'But what do you think about this?' 'Is this allright with you?' And simply quit if you feel it's against their feelings, or you might hurt them or make them feel uneasy with behavior. People are headstrong and stupid, but we can discuss and we can use common sense. And a relationship is not a one-way road. Sometimes you have to compromise with them. I hope you have an equally intelligent individual in front off you with who you can discuss on a common ground about everything. Communication is important. Communication is key. 

I could sound like a psychologist, I just wish I had someone who understands and who I can be gratefull for. I wish for someone I can discuss the world with, without them to grow tired. Someone with a good opinion and their heart in the right place, and stories to tell. As easy as I come off online, in real life I'm quiet and a bit held back. I wish for someone who talks easy and who loves good conversations about- everything. You can get really close to someone if you know who they are on the inside for real. It's intimidating, but important. The key here is to feel I'm understood by him or her. Understood and felt with. It's so important I feel heard. Heard, and loved. I love a good man with a good sense off intelligence who loves to talk with me. But maybe for a man who isn't a care taker with a psychology care study, that might be a bit gay or impossible. It's bonus points if we can laugh togheter and if he has a certain charm. It's really hard to get to me, love and friendship begins in the mind. You can look sophisticated, but if you can't talk, that's a red flag. I learned from a crush on a care taker, that to talk to begin with, is important and underrated. I think we better find out as soon as possible about religious beliefs, relationships and political opinions. If it oposes yours, it says everything but at least it kicks you off off your pink cloud. So it's very important. Who you are is what you think. But often we don't speak our minds in public. So it's good to ask if you like someone. Care takers are impossible, but at least his opinion left me with less butterflies. 

Care forces people with diffrent opinions at the same table. It can be very interesting to hear them all. And this situation forces us to deal with each other each day, so we have to keep it mild and 'forgive and forget.' all the time. It's just that I barely speak my mind with them. About spirituality or politics. They don't know me at those points. And they do influence me. I shove a bit more to the centre in politics. I'm not completely left winged anymore. When it's to food or foreigners, I'm not left-winged, just like with the farming plans for the future. While on the social-economic part, I'm completely left-winged. I'm not racist or against foreigners, but the country is full. Too full for new refugees, and our own people have to live first and get the houses. Not the foreigners. The home market is too tight for that, and the assylums are too full in this country. It's not that we are not willing, it's just that it's not possible. We need homes for our own youth first. 

And food, I find the left wing healthy floaty and too strict on things. We have health problems, but to forbid my cookie during coffee time? Uh-Oh, that goes too far bro. The new health rules on health institutes are very strict and impossible to live by. No sugar, no smoking, less salt, and it's decretes from the government. Most fellow clients do hard with no smoking, and I could kill them for stealing my cookie at the coffee moments. It's the only treat I allowed myself for a while, the only snack I ate for a day. But they claim people stuff themselves and it's unhealthy. I'm obese from medication, I have little money for snacks, so that one cookie at de Boed with my cup off coffee was an outcome. I got cookies myself now, but I forget them all the time. I'm not used to snacking at my own home. 'If you don't like it, you can buy cookies yourself.' That's what they told me. I'm a sober person, so I buy cookies for cheap. It's not much off an issue to have them that way, but it doesn't make sense. Now I can stuff myself with it, while my own strict one cookie a day policy kept me from it. Not at all is too strict, too... 'Zeikerig.' from de Boed. They're ant-fucking with this. And people can't keep up with it, I can tell that ahead. But it's all due to health policy. 

I'm a bit classic conservative with foods. Not that I eat a pile off meat each day, but the common things and the ordinairy old fashioned ingredients are more my thing than those floaty ingredients or vegan stuff they try to sell. And it's more expensive. I'm a low income budget who can't afford such high flying elite foods, so I do it feet on the ground. And I do eat meat, since I think humans need it. And if we don't kill animals for it, we are likely to kill ourselves for it. Humans need it for their brain. Not an unhealthy amount, but still a good part off meat with our meals and in the matter 'humans first or animals first.' I picked humans. We need to eat meat, I decided to turn a blind eye on animal rights since we are meat eating species ourselves. Sad but true. 

So no left-winged floaty stuff on the food subject for me. It's too much. I love to eat vegetables and world dishes, though. But in balance with meat and diary. Just what a healthy woman needs. I may sound old fashioned, but I know in the future the left will lose on food, and health will be taken less strict. Since we can't keep up with this style off food. It's impossible or too expensive. To replace sugar is too expensive and not profitable for the west. All the replacements come from abroad, and the scale is too high. It's not possible for The West to replace sugar on the scale on which it's needed. 

I think if you as an individual can handle your sugar intake mature, there's nothing going on with it. Sugar doesn't kill people, it's people themselves who should moderate sugar. No soda and juices, no sugar in hot drinks, and moderate eating can be a good thing. I also got over my sugar addiction, so why can't you? But by force from the government this way goes too far in my opinion. No cookie with my coffee is not fair. I do eat a cookie a day, it's a personal choice. 

But I do prefer it healthy. I eat veggies and fruits, and I don't drink soda or juices. To prepare foods the responsible way is my choice. A bit old fashioned, but old keys open new doors. And it's going to be the best way for this century. I'm not likely to be found at a fastfood restaurant, That's something I'm against, but I do eat moderate meat and normal foods. That's my opinion. 

Allright, that's about it for now - 

Thank you for reading. 

     

Good evening at the 17th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's a rainy, almost Autumn day in The Netherlands, I even spotted mushrooms aside the road. 

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I'd like to share a theory with you. 

What if the establishment wants to regain it's power? Wilders is gone from the cabinet, but what if the ordinairy, wishes to regain their power during the upcoming peace? I think it's almost peace, and de Hague wishes to have it's usuall parties in the cabinet again when that happens, simply to let the country roll a certain way. Under controll of what's always been. That would make these elections a mild scam, for the economy and the regain off power sake. I think it's oldskool parties that will rule after the elections, and short after that there will be iron peace in the world, or at least in Europe. Cause that's 'how things have always been.' And 'How they want them.' In this country. It's going to be right-winged. I think the farmer party and the populists will be gone out off the cabinet after these elections. And it will look oldskool and familiair again in The Hague. Because it will be peace soon, and things have to be under their controll again. It's a theory, a thought, a certain way things go. Just a suspicion. 

If the regulair parties win, it will be peace all off a sudden next year. That's my belief. Out off the air, or mildly forced. It's not coincidence. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

Good evening at the 7th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today is the last nice day off the year according to most. The last sunny day before the rain and fall season truly hits. 

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Yesterday was for a day at ARTIS Zoo, (The Amsterdam Zoo) completely paid for by Leviaan. I loved it. The animals where so captivating, the park was beautifull, and the weather was a delight. And for me it was completely free. Usually we don't go on trips like this, it's been mugging for five years by us before they finally agreed. But the day was fabulous, a dream day from a fairytale. Zoo animals are so beautifull and special, They're from another world, worlds we don't get to see every day. Only in nature documentairies. My family loves those. If they don't know what to watch, it's nature documentairies, and I'm for real. It's just that I got to see wildlife for real yesterday. Really nice and special for a common Saturday.

I feel well, I feel good in my skin and I try to do my best in life. Just my plain best on a household level. Nothing too big, nothing too difficult, and I function. It's just that it's a bit spare on money, but I try to owe up for that by doing my best with it. You can say it's a cheap everything cleaner, but it matters if the floor and the toilet are cleaned with it to begin with, or the dishes are done to begin with with cheap dishwash. And you'll see, it cleans just as good. It's just your mindset towards it. We can fight over it, but if it works, it works. I got complimented a lot on my tidy home lately. It's my way to set my mind off off things. It's the most usefull thing we can do nowadays: To clean. I don't withhold power, but mán, does my home smell like lemons? I don't know if I do well with it, but it's a small act off rebellion. Against lazy slouches, against lazy youth, against filthy pigs. I don't know, it's working in my mind. And they almost accuse me off witchcraft instead off seeking the sane and do so themselves. It's that feeling off brushing your teeth every day in the morning and the evening and simply knowing it makes you superior to those lazy slouches, despite lack off education, intelligence, money or style. At least I'm every day clean. I can say I don't accept it when a person is filthy. I'm not just waging a war with the Russians. But I think I do it perfectly. Filthy, sweaty pigs are not my type off people anymore. I think I beat most off 'those.' people when I'm clean on myself and my home. Most off those know it alls don't know how to use a mop and a toothbrush. It's my way to deal with a lot. If you have more than seven reasons to do something, you should do it if everything falls into place with it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.       

 

 

Good morning at the 3th off September, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

Today is windy, grey and stormy in The Netherlands. Autumnal weather has hit us. 

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Life ebs and flows, usually it's a bit more eb than flow. I walk around town a lot, to do a bit more physicall excercise. It's not much, but every step is one. But I got issues with my head if I overdo. They say I should take it more easily, not overwork myself from walking. It's a bit silly, but I have to take it and accept. When I take walks around this charming area, I take a lot off pictures and I post them on Facebook. I have a lot 'Spotted during my morning walk.' Pictures from this area. I love it. It's often blooming plants, or the antique houses or a nice sight. Over the river Zaan for example. It's a dreamy fairytale when you live here and you are into that antique style. It's really pretty and fancy. Moving around is better than just sitting in one place they say. 

It's just that I'm not a mental patient over nothing. I got issues if I walk too much. So I'm told to do so every other day instead off every day. Today is not much off a problem, it's all rain and wind outside. So let's stay in and take it more easy this morning. 

The best about photographing a nice surrounding, is that it's free. It doesn't cost any extra except effort. And if you wish to do it nicely, a good eye for photography, and a bit off know- how with camera angles. I got complimented by friends, family and neighbours on my work. 

This was yesterday, for example. I should not act like I'm an entrepeneur on this, I'm just an unemployed hobbyist with little to do and a will to take nice pictures on morning walks. It's better than to do just nothing. Fruit trees spring their apples during this season. It's really lovely. 

They say where there's a will, there's a way. I don't believe in being on your ass all the time when you have a wage. Even if you're chronically sick, you should not play the victim and give life a try. I could not work a job, but it doesn't mean I should sit at home, complaining and smoking myself an accident all the time. Life is too beautifull for that. I woe over not having a job, I'm not completely worthless. That's how I feel. Sick is sick, but some deserve a kick under their ass for being lazy and stupid. I think effort is the new chique. We don't have money, but what's more chique than a little effort for things? A little affordable elegance. To show you are not completely lame and drained empty from being low on money. People who do so have never been chronically sick or truly poor. Just by this economic crisis. If you have always been poor and sick, you are still willing to put effort to life if you have a fighting spirit. Otherwise you're not just as poor as a streetbrick, but also as dumb as a streetbrick in my opinion. 

Most people might hate me over this, lame as mankind can be. But I feel I'm taught up a bit diffrent than them. Being lazy is not chique. Being so easy it looks stupid is neither. I think they can't follow me in this. It's how life works during this crisis, if you want something, you should put effort to it. That's what I think. It's never been easy for me, It's just that during this economical crisis, life still works for me. And it's doable, it's not impossible. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

   

And a picture off a low calorie dessert to end this weblog with for now, low fat peach yoghurt with fresh sweet strawberries from the yearly market. It was delicious.