Good morning at the 16th off February, 2025, 2.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's promising to become a very cold day in the Netherlands. 

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The ponds near by, where there are ducks swimming, are as stiff frozen as that strange cold feeling that haunted me some time. It's dark, deep ice water. It's too thick to survive. The ducks at the local pond can't swim when it's this thickly frozen. It's somewhat like the vision in my head. As if someone or something with dark magic was trying to kill me by freezing me. It was really scary. It's just that it's off by now. Maybe the weather had a massive influence on it. It's been freezing a few degrees in the Netherlands these days. A freezing depression, it was really negative. I also had a massive headache all the time these days. Not really funny. It's been terrible. But I've escaped it, and it's gone. 

It's really good news when peace befalls us, I think it would do good for my mental state. I have been really worrying about it for a few years. And it's mainly that I feel with the poor people who can't afford groceries and feed their kids. I have been obsessively posting all off my meals on Facebook these months. Meals, and coffee with treats. To have to wage war over it, frightens me. Just the idea to starve makes me scared. Aside to the prices to everything when being on a low income. It's fearsome to me. I felt sad and close to desperate when they increased the prices off cream butter this week. 'Oh no, not again... what if this continues?' It's darn expensive allready. And not just cream butter. It's all groceries. It's really fearsome for me. I'm not poor, but I'm not rich either. I can afford, but for how long? Worries, worries.... And then those poor people who can't even do the laundry, and who wash with machines without laundry wash because they can't afford. You have them here. They're too proud when I offered them my laundry wash for free, (A Belle with a stock can miss a bottle or two when someone needs it.) but they're also worrysome. I wish everything would be put back to normal again, and people can start to live normal lives again. I feel such pity with them. I hope they can hang on untill peace. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.