Mannen zonder hersens bij Vana Events

 Goedemiddag, iedereen. 

Het begrip 'man.' wordt door heksen en pagans anders geïnterprenteerd dan door gewone mensen. Maar evenementenvolk heeft er een gewoonte van gemaakt om er iets van te maken wat niet gelijk staat aan de groene god uit de heksenleer die wij tot voor kort aanhingen. 

Het lijkt niet op de groene god. Het lijkt meer op een oerman die steeds zijn lust driften MOET volgen, en zomaar alles kan flikken in die geest. Het is verderfelijk, en ik heb er niks mee. Het komt echt vreselijk op me over, en al helemaal als ze mij daar de schuld van pogen te geven. Ik vind dat ik er niet schuldig aan ben, aan dat potje 'jagen.' op vrouwen. Het lijkt niet op de heksenleer, het lijkt eerder op wat de gewone wetenschap beschrijft als mannelijke oerdrift. Ik vind de heksenleer dus niet realistisch als ik het gedrag van Vana Events (vrijwilligers) in het echt zie. 

Eigenlijk moeten we het een halt toeroepen want het gaat te ver. We zouden het niet toe moeten staan dat ze het zo doen. Want het is achterlijk. Oerdriften versus warmte en verstand. - het lijkt me duidelijk waar we voor moeten kiezen als weldenkend mens in deze moderne maatschappij. Vana doet het al veel te lang zo. Het is een beetje hersenloos. Het is niet waar ik als vrouw voor zou gaan. Mensen zouden beter moeten weten. We zouden die gasten een halt moeten toeroepen, want het is debiel en gevaarlijk. Hier mogen ze niet mee doorgaan en wegkomen. De evenementen gaan zo al heel lang nergens meer over. Ik geloof niet dat dat zo voor de goden de bedoeling is. 

We hebben in dit leven de keuze, of we goed of slecht zijn. Of we onze driften of ons verstand en ons meelevende hart volgen. Ook al is het nergens onderbouwd en puur religieus. Vana is niet heilig- mensen zouden met hun voeten op de grond meer moeten relativeren en zelf denken. Ik heb me nooit prettig gevoeld bij die mannenwereld. Het strijkt de goden tegen de haren in. Dit deugt niet. Mensen moeten normaal doen. 

Tot zover- 

Tor het volgende weblog. 

Good morning at the 18th off November, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's rainy and dark outside in The Netherlands, but what do you think? It's Autumn and it's almost 6 AM. 

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De Boed has some cute, handmade cards. They're only one euro each, and they're worthit their money during this crisis. I think this year will be for handmade Christmas cards. They used to be made by an elder fellow client who passed away this year. Her well made cards are perfect as greetings and wishes. Compared to bookstores, these are more affordable and more heartfelt. I think they're perfect for this Christmas. I got some holiday stamps from previous years, donated by mom. It helps to cut the costs on Christmas cards. But they should still be totally part off the holiday tradition. In my opinion, they always belonged there. I cut out on who to send them to, so I need 5 only this year. It's not much that will be spend to it. And it's worthit. During this expensive season, I think I do well to it. I might post pictures off them, each are special handmade, in this weblog later on. Maybe you'll like it. and that's the power off this weblog: The receiver doesn't see it ahead, but the reading fans do. 

Edit: I went out to purchase some, but my critical eye found them too bad off quality, and not made by the elder fellow client. What they had was junk, so I refused. I think it will come down to purchasing a set this year. I hope that won't be a problem. I found what de Boed had too stupid. 

I always got this feeling I'm about to die early, that's due to medication headaches. It's really difficult. When I'm this difficult in my skin, I'm absolutely not open for a relationship, I'm simply too sick from mental issues. I see things too trouble. So I have to give no for an answer to everyone. I think it can't be solved, so I won't like to give false hopes to people. It's too hard, too uneasy, and I got psychotic on love, so I can't handle it. No is for our both safety. It feels better to be single with such a troubled head. I'm at a point where I believe most world religions would forgive me to have stayed single my entire life for being sick. Given I'm still a virgin. I think they would hold a hand above my head for it. I'm sorry, I just can't be married or a mom. 

I'm still delusional, I still got aches, I'm still tired very easily. 

Last picture off this blogpost: 

I went out walking in a forest this weekend, a good hike in the Castricum dunes. I ended with Chocolate milk and lunch in Johanna's hof, the local dune restaurant. I needed to get my mind clear. It was really a good thing to stretch my leggs. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

 

  

Tussen Hiërarchie en Vrijheid

 Goedemiddag allemaal, 

Het is zonnig buiten, en ik hoor werkmachines. 

Het zal jullie wel opgevallen zijn, dat de prijzen bij Vana Events de afgelopen tijd de pan uitgerezen zijn, en dat ze dat blijven doen. - Waarschuwing, men maakt misbruik van uw goedmoedigheid om geld uit uw zakken te kloppen. Ik zou er niet meer intrappen als ik u was, het is van de pot gerukt. 

Sommige mensen snappen langzaam maar zeker dat 'hebzucht.' en 'Paganisme.' Hetzelfde zijn, maar dat zijn ze nooit geweest. Ik weet dat we inflatie hebben, maar Vana is zó roofzuchtig en zó achterbaks arrogant, hier zit geen ziel meer in. En wat is dat voor hooghartige attitude? Dat slaat toch nergens op? Heiliger dan de koningin en arrogant zijn ook maar gewoon van die dingen. Mark en Natasha hebben alleen winstbejag in hun kop. 

Ik zou er geen cent aan uitgeven als ik u was. Gebruik en hergebruik gewoon oude dingen in deze crisis. We hebben die rotzooi van de evenementen niet echt nodig bij onze rituelen, ze smeren ons gewoon wat aan, en heeft u die voedselprijzen gezien? Sommige mensen hebben echt kopspijkers als ze denken dat dit 'de leer.' is. Als u het goed voorheeft met uzelf en de goden, zou ik het niet kopen als ik u was. 

En dan het tweede ding, Vana censuur. Ik geloof dat Vana de laatste jaren alleen maar afstandelijker en geslotener is geworden, en dat veel gewoon niet mag. Ik zou ze niet hun gang laten gaan als ik u was, straks hebben we nog een linkse dictatuur in een rechts land die te veel macht heeft, en dat moeten we niet toestaan. Vana gaat te ver. En dan dat ballengedrag van de kinderen van der Stelt, ook maar gewoon iets wat nooit gedeugt heeft. Arrogantie is het toppunt. Dat is niet heidens. Ik zou me niet in sociale rangen en lagen laten kleineren als ik u was, wees vrij. Voel u vrij. Vier het bestaan, maar niet meer in zo'n gesloten hierarchie. Dat is zó verschrikkelijk stom, u zou moeten waken hier niet te goedmoedig over te denken, dan maken ze misbruik van u en dan walsen ze over u heen. Net als het inperken van vrouwenrechten, en vinden dat vrouwen geen recht behalve het huishouden hebben. Zijn ze besodemieterd? Dat moeten we absoluut niet toestaan, die lui hebben tegenwoordig spijkers in hun kop. Het deugt niet meer. Dit zouden we gewoon niet moeten toelaten. Mensen moeten weer gewoon gaan doen. En arrogantie moeten we niet belonen. Ik hoop dat u uw verstand hierbij gebruikt. 

Tot zo ver, tot een andere keer. - 

Good afternoon at the 14th off November, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today it's dreary and rainy outside. 

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I would like to share some images off my foods off the previous days, some where really good. Like the bowl off vla with a doll up off whipped cream at my parental home after dinner, and my attemps at oven baked carrots in diffrent shades, and my dessert. Low fat peach yoghurt with pommegranate seeds. All too delicious. I should clean the kitchen today, but I'm almost dying out off headache. I'm about to see General Practice about it. It's really wrecking to be as stressed as I am. Maybe I'll clean my kitchen this afternoon. I would do good about it. Being schizo and on meds almost kills me. My head hurts incredibly, I could move planets, stars, whole galaxies, space ships with this feeling off incredible pain... I have never felt it this bad before. Just too much, and always late in the evening when I go to bed. It's impossible to sleep with it. General Practice and mental health should know what to do with it.    

I think my carrots can almost pass for Christmas. They where delicious. I'm dizzy from headache, unstable on my feet. I hope something can help for it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good evening at the 12th off November, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today the sky was grey, and the place looked gloomy. It's that dementor atmosphere everywhere... 

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This was in the box off chocolates for mom's 67th birthday: Windmills and tulips, a perfect gift from old Zaandijk. Her birthday was cozy, and the food was good. I also had these jigsaws:

Ot and Sien are a Dutch classic. I had won these at bingo, my mom loves Ot and Sien and jigsaws. It was perfect for her. Dutch culture is perfect for fancy gifts. My mom always loves them. And I got to say: They're doable, not too expensive and heartfelt. It goes in well with the family. During this era, you could even call it somewhat chique. 

Allright, that's  about it for now, - 

Thank you for reading. 

Good afternoon at the 7th off November, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today it's sunny and cold, it's a bright day in Autumn. 

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My mom has her birthday at the 11th, I had to cut on the gift, but look what I found: 

It's a small box off chocolates, not the big splurgey expensive ones, but these are cute windmills and tulips, and it's packed pretty. It's pretty something for a crisis-gift, I feel happy due to it. I forgot how happy I can get when giving something nice. It's good for me just aswell as for the receiver. It makes me feel so good. Almost like ocytoxin I got from it. This gift makes happy. It's good for it's price class, and it's a real chocolate shop it comes from. 

I also purchased some handmade birthday cards from de Boed. They're not pricey, and compared to a bookstore it's cool what you got for it. Just the idea to send these feels good. Handmade = personal. And they where only one euro each. It's perfect for aunts and old friends in modern day crisis. I feel so good at the idea off all off these worthit gifts. I almost forgot how that could feel. It's my starsign, I think. Leo is a gift giver. Before the crisis, I used to bring more gifts to the fam. I had to cut on that. Alongside the Cornelis Jetses jigsaws I won at Bingo, these chocolates will be for mom. 💖😁 (= really how I feel, and that's why I wanted the world to know.) I'm going to wrap these jigsaws, the sight off it can't be more perfect in my opinion. 💖 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good evening at the 4th off November, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's gloomy and stormy outside in The Netherlands today and this night. It's haunted, like ususall. 

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Imagine, what would happen if the Ukraine war would take place for two more years? Are you capable to withhold if this crisis continues, and the prices only increase? Think off it, think serious. It might be wrong, but it's something to think off. Do you have everything to withhold the tide? If not, what can you do? 

And then again, it's not the planetairy transits this might depend on. People expect the upcoming planetairy transits to cause a miracle, but I doubt. Please, use your common sense, and try your best to know you can do it. The god off war has never been soft on people. Please take care, please keep in mind this might take some more from us. 

This upcoming year might be crisis and war. We never know for certain, but we should not let go off our endurance to withhold this. Please don't treat it like it's nothing. That's not responsible, and it's not sensible. Take care. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

 

Good morning at the 2nd off November, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's cloudy and dark outside, the sky is still invisible. 

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Yesterday I had great dessert, I had a bowl off skinny forest fruit yoghurt topped with rubies. 😉 

It's actually pomegranate seeds, but they look like rubbies if you make them decorations for desserts. It was pretty good, actually. It's my idea off luxury: eating fresh fruits and vegetables during this time, and to keep my health good with it. It was on a discount, so it wasn't as pricey as rubbies. 😋 I'm proud to still eat dessert on my small income. Low fat fruit yoghurt, sometimes topped with fruits. It's a good idea, actually. And it's not expensive, except for the fruit topping. But for good health, I think it's worthit. 

Life goes by this Autumn. I'm fighting ghosts from the past. It trigges delusions and psychosis. Just too bad. I talk about it with care takers. It's fighting the past. It's impossible, since only the now takes place here and now. We should live in the now. But the past can be such an echoput. Especially for us, mental types. We constantly got overhwelmed by situations from the past, and they trigger. I feel like being kept prison in Azkaban, where dementors keep you caught on bad memories. It's no suprise to me prisoners lost their mind there. It's also the ambience, it's constantly negativity, as if it's actually crowded with dementors, in Zaandijk at Gortershof, invisible for muggles. It also rains a lot here and the sky is so grey. 

What I do to fight it: Ambience and foods. A little more cozyness, well-cooked meals and music. Music from the past. I'm a homebody with a soft witch style in my home. I like it, despite others might think it's a bit weird, shabby chique and old fashioned. But it's my personal thing. It's how witches keep the negativity off dementors out. I hope people don't dismay me for it, I like to show some off it on my internet. It can't keep me from still being a bit negative and moody from time to time. Appearently, the classic British way is not the answer for everything. I still feel the moodyness. Though it's helpfull and more fun than Dutch in my opinion. 'You're fighting ballroomclouds.' But sometimes, the ballroomclouds are so strong, especially during these years. And chocolate is also not the answer for everything. It just softens sharp edges. (Usually I eat it moderately, but I had voices in my head making me order it. It was good, but it's no solution to darkness) 

Care takers think I'm crazy for refering to myself 'Like Ginny Weasley.' at times, but I like to think myself as country oriented and cheap but still fancy, like her. Having to do witch chores and try to keep my head up despite it all. If I refer to Harry Potter, they don't like. If you don't get the reference, you might think I'm crazy for it. But I feel like a poor county witch daughter when doing it this way. Maybe I should make them read Harry Potter, or stop it. It's just that it doesn't matter, it makes me do house chores and try to keep it cozy and in order despite it all. Everything that misses, is mince pies for Christmas, 😉 but that makes me more poor and restricted than Ginny. Still, seeing her mildly as a role model works to straighten my back. 

I hope for a miracle to happen for my bad mood, it's a bit difficult. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

     

How to make a point

 Good evening everyone, 

Sometimes it's everything 'how you put it.' 

This is a bowl off perfectly scooped strawberry and rum- raisin ice cream, in a plain square bowl, but on a printed table cloth, and done perfectly, many a gelato salon would hire my stepdad for this. It's simple, but done so well, it's elegant. 

We could dine like we're at the raw edge off civilization with our plain foods, and take it like garbage, we could also be a little more romantic and tidy, and treat our foods with respect- and make that table, shape our food and give credit to it like it deserves. Civilization- it makes such a diffrence, but people seem to dismay it nowadays. It's how they like to see us, as unmannered pigs, but what if this savage tells you we could prove them diffrently, and bring it a bit more civilized? You have a chance they take you more serious if you are aware off how you put it. Just an idea. Add a little style, a little know-how, a little touch off je ne sais quoi class to your work- and see how it transforms. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

Good evening at the 16th off October, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

This is the gift for my birthday brother tomorrow 

I hope they don't find me cheap, it's been pricey for a HEMA gift. And I hope they don't find me a tauck. I also had one for my other brother's birthday in June. It's a bit silly, a bit childish, a bit cheap- But I got a gift for them. That's already a whole lot off something for this year. And like I said, it's not wrapped in an old newspaper. It's in real wrapping paper. 

I hope we can find a little cheer in our heart for it. I feel so depressed and so gloomy, as if Dementors from Harry Potter are haunting the streets off this old place, unseen by muggles like me. We used to have a soft spot for these kind off silly gifts. I feel as if I'm barely in the mood for it. It used to cheer us up, but this rotten situation in the world enlowers my personal mood. There's mood enlowers, there's mood enhancers. I hope we never grow too old or too serious for presents like these. But I feel I'm doing difficult. 

And something to end my blog with for this evening, a picture off my dessert 😏 I hope there comes a day where these sort off things will truly cheer me up again. 

It's a bowl off low fat forest fruit yoghurt, topped with blueberries. This is what I would call a mood enhancer, and it's good for our body. Just the plain sight off it used to cheer me up. I just don't know what my problem is tonight. Or I do know, but I'm doing hard with it. I'm severely cranky, on top off delusions. I hope it vanishes by tomorrow. I have to attend a birthday. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

I still have it!

 Good evening everyone, 

I, poor unfortunate soul, I still got it. Not my mind, not my husband, not my pet, but this: 

There used to be an awfull lot off coffee in Brazil like Frank Sinatra sang it, but due to harvest problems and price increasement due to economic crisis, I think barely anyone has it anymore. But de Boed, community centre in Zaandijk, still serves it every day to it's clients. Morning, afternoon and evening. We have three fullfilling coffee moments a day. With fresh black pot coffee. Made by a volunteer in our kitchen. I'm the coffee lady on Thursday morning. On a volunteer base. If people would know they'd fight me over this. Out off jealousy. I think I make the best coffee in Zaandijk at Thursday. I'm good at what I do. And they admire me. They love my coffee. 'It's almost Parisian.' Like they say about it. I think they serve this only in Paris and London by now, given the incredible prices off coffee. But they have it for me. I'm gratefull. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.   

Good evening at the 15th off October, 2025.

Good evening everyone, 

Today I painted euro coins. These are two euro coins, and a few cents. It's done with metallic gold and silver paint. I also painted one with one and two euro coins. 

It's money on a painting. I thought it was fun. I painted money today. I thought it was fun. It's what we all crave nowadays. Most people are not rich and doing insecure. A little money was my inspiration. 

I wrapped a birthday present for my brother, he's almost celebrating his birthday. 

I'm not good at wrapping, but let's hope he doesn't think I'm cheap on him with this. And it has self-wrapped wrapping paper. I hope I get away with this. But from here to Eddinburgh, it's a present and I'm glad I got it to begin with. This Friday I will attend. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.   

Good evening at the 5th off October, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's been a stormy weekend in The Netherlands. It's still windy and rainy. 

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'It enhances your heart...' Dáár knapt een mannenhart van op... But I never had the chance to actually share it with the right guy. I make the best coffee and soup in town, That's what I claim all the time. I'm the coffee lady, and sometimes I sell pretty good soup to my friend, the retired zookeeper. He asks me all the time. When I'm about to make vegetable soup, and today was for a good portion off cauliflower oven dish with a bowl off low fat strawberry yoghurt. 

I think it helps, he's underfed and low on vitamins. So he can use my food. But it's never for Mr. Right. Still, it's making me happy to improve his health a bit. But having no man is a bit off a miss. It hurts a bit to have a hole in my heart. I'm at that age, but a man is not preferable, and neither is having kids. Economics are too bad. My health sucks, I think I'm about to die all the time. Every morning I wake up after an evening struggling with headaches is a gift. The cramps hurt an incredible lot. It's rotten. Every day, every year is a gift in my opinion. But I struggle and it hurts. But to cook heart enhancing foods keeps me alive, in a wide sense off the word. And help my neighbour. It sets my mind off off things, and we eat. 

'I make the best in town.' I brawl a bit, but it's a joke and they got it. Maybe they even agree. I'm a bit cranky, a bit moody. It's that war-feeling, Autumn and the gloom off this old town. Food keeps me up. I don't mean over-eating, I don't have money for that, but I can cook a well cooked meal, and I enjoy. Despite it's every day food. The World used to be more rich, I wish I would not compare to the old situation all the time, the situation from 5 years ago, when we seemed rich and invincible. But I have to keep up. Though I must admit, sometimes it's even a bit soothing to dwell in that crankyness, I did not know I was capable to feel an emotion like that. So gloomy, so desolate, dealing with bad economics and the weather. And meanwhile I take pictures off my every day food and post them on my Facebook. I like to think I mock Russia that way a bit. They want us to be poor and starve, but I still have healthy foods on my table. 'Look, Moscow, I. still. eat!' Despite prices. It's not luxurious, but compared to the old situation, this is luxury off the day.  And I'm a sick nobody without a job. But I eat healthy food. 

I think Russia should hate me for it. This is what they're after. But I got wartime food. I'm not wealthy. And it's basic. Every 90's dad could tell you this is utmost basic, but it's kinda good. Come to think off it, to have a man and extra mouths to feed would be too much. But selling a mundane portion to a skinny old grandpa does it with this. I sell portions for 5 euro's each. I always say he 'owes up for the minced meat.' In an oven dish, or for soup balls. I make my own soup balls. And this way I can afford beef mince. Prices are expensive for us, on the lower scale off income. But I manage to come round. I try not to be expensive, and a bit giving. Tonight's portion was big, and he got a dessert with it. It enhances a heart. That's what I do if I feel well on a Sunday. 

But this world and being poor, that's why I never got married. And offcourse, my own impossible self. It's a calculation, but I think it's fate. Just like Jupiter in Libra in the Fourth house on the horoscope off the Kingdom off the Netherlands, I'm blessed with the home and doing home work, but I'm not fit for anything outside this place. Mars makes a square in Capricorn, and Venus opposes it in Aries. It's not preferable for work, or wealthy elegance, and forget it with love and romance. But it's the comfort off a home. And I got that. The blessing off a Dutch home. I'm sincerely lucky with it, but love is not in it for me. (I tried to read the Dutch horoscope. It's kinda interesting.) And it's both fortune and faith. I hope that doesn't sound too vague to you. To work with this horoscope chart makes me understand things a bit better. Horoscopes aren't complete gibberish to me. It's what keeps my mind buisy. 

So, that's what's on: The gloom, foods, selling them and the horoscope. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

  

Good evening at the 27th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Outside the Autumn winds blow. It's gloomy and a bit depressing outside. 

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I honesty have no clue if this happens, but it's on my mind: I may seem a bit expensive or impossible during crisis, but if they start to compare after crisis, I think they'll laugh or call me a scam. I do and eat things that are not supposed to be expensive, or still somewhat affordable if you saved your pennies ahead to this monkey crisis. If you did so and you compare, it's still possible. But for those without my insights- it may seem a little too much. I think I make people jealouse. It's been half my intention, but now I feel guilty. When they see me eat stuff they can't afford anymore. It's a bit sad. But I think after this crisis, it will be pulled straight, and I'm the laugh off the world again with my affordable old fashioned stuff and style off living. Like I used to be. Well, affordable? It's supposed to be. It was, some time ago. 

What old timer drinks their plain coffee with milk from a glass mug? And eat cheap vegetables like me? Or just slices off brown bread with toppings? People are jealouse, but after this crisis, I'm probably a bit too old fashioned, or arrange a birthday with old fashioned pastries one euro each? The old fashioned way is the way nowadays for me. Even if it makes me a bit off a plain Jane. But I'm on governmental wages, and I can get by this way. I hope they won't mock me after crisis for being a bit strange. If my dad would not have been such a babyboomer, I think I would not have accepted this style off nostalgia. But I don't mind this old stuff and a bit off a rigid home cleaning routine. I feel like a cozy, Vintage Belle in my cute doll closet. I wonder what my passed dad would have said about it. All the stuff from his youth brought back during a wartime. But honest, it's not a thing I mind. If we have to deal with it for a while due to lack off innovations due to money. I'm perfectly fine. I seasoned it with timeless shabby chique, and it's cozy. It can pass for a while. 

But still, it's a sport. To spot things fitting this style off living. But life is possible. Cuba has been dealing with the '50's ever since it's been '50's, and most poor countries don't improve that easily. Maybe that's our fate. But it's possible. Though not willingly. If you do timeless shabby chique and a bit off effort, you can maintain a sense off wealth, despite economics and prices. I don't want to make people jealouse, it's having a bit off an eye for style that makes it. Not the expensive stuff. It can perfectly be from ACTION's or second hand. Or a bit older. It has such a soul. It's beautifull in my eyes. Like a timeless ghetto home can have. A bit Old World, a bit off American New England, A bit classic British, A bit classic, blessed with a radio and feel good music, and we call this a crisis for the world outside. As the Autumn winds blow by, it perfectly works when I sit here with my cup off tea. Really soulfull. 

It's never been too expensive, that just has never been possible. But it's something I love and feel. And I mentioned well- ment soul stuff doesn't cost that much and always fits. No matter what. A bush off plain long stern roses for example, always does as a gift. And simply to make fresh coffee taste perfect warms the heart best- really minding how you make it. It makes a diffrence. And if expensive has never been possible- then how about tidy enough? It still gives a good feeling off luxury. They call this a ghetto. And it's a crisis. But I refuse to enlower standards. And that might give me a bit off a snobby feeling, while it's just classic junk and how you do it. I hope they don't mock me too much after this is done. Or start to compare. I might become the laugh off the internet for it. But it's been my way off taking on this crisis, and the idea off looking poor always has been against my pride. So I choose this real classic way off doing it. It's an inexpensive way off looking chique still. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.            

Good evening at the 19th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was a nice warm day in The Netherlands. Most people enjoyed this maybe last day off summer weather. 

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I belief we can discuss. People are born with a mouth and a mind, so we are made to discuss subjects. Also in relationships. You can talk things over, instead off heaping it up and assuming things are allright. I think a lot can be saved by asking your other half 'but how do you think / feel about this?' And let them have their way in a situation you won't die over if they had it. I'm not an expert. But people are such strong minded individuals, headstrong most off the time, and it doesn't make a relationship work all the time. 'But what do you think about this?' 'Is this allright with you?' And simply quit if you feel it's against their feelings, or you might hurt them or make them feel uneasy with behavior. People are headstrong and stupid, but we can discuss and we can use common sense. And a relationship is not a one-way road. Sometimes you have to compromise with them. I hope you have an equally intelligent individual in front off you with who you can discuss on a common ground about everything. Communication is important. Communication is key. 

I could sound like a psychologist, I just wish I had someone who understands and who I can be gratefull for. I wish for someone I can discuss the world with, without them to grow tired. Someone with a good opinion and their heart in the right place, and stories to tell. As easy as I come off online, in real life I'm quiet and a bit held back. I wish for someone who talks easy and who loves good conversations about- everything. You can get really close to someone if you know who they are on the inside for real. It's intimidating, but important. The key here is to feel I'm understood by him or her. Understood and felt with. It's so important I feel heard. Heard, and loved. I love a good man with a good sense off intelligence who loves to talk with me. But maybe for a man who isn't a care taker with a psychology care study, that might be a bit gay or impossible. It's bonus points if we can laugh togheter and if he has a certain charm. It's really hard to get to me, love and friendship begins in the mind. You can look sophisticated, but if you can't talk, that's a red flag. I learned from a crush on a care taker, that to talk to begin with, is important and underrated. I think we better find out as soon as possible about religious beliefs, relationships and political opinions. If it oposes yours, it says everything but at least it kicks you off off your pink cloud. So it's very important. Who you are is what you think. But often we don't speak our minds in public. So it's good to ask if you like someone. Care takers are impossible, but at least his opinion left me with less butterflies. 

Care forces people with diffrent opinions at the same table. It can be very interesting to hear them all. And this situation forces us to deal with each other each day, so we have to keep it mild and 'forgive and forget.' all the time. It's just that I barely speak my mind with them. About spirituality or politics. They don't know me at those points. And they do influence me. I shove a bit more to the centre in politics. I'm not completely left winged anymore. When it's to food or foreigners, I'm not left-winged, just like with the farming plans for the future. While on the social-economic part, I'm completely left-winged. I'm not racist or against foreigners, but the country is full. Too full for new refugees, and our own people have to live first and get the houses. Not the foreigners. The home market is too tight for that, and the assylums are too full in this country. It's not that we are not willing, it's just that it's not possible. We need homes for our own youth first. 

And food, I find the left wing healthy floaty and too strict on things. We have health problems, but to forbid my cookie during coffee time? Uh-Oh, that goes too far bro. The new health rules on health institutes are very strict and impossible to live by. No sugar, no smoking, less salt, and it's decretes from the government. Most fellow clients do hard with no smoking, and I could kill them for stealing my cookie at the coffee moments. It's the only treat I allowed myself for a while, the only snack I ate for a day. But they claim people stuff themselves and it's unhealthy. I'm obese from medication, I have little money for snacks, so that one cookie at de Boed with my cup off coffee was an outcome. I got cookies myself now, but I forget them all the time. I'm not used to snacking at my own home. 'If you don't like it, you can buy cookies yourself.' That's what they told me. I'm a sober person, so I buy cookies for cheap. It's not much off an issue to have them that way, but it doesn't make sense. Now I can stuff myself with it, while my own strict one cookie a day policy kept me from it. Not at all is too strict, too... 'Zeikerig.' from de Boed. They're ant-fucking with this. And people can't keep up with it, I can tell that ahead. But it's all due to health policy. 

I'm a bit classic conservative with foods. Not that I eat a pile off meat each day, but the common things and the ordinairy old fashioned ingredients are more my thing than those floaty ingredients or vegan stuff they try to sell. And it's more expensive. I'm a low income budget who can't afford such high flying elite foods, so I do it feet on the ground. And I do eat meat, since I think humans need it. And if we don't kill animals for it, we are likely to kill ourselves for it. Humans need it for their brain. Not an unhealthy amount, but still a good part off meat with our meals and in the matter 'humans first or animals first.' I picked humans. We need to eat meat, I decided to turn a blind eye on animal rights since we are meat eating species ourselves. Sad but true. 

So no left-winged floaty stuff on the food subject for me. It's too much. I love to eat vegetables and world dishes, though. But in balance with meat and diary. Just what a healthy woman needs. I may sound old fashioned, but I know in the future the left will lose on food, and health will be taken less strict. Since we can't keep up with this style off food. It's impossible or too expensive. To replace sugar is too expensive and not profitable for the west. All the replacements come from abroad, and the scale is too high. It's not possible for The West to replace sugar on the scale on which it's needed. 

I think if you as an individual can handle your sugar intake mature, there's nothing going on with it. Sugar doesn't kill people, it's people themselves who should moderate sugar. No soda and juices, no sugar in hot drinks, and moderate eating can be a good thing. I also got over my sugar addiction, so why can't you? But by force from the government this way goes too far in my opinion. No cookie with my coffee is not fair. I do eat a cookie a day, it's a personal choice. 

But I do prefer it healthy. I eat veggies and fruits, and I don't drink soda or juices. To prepare foods the responsible way is my choice. A bit old fashioned, but old keys open new doors. And it's going to be the best way for this century. I'm not likely to be found at a fastfood restaurant, That's something I'm against, but I do eat moderate meat and normal foods. That's my opinion. 

Allright, that's about it for now - 

Thank you for reading. 

     

Good evening at the 17th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's a rainy, almost Autumn day in The Netherlands, I even spotted mushrooms aside the road. 

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I'd like to share a theory with you. 

What if the establishment wants to regain it's power? Wilders is gone from the cabinet, but what if the ordinairy, wishes to regain their power during the upcoming peace? I think it's almost peace, and de Hague wishes to have it's usuall parties in the cabinet again when that happens, simply to let the country roll a certain way. Under controll of what's always been. That would make these elections a mild scam, for the economy and the regain off power sake. I think it's oldskool parties that will rule after the elections, and short after that there will be iron peace in the world, or at least in Europe. Cause that's 'how things have always been.' And 'How they want them.' In this country. It's going to be right-winged. I think the farmer party and the populists will be gone out off the cabinet after these elections. And it will look oldskool and familiair again in The Hague. Because it will be peace soon, and things have to be under their controll again. It's a theory, a thought, a certain way things go. Just a suspicion. 

If the regulair parties win, it will be peace all off a sudden next year. That's my belief. Out off the air, or mildly forced. It's not coincidence. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

Good evening at the 7th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today is the last nice day off the year according to most. The last sunny day before the rain and fall season truly hits. 

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Yesterday was for a day at ARTIS Zoo, (The Amsterdam Zoo) completely paid for by Leviaan. I loved it. The animals where so captivating, the park was beautifull, and the weather was a delight. And for me it was completely free. Usually we don't go on trips like this, it's been mugging for five years by us before they finally agreed. But the day was fabulous, a dream day from a fairytale. Zoo animals are so beautifull and special, They're from another world, worlds we don't get to see every day. Only in nature documentairies. My family loves those. If they don't know what to watch, it's nature documentairies, and I'm for real. It's just that I got to see wildlife for real yesterday. Really nice and special for a common Saturday.

I feel well, I feel good in my skin and I try to do my best in life. Just my plain best on a household level. Nothing too big, nothing too difficult, and I function. It's just that it's a bit spare on money, but I try to owe up for that by doing my best with it. You can say it's a cheap everything cleaner, but it matters if the floor and the toilet are cleaned with it to begin with, or the dishes are done to begin with with cheap dishwash. And you'll see, it cleans just as good. It's just your mindset towards it. We can fight over it, but if it works, it works. I got complimented a lot on my tidy home lately. It's my way to set my mind off off things. It's the most usefull thing we can do nowadays: To clean. I don't withhold power, but mán, does my home smell like lemons? I don't know if I do well with it, but it's a small act off rebellion. Against lazy slouches, against lazy youth, against filthy pigs. I don't know, it's working in my mind. And they almost accuse me off witchcraft instead off seeking the sane and do so themselves. It's that feeling off brushing your teeth every day in the morning and the evening and simply knowing it makes you superior to those lazy slouches, despite lack off education, intelligence, money or style. At least I'm every day clean. I can say I don't accept it when a person is filthy. I'm not just waging a war with the Russians. But I think I do it perfectly. Filthy, sweaty pigs are not my type off people anymore. I think I beat most off 'those.' people when I'm clean on myself and my home. Most off those know it alls don't know how to use a mop and a toothbrush. It's my way to deal with a lot. If you have more than seven reasons to do something, you should do it if everything falls into place with it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.       

 

 

Good morning at the 3th off September, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

Today is windy, grey and stormy in The Netherlands. Autumnal weather has hit us. 

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Life ebs and flows, usually it's a bit more eb than flow. I walk around town a lot, to do a bit more physicall excercise. It's not much, but every step is one. But I got issues with my head if I overdo. They say I should take it more easily, not overwork myself from walking. It's a bit silly, but I have to take it and accept. When I take walks around this charming area, I take a lot off pictures and I post them on Facebook. I have a lot 'Spotted during my morning walk.' Pictures from this area. I love it. It's often blooming plants, or the antique houses or a nice sight. Over the river Zaan for example. It's a dreamy fairytale when you live here and you are into that antique style. It's really pretty and fancy. Moving around is better than just sitting in one place they say. 

It's just that I'm not a mental patient over nothing. I got issues if I walk too much. So I'm told to do so every other day instead off every day. Today is not much off a problem, it's all rain and wind outside. So let's stay in and take it more easy this morning. 

The best about photographing a nice surrounding, is that it's free. It doesn't cost any extra except effort. And if you wish to do it nicely, a good eye for photography, and a bit off know- how with camera angles. I got complimented by friends, family and neighbours on my work. 

This was yesterday, for example. I should not act like I'm an entrepeneur on this, I'm just an unemployed hobbyist with little to do and a will to take nice pictures on morning walks. It's better than to do just nothing. Fruit trees spring their apples during this season. It's really lovely. 

They say where there's a will, there's a way. I don't believe in being on your ass all the time when you have a wage. Even if you're chronically sick, you should not play the victim and give life a try. I could not work a job, but it doesn't mean I should sit at home, complaining and smoking myself an accident all the time. Life is too beautifull for that. I woe over not having a job, I'm not completely worthless. That's how I feel. Sick is sick, but some deserve a kick under their ass for being lazy and stupid. I think effort is the new chique. We don't have money, but what's more chique than a little effort for things? A little affordable elegance. To show you are not completely lame and drained empty from being low on money. People who do so have never been chronically sick or truly poor. Just by this economic crisis. If you have always been poor and sick, you are still willing to put effort to life if you have a fighting spirit. Otherwise you're not just as poor as a streetbrick, but also as dumb as a streetbrick in my opinion. 

Most people might hate me over this, lame as mankind can be. But I feel I'm taught up a bit diffrent than them. Being lazy is not chique. Being so easy it looks stupid is neither. I think they can't follow me in this. It's how life works during this crisis, if you want something, you should put effort to it. That's what I think. It's never been easy for me, It's just that during this economical crisis, life still works for me. And it's doable, it's not impossible. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

   

And a picture off a low calorie dessert to end this weblog with for now, low fat peach yoghurt with fresh sweet strawberries from the yearly market. It was delicious. 

 

Good evening at the 23th off August, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

We're in a cooler period in between warm periods, It's breathable but depressingly grey. 

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Shabby, clean, a little less giving- buisy with trying to do cheap groceries and the household, I'm trying to handle and fight inflation and my feelings about the war this way. It's for the kitchen honour off a war. But not really. Most Dutch say we're not in an actuall crisis, everything is just darn expensive. Still it works against my good moods. I keep on thinking about all the poor families without food on the table. Very sad. But I can't do anything for them. I need my pennies myself. Sometimes I donate a small amount off money to charity. But not that often. I'm like many a Dutch, sober these days. Honest, I'm not that diffrent from average people in my head. Especially when it has to be more cheap. I'm nothing more or less than most people. Just a simple yet fat girl from the poor part off the country. It's such a discovery how I'm like the rest off them when I have to live cheap. 

What I do to try to keep it togheter- to be a little more clean. I got complimented all the time by care staff how my small flat is more clean and tidy. It's a crisis reaction. I feel so good about it when I cleaned something and it's all fresh and smells like lemons. I'm an average clean jerk nowadays. I think I can ditch people over being ungroomed an unhygienic. It's below my cleanline standard nowadays. It may sound a little bit arrogant, but I'm at that point. Cheap, clean, and a little old fashioned. I'm in line with this country. With crisis, actually. 

Strange enough I feel less wobbly and more 'on my feet.' when I do that. More sober, more grounded. But also more cranky in an ordinairy way. Fighting the crisis and waging this war my way makes me feel moody. It's also this place, it's vulgair and there's always things going on here. But I handle and deal with it as much as I can. Perfect life is for a princess, I feel too common for that. But man, do I feel good about managing it this way? I would feel proud to have handled it like this, even if we lose this entire Ukraine war, and Gaza falls entirely. It may sound egocentric, but kitchen honour during a war is not so bad, it's better than none. To feel usefull, healthy and fed, and not bankrupt. Oh, and it's not in conflict with the law and institutes off power can't fight me over it. So it's not dangerous. It's a good thing nowadays. It's just that they don't see me as very serious with this. I'm not off might, I outshine that, and they mention. It's not really edgy or fashionable, the calliby cat and Brussle sprout honour off a war. But it's better than doing nothing at all and just be stressed. It feels as if I put my tensions to use, and make people happy with it. It's fullfilling. Spoiled princesses live in a palace, I clean dishes and mind my money. But do I feel it's worthit? 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.    

To end this weblog, a picture off tonight's dessert. Low fat strawberry yoghurt with fresh raspberries on top. I ate the entire package off raspberries with this. Just very nice. 

 

Good afternoon at the 11th off August, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today it's sunny and hot in The Netherlands, and it's said to be a tropical heathwave 

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Today was for baking a plum pie. With plums / prunes from a care taker's garden. I think it looks quite nice. 

It's done with cinnamon, kardamom, vanillin sugar and star anise. It's going to be served at Wednesday, when that care taker works. I made this today, since tomorrow the weather will be too hot for baking. It's done with cream butter, sugar and real eggs. It's as old fashioned and traditional as can be. It's supposed to be delicious. I even purchased an old fashioned can off whipped cream with it. 

Allright, that's about it for now - 

Thank you for reading. 

 

Good morning at the 23th off July, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's warm and muddy in The Netherlands these days. 

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New items in a series I collect- It's almost as if I discovered fresh hope. Despite it's a bit expensive, but it's the latest news on the market, and it's kinda cool to discover. The cooking bible series appears to have almost 5 new titels to collect. I need more space on my shelve for it. But it's 34,99 euro's each. I know if I wait, some enlower in price. But usually I'm kinda fanatic in collecting them. I love these, it's all the information in the field off cookery you need. Almost all the information known to mankind. It's perfect, it's beautifull, but it's high class nowadays where I eat shabby. I think for now it's not worthit, but I'll wait untill it's enlowered, or untill this crisis has ended. Everyone has their fanatical side, The Cooking Bible series is part off mine. But just, really good grief- five titles without me noticing it, I'm thát big, fat behind. Before getting poor, it's almost been pride to 'have all off the latest editions collected.' On my shelves, as if it's a real edgy, cool thing to do so and to have that. In this country, you could say it is, but I walk around on potatoes, veggies and meat and fruits for dessert, and expensive cookery is such a 'far from here' - show, it's almost insultive to myself to own such pricey books on the subject, but not being capable to work from them. So it's a waste. But maybe I can pass by bookstores and the internet every now and then, where it ends in my basket somehow, and badabim, badaboof- it's on my shelves somehow. I think it will end up like that. I'm not that steady in forbidding myself these, I'm afraid. 

And I wish to test fries, French Fries, to see which cheap brand out there is best for Sunday evening. I'm not going to do so every day, I still have to fit my pants. It's a Sunday evening thing. I should not grow more fat from it, and my blood level should stay as good as it is now, but I'll do so in moderation, to a point where the damage is minimal. So it's not dangerous to try what PicNic in The Netherlands has for cheap fries. Last weeks, it came down to a 6, not really well done with my Airfryer power. I wish to keep out all expensive A-Brands, and try the cheap ones. A-Brands give perfect results, but are we rich? I don't think so. So I'll try cheap fry brands. Usually I eat these with vegetables, so it's still kinda healthy. (And a doll up off Zaan mayonaise... so not completely healthy.) It has to make a festive meal perfect. 

And last thing I woe about- Autumn pies and bakings. Something says I won't be so fanatical with these this year. I happened to bake the stars from heaven in Autumn my way each year. It was beloved by fellow clients and staff. It's not as much as it used to be. Cooking an average meal already takes up a lot off time. So a common farmstyle cake is already much. Sometimes I'm a bit high in my head, like with that banana bundt cake from two weeks ago. It really just had to happen. It's constellations where just too perfect, and it just had to be. But it takes up a lot off energy, so I have to be spare with it. Both costs and energy, almost like owning a company in The Netherlands nowadays. It's a bit doubtfull wheter to bake or not. I think I have done my best to it this year so far. High point really was the Valentine's Potato orange chocolate chip heart cake. But Autumn usually asks for a bit more. It's the pressure home bakers have put on themselves nowadays. Autumn is for perfect bakings. It's just that that's more off a '5 years ago'- thing, and this is crisis Netherlands. As long as faces aren't caked in make-up, you know money is spare for baking. Otherwise I really would like to do a square apple pie, and a pumpkin pie this year. With fresh mashed pumpkin. It takes up energy, but the results are usually great. Maybe it's worthit the spending, and I can get eggs for it for free. You know, these inner dialogues off wheter to do something or not. I think it's best to await and see how much it will cost. It's best not to sell a bear skin before shooting it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.        

Examples off Shabby chique dining

 

Good morning everyone,

 if you wonder how Shabby Chique dining can look, well, like this: 

It's just boiled potatoes with fresh carrots and peas, and a normal piece off meat, but it's done on a nice place. So it also serves the eye. 

Fried potatoes, chicken and brocoli, same story. Very normal foods, but served on a nice dish. It makes a diffrence. 

And this is cauliflower with potatoes and a slice off meat, also served on a nice plate. Just sided with water, but I could not feel more decadent than when served on a nice plate.

It enhances the feelings you have during dinner time. It looks good, and you'll feel less cheap when you have these, and it's expensive and looks cheap. Nice dishware is the key! 

I hope you got something onto it, 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good morning at the 19th off July, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's very early, but it's cloudy and warm in The Netherlands. 

I keep on having this idea that the economic turbulence off the world might take a little longer, and we can still be stuck in it for at least five years. I wish I was reliable and could say something like: 'Please take count off it.' It's not a joke. This crisis is not a joke, and we're not free from it in the short term. We have to be sober, and use our minds with our money and spendings. I think you better do that. The days off splendour and luxury are over for a while. I have shared some tips on this weblog on soberness already. It's what I do: Be sober and use what I already have. It's my way to handle it. A clean and fed body is most important, aside to a clean home. All the other stuff is not necessairy. 

Offcourse we need clothes, but we don't need trouble, so we can do with less. It's that trend from a few years ago, but now for serious matters. I think it ain't so bad. 

Think basics, think health, last tip: Try to eat healthy, since doctors are expensive and unreliable. Keep your body functioning well, by eating veggies and fruits. It's worthit your money. It's what I personally do. I eat healthy to keep out off trouble with my body. And I drink a lot off water. Fresh fruits are less expensive than most desserts nowadays, so I eat them to finish meals. 'She finished her meal with a piece off fruit, and a glass off water.' In a book, you are usually not off high rank when you do so, but for now I don't care. It's either fruit, or low fat fruit yoghurt or quark for my desserts. It's affordable and healthy. To maintain functioning well is important these days. Since doctors and hospitals are unreliable and expensive nowadays, and surgery and medical treatment seems only for the rich. So for the sake off it, to eat healthy, you could give it a try. I'm not going to beg you. 

But yeah, another five years at least for the bad economics and the expensive prices. It might become even worse. Don't think this will be easy. 

I hope to have shared with you what I think. I might be wrong. Don't rely on planetairy transits to think it will end at that time, some things need time. It's what I think will happen. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

   

   

Good afternoon at the 12th off July, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today it's bright and sunny in The Netherlands. It's a small heathwave. 

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It's been a while, but I had an idea in my head off a beautifull bundt cake, banana, decadent and tasty like sin. It's almost sin to bake them nowadays with these prices. In our idea off the Wild West it's waste if it's not utmost good. But honest, I made one. Like before the crisis, like before everything got too expensive. 

I believe this bundt cake mold by Nordic Ware is called The Crown. And I love it. I felt 'It's not like I purchased a new hat when buying it.' It's been unused for a while, and it almost became a waste. But I made it work, and it came out even and perfect. I will share it at de Boed, a small community centre specialised in mentally sick people, tomorrow at our noon coffee. And it has fresh nuts and coconut in it, and spices. But I got the spices from mom. It's my own invented receipe. And it's dusted with icing sugar. It's a fairytale. I believe the constellations where perfect for it to come to be, but that might sound a bit supersticious. It's just that I felt like dusting off my baking stuff today, and it worked out well. It's promising for tomorrow. 

Allright. That's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.   

Good afternoon at the 30th off June, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today is a bright and hot day in The Netherlands. 

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Today is for staying in during afternoon, in the morning I had coffee at de Boed, community centre focused on people with a mental handicap in old Zaandijk, the Netherlands. 

But this afternoon is for staying in behind the van with a pilch off water with my obesity and my pale skin. I can't withstand summer heath. On days like this it's a blessing not to have a job. Did you know that hot sun beams can increase mental problems? When it's scorching your scalp, it can worsen. It usually does with me. I don't withstand heath well. So I have to stay in on days like these. 

I'm in with a sore throat. I sneeze and cough and it hurts. I think it's due to changing weather all the time. And sleeping with windows open without a blanket one night. It started that morning. They say I have to drink a lot. I tried sage tea against it. 

People say my tray cake is better than HEMA tray cake, I checked their tray cake, they call it a strawberry vanilla sponge cake. So if I want to be better than them, I need expensive strawberries. And 'vanilla.' Whatever that means, in baking it can mean a lot. From extract to actuall vanilla bean. And theirs is probably from scratch. I think I leave it due to expensive ingredients. If HEMA's had apple- raisin, I would be better. But a restaurant wants it fancy, offcourse. And spongy. So I won't take the challenge. 

I have a lot off food on my bucket list. What to think off summer berry cake, with actuall berries from someone's garden? But I don't know someone with berry bushes. The bouquet on top would probably only take place that way in this time and era, donated and free. But it's like being a celebrity demanding free goods 'because they're good at it.' When I would ask someone. Or expecting them to do so out off nowhere. I don't know someone with a garden. I don't have that luck. I mean something like this 

Zomertaart met rood fruit

Koopmans fruittaart

I already get a lot off items and baking mixes for free from friends. Free berries are a diffrent stage. Sometimes gardeners have them left, but something tells me I won't find it. But it's an example. Wat would be more off a pretty sight than a cake or a tart, with a layer off cream, with a summer fruit bouquet on top? And you can say 'It's all fresh from the garden.' It's so fancy, and you haven't spend a penny too much on it. Or does thinking it like this make me a bit frumpy?   

Spontaneous ideas pop up in my mind. Fruit tart is a classic. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good morning at the 15th off June, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

The weather has cooled down a bit, it's less hot than yesterday. I hope I can take it better today. 

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Some people have no respect for me anymore at all, they keep on pointing out to me as a 'him.' or 'he.' While I'm actually a 'her.' or a 'she.' And it comes from their idea off femininity I don't display. I'm something more fierce. But I think those idiots at Vana Events are so disrespectfull, it deserves a weblog to point that out at you. 

I'm a woman, but inside I feel as strong as a man. The power off a man, but I'm truly feminin. I don't like what they do and catcall me as a 'he.' to make me ugly or stupid. They bully me with it and it's stupid. I rather want them to take on me a bit normal, but usually they treat me like romans would treat a celt without rights. Very scandalous. Respectless, not worthit to listen to. They think they can do anything to me without having to owe up for it or appologize afterward. To stay safe, I left. I think it's a form off respectless violence I can't take. War against my dignity after stating the truth. That's what it is, it's all against my dignity, so they don't have to take me serious and can get away with whatever they want to put me through. It's really horendous and dangerous for me to be there. It hurts. 

Do you think I should keep my mouth shut over it? Well, forget it. This should be stated and Vana should not get away with this abuse. It's a form off unforgivable abuse. And they're not sacred, They should behave respectfull once more. They're too high in their head for propper respect. And they're not dirty off bullying themselves. I think they're not above anything. I think To kick an ass is legid. Outcalling me a 'he.' over not grooming with a lake off make-up they wish to have made money over, like they do, or what they would like to see, makes them stupid. I'm more No Nonsense with my look. Make-up is not my holy grail in being pretty. I wear more common clothes, my face is natural but fine, and I'm not going on a diet, more than I already am. And my hair looks a bit slouchy compared to them. I feel relaxed with it. I don't need to doll up that much for how I like it. But I'm not a 'him.' or a 'he.' That makes them superficial and arrogant. Someone should tell that organisation tut to shut up. I feel better when I'm laid back with looks. I don't like the idea to be forced to wear make-up. Usually I don't wear it at all. It's my preference. No make-up, it would clogg your pores all the time, and causes acne and pimples if you wear it waaay too much. It's more healthy to let skin breathe. It's not my preference to wear it too much. On a daily base, I don't wear it at all. I rather keep my skin clean and healthy. 

But it's so superficial to outcall me over not wearing make-up and be more laid back with how I look. It's as if they want to put confidence for themselves out off that. It's stupid. I feel fine with not dying my hair for 6 months, while they almost force you to do so every week. Really, I haven't dyed ever since February, but it's got a haircut and it's clean. I regulairly wash. It's my choice for it to be like this. I don't like to be outcalled as a 'him.' over it. Or to be offenced any further with it. 

I'm fine with the way I am. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

    

 

      

 

Good evening at the 14th off June, 2025, 2.

 good evening everyone, 

I got all windows open wide, so it can cool down at home after a hot day. 

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I have no clue how bad the impact off this crisis is, if people suffer a lot, and what will happen if it really continues for 5 next years. It's possible, since the country ia already suffering from 5 years off crisis. I think it might take a little too long for people to accept. I hope the economical crisis will get off, and supermarket prices won't be so expensive anymore. Inflation should be off. But honest, I think it might take a while. Longer than we are willing to take. And maybe emergensy lights are not much off a bad idea. I got some for when they want the energy off during winter. I think the government is going to force us a few winters without energy at night. From 21.00 untill 05.00 AM, no energy. It's going to be hell to pay. Emergency lights on batteries and books for entertainment are a requirement during such winters. I suggest you to buy emergency lights for when you need them. On batteries. 

I think the end off the situation won't be determined by Uranus in Gemini next year. It might end during that period, but I don't expect a miracle during the exact transit, though I expect it to end during that period. The end off the economic crisis might be the other end off the story. 

I got an idea they think off me being buisy in the kitchen or cleaning is already intimidating to them. I think they're horendous. Except if they are really lazy slouches who do nothing all day, then peeling potatoes and baking meat well might allready seem like too much, just like baking tray cake. I think that's a bit weird. Or maybe they're really easily on their guard, thinking I got a bitch attitude for doing so. I think it's strange. Maybe they should do more themselves. Some men are really easy to annoy, thinking we, women, should litterally do nothing and just be pretty. But that's not what I'm made off. I rather do a bit off work. I'm not a mindless doll. Household should not feel intimidating. And women's classic heroistic tasks should not be seen with jealousy. It insists you're a really wee man. If people would only be less jealouse... Or peel those potatoes themselves... but that's my opinion. If only my generation was raised to survive to begin with. But that's how I think it is. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.