Look who's dressing them

 Good evening everyone, 

Pluto is in Aquarius, Uranus is in Taurus and Saturn and Neptune dwell in Pisces, it's nowhere in sight with the generation planets, but I think society rather behaves like a poor old Scorpio. Due to war and crisis. Crisis due to war makes fashion behave poor old Scorpio. Classic, loose, red lipstick, and ordinairy. A crave for just groomed with thick eyebrows instead off what you'd expect pluto in Aquarius to make out off it. 

Warfare asks for Scorpio. We see a lot off fashion comebackes from Uranus and Neptune in Aquarius, namely the late 90's and early 00's, but there's no big trend that wrecks modern senses, but classics. Unlike pluto in Capricorn, that seemed to know what to do with style, pluto in Aquarius rather ditches is due to lack off money. A hang for old things is more Scorpio, just like the loose details and the lack off a feeling off luxury that comes from it. It's not like a 90's Scorpio, or a stereotype vampire Scorpio (Which I don't believe in, personally) but a poor one on it's edge off glory. It's poisoned, it's not modern, and we can't afford luxury. But if you believe in a certain timelessness, combined with aging well, Sautéed with almost classic alternative fahion, you got this sense off fashion. And the prickly red lips, plus the lack off over the top off other facial features, we can't say it's Aquarius sparkle that does this. They tried a while with outer space glam, but the people did not catch up on it. They where NOT in for it during this war era with low money. 

I think we will see timeless glam and classic timeless 90's glam the entire decade. It's not going to be very original. We're poor, and glam is a bit out off place here. People even prefer completely ratchet, like many a Scorpio if they had a chance. It's war and crisis that drives most. I think Scorpio rules war, so it's also ruling fashion. It's like pluto turned to a war Scorpio instead off to an Aquarius. Many people did not realize war demands incredible costs, so we can't spend it on other things. Most things I see where already invented. Before the crisis they seemed to be war-thirsty, almost craving it somehow. But now it's there, and I think they look a bit on their nose due to it. War demands a serious attitude with a serious look that comes with it. We can't go all floaty like Aquarius would prefer. It's Scorpio that rules the war closet as far as I can see. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Prediction

 Good evening everyone, 

After this very war, after the economics increased, and when Fashion Gothic is completely the thing, my generation is in danger due to drug abuse and violence. A lot off people will die due to over-abuse. It's in the 30's, after this painfull stuff happened. 

'But what if I don't want you to die?' 

Would you stand strong against it? It's a threat. If you're sensitive, you better stay away from that shit. About 1 in 4 will die. But not me, not this left-winged conservato with no social life, or will to miss behave. I know myself, my headache, or fate, or delusions or over medication will kill me, but not drugs. I was never allowed by my mom. I even never smoked. I'm as clean as a glass off water. I'm not even allowed alcohol. Allright, the glass off water you take mental medication with... so I'm not a complete saint, but sober enough. But my generation is filthy and stupid. They are likely to party their balls off and die from over-abuse. And violence, abuse, home violence, the agressive side off our dark generation. It's something to think about. 

I decided never to ever. I might dwell in chocolate. And fashion gothic. If that's suitable. I'm not likely to wear my love for alternative in public, but I did mild fashion gothic some time ago. And the '30's will be full off fashion gothic. I can't help if the big guys finally allow us to wear it. Versace, Chanel, Armani, you know, I can combine being alternative on the inside and a dramatic diva, and become a fashion goth again. While before it was a no go, and other alternatives hated me for fighting Vana, but now officially I'm going to be in fashion. Fabulous, darling! Or maybe they picked an official goth girl for the '30's muse. It's promising, but it has it's dark sides. Like drug and alcohol abuse and free flowing off violence. 'But I don't want you to die, stay sane!' But it's what those suckers do if we finally get free again. How to be a sane fashion goth without Castlefest or Elfia? I decided to distance a bit. I got my past with them. Common sense first! 'And the locals would look strange if their sweetheart turns gothic all at once.' Is what my gut says. Grandparents would not like me to. And this is a place for elders and mental people who think high off me. Just like at school. Forbidden. Uncomfortable with my peers, and I'm not likely to get away with it. After breaking with Vana, I turned to normal people again. It's not too bad, if you don't say you're a witch, and you keep behaving in line. I'm such a pagan witch, but they don't see, and I'm not 'out off the closet.' I think it will help me to keep on behaving well. I have been a witch for ages. Ever since 13 I felt attracted to mom's books. Gothic and lifestyle is just decoration. It's NOT a necessity, though I do things a bit diffrent. The demon that's in me. But it's NOT neccesairily visible. Oldskool witchcraft is not much on the events anymore. It's all a scam for money and gain nowadays. Profit, Mark has nails in his head for money and it's a shame for our true religion. 

It's hard. In my heart I'm a witch, but I'm not much off a people pleaser. And fashion gothic looks so beautifull. But it has it's cons. And over-abuse will be one off these threats in the future which causes our generation to extinct, aside from this war. My visions tell me, about 70 to 80 % off our generation won't have kids. Due to war, poverty and an impossible home market. I don't see it. I see people having kids, but my head tells me diffrent, just like the old spinsters my age from my care takers. They don't have children either. 'Please take a hold on yourself, and take good care off yourself. This world is dark.' 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.     

Iron Tail

 Good evening everyone, 

We're in a period which they call 'Iron Tail.' In my head, the Iron tail off Uranus in Taurus, ment to defeat anyone too weak for it. 

I heard on the news people in the south off this country are warned the lights will be shut down, due to over-use off energy, and I think we're going to see this phenomenon in all over Western Europe, in the worst case scenario off Iron Tail. From Berlin to Paris, touristic spots will be shut off light at night due to it, like the Brandenburger Tor and the Eiffel Tower. It will happen if we continue over-using energy. 

And the situation will never be so bad and dramatic like this. It's a disaster, and you better stand very firm against it. And it's not over in two years. It's the Iron Tail off the Bull. Just like during World War II, when Uranus was also in Taurus. Please take count off this. Get yourself emergency lights on batteries, and an emergency radio and a phone that keeps on working for this. This period can become terrible. And keep an eye on your money. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good evening at the 5th off October, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's been a stormy weekend in The Netherlands. It's still windy and rainy. 

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'It enhances your heart...' Dáár knapt een mannenhart van op... But I never had the chance to actually share it with the right guy. I make the best coffee and soup in town, That's what I claim all the time. I'm the coffee lady, and sometimes I sell pretty good soup to my friend, the retired zookeeper. He asks me all the time. When I'm about to make vegetable soup, and today was for a good portion off cauliflower oven dish with a bowl off low fat strawberry yoghurt. 

I think it helps, he's underfed and low on vitamins. So he can use my food. But it's never for Mr. Right. Still, it's making me happy to improve his health a bit. But having no man is a bit off a miss. It hurts a bit to have a hole in my heart. I'm at that age, but a man is not preferable, and neither is having kids. Economics are too bad. My health sucks, I think I'm about to die all the time. Every morning I wake up after an evening struggling with headaches is a gift. The cramps hurt an incredible lot. It's rotten. Every day, every year is a gift in my opinion. But I struggle and it hurts. But to cook heart enhancing foods keeps me alive, in a wide sense off the word. And help my neighbour. It sets my mind off off things, and we eat. 

'I make the best in town.' I brawl a bit, but it's a joke and they got it. Maybe they even agree. I'm a bit cranky, a bit moody. It's that war-feeling, Autumn and the gloom off this old town. Food keeps me up. I don't mean over-eating, I don't have money for that, but I can cook a well cooked meal, and I enjoy. Despite it's every day food. The World used to be more rich, I wish I would not compare to the old situation all the time, the situation from 5 years ago, when we seemed rich and invincible. But I have to keep up. Though I must admit, sometimes it's even a bit soothing to dwell in that crankyness, I did not know I was capable to feel an emotion like that. So gloomy, so desolate, dealing with bad economics and the weather. And meanwhile I take pictures off my every day food and post them on my Facebook. I like to think I mock Russia that way a bit. They want us to be poor and starve, but I still have healthy foods on my table. 'Look, Moscow, I. still. eat!' Despite prices. It's not luxurious, but compared to the old situation, this is luxury off the day.  And I'm a sick nobody without a job. But I eat healthy food. 

I think Russia should hate me for it. This is what they're after. But I got wartime food. I'm not wealthy. And it's basic. Every 90's dad could tell you this is utmost basic, but it's kinda good. Come to think off it, to have a man and extra mouths to feed would be too much. But selling a mundane portion to a skinny old grandpa does it with this. I sell portions for 5 euro's each. I always say he 'owes up for the minced meat.' In an oven dish, or for soup balls. I make my own soup balls. And this way I can afford beef mince. Prices are expensive for us, on the lower scale off income. But I manage to come round. I try not to be expensive, and a bit giving. Tonight's portion was big, and he got a dessert with it. It enhances a heart. That's what I do if I feel well on a Sunday. 

But this world and being poor, that's why I never got married. And offcourse, my own impossible self. It's a calculation, but I think it's fate. Just like Jupiter in Libra in the Fourth house on the horoscope off the Kingdom off the Netherlands, I'm blessed with the home and doing home work, but I'm not fit for anything outside this place. Mars makes a square in Capricorn, and Venus opposes it in Aries. It's not preferable for work, or wealthy elegance, and forget it with love and romance. But it's the comfort off a home. And I got that. The blessing off a Dutch home. I'm sincerely lucky with it, but love is not in it for me. (I tried to read the Dutch horoscope. It's kinda interesting.) And it's both fortune and faith. I hope that doesn't sound too vague to you. To work with this horoscope chart makes me understand things a bit better. Horoscopes aren't complete gibberish to me. It's what keeps my mind buisy. 

So, that's what's on: The gloom, foods, selling them and the horoscope. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

  

Good evening at the 27th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Outside the Autumn winds blow. It's gloomy and a bit depressing outside. 

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I honesty have no clue if this happens, but it's on my mind: I may seem a bit expensive or impossible during crisis, but if they start to compare after crisis, I think they'll laugh or call me a scam. I do and eat things that are not supposed to be expensive, or still somewhat affordable if you saved your pennies ahead to this monkey crisis. If you did so and you compare, it's still possible. But for those without my insights- it may seem a little too much. I think I make people jealouse. It's been half my intention, but now I feel guilty. When they see me eat stuff they can't afford anymore. It's a bit sad. But I think after this crisis, it will be pulled straight, and I'm the laugh off the world again with my affordable old fashioned stuff and style off living. Like I used to be. Well, affordable? It's supposed to be. It was, some time ago. 

What old timer drinks their plain coffee with milk from a glass mug? And eat cheap vegetables like me? Or just slices off brown bread with toppings? People are jealouse, but after this crisis, I'm probably a bit too old fashioned, or arrange a birthday with old fashioned pastries one euro each? The old fashioned way is the way nowadays for me. Even if it makes me a bit off a plain Jane. But I'm on governmental wages, and I can get by this way. I hope they won't mock me after crisis for being a bit strange. If my dad would not have been such a babyboomer, I think I would not have accepted this style off nostalgia. But I don't mind this old stuff and a bit off a rigid home cleaning routine. I feel like a cozy, Vintage Belle in my cute doll closet. I wonder what my passed dad would have said about it. All the stuff from his youth brought back during a wartime. But honest, it's not a thing I mind. If we have to deal with it for a while due to lack off innovations due to money. I'm perfectly fine. I seasoned it with timeless shabby chique, and it's cozy. It can pass for a while. 

But still, it's a sport. To spot things fitting this style off living. But life is possible. Cuba has been dealing with the '50's ever since it's been '50's, and most poor countries don't improve that easily. Maybe that's our fate. But it's possible. Though not willingly. If you do timeless shabby chique and a bit off effort, you can maintain a sense off wealth, despite economics and prices. I don't want to make people jealouse, it's having a bit off an eye for style that makes it. Not the expensive stuff. It can perfectly be from ACTION's or second hand. Or a bit older. It has such a soul. It's beautifull in my eyes. Like a timeless ghetto home can have. A bit Old World, a bit off American New England, A bit classic British, A bit classic, blessed with a radio and feel good music, and we call this a crisis for the world outside. As the Autumn winds blow by, it perfectly works when I sit here with my cup off tea. Really soulfull. 

It's never been too expensive, that just has never been possible. But it's something I love and feel. And I mentioned well- ment soul stuff doesn't cost that much and always fits. No matter what. A bush off plain long stern roses for example, always does as a gift. And simply to make fresh coffee taste perfect warms the heart best- really minding how you make it. It makes a diffrence. And if expensive has never been possible- then how about tidy enough? It still gives a good feeling off luxury. They call this a ghetto. And it's a crisis. But I refuse to enlower standards. And that might give me a bit off a snobby feeling, while it's just classic junk and how you do it. I hope they don't mock me too much after this is done. Or start to compare. I might become the laugh off the internet for it. But it's been my way off taking on this crisis, and the idea off looking poor always has been against my pride. So I choose this real classic way off doing it. It's an inexpensive way off looking chique still. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.            

Good evening at the 19th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was a nice warm day in The Netherlands. Most people enjoyed this maybe last day off summer weather. 

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I belief we can discuss. People are born with a mouth and a mind, so we are made to discuss subjects. Also in relationships. You can talk things over, instead off heaping it up and assuming things are allright. I think a lot can be saved by asking your other half 'but how do you think / feel about this?' And let them have their way in a situation you won't die over if they had it. I'm not an expert. But people are such strong minded individuals, headstrong most off the time, and it doesn't make a relationship work all the time. 'But what do you think about this?' 'Is this allright with you?' And simply quit if you feel it's against their feelings, or you might hurt them or make them feel uneasy with behavior. People are headstrong and stupid, but we can discuss and we can use common sense. And a relationship is not a one-way road. Sometimes you have to compromise with them. I hope you have an equally intelligent individual in front off you with who you can discuss on a common ground about everything. Communication is important. Communication is key. 

I could sound like a psychologist, I just wish I had someone who understands and who I can be gratefull for. I wish for someone I can discuss the world with, without them to grow tired. Someone with a good opinion and their heart in the right place, and stories to tell. As easy as I come off online, in real life I'm quiet and a bit held back. I wish for someone who talks easy and who loves good conversations about- everything. You can get really close to someone if you know who they are on the inside for real. It's intimidating, but important. The key here is to feel I'm understood by him or her. Understood and felt with. It's so important I feel heard. Heard, and loved. I love a good man with a good sense off intelligence who loves to talk with me. But maybe for a man who isn't a care taker with a psychology care study, that might be a bit gay or impossible. It's bonus points if we can laugh togheter and if he has a certain charm. It's really hard to get to me, love and friendship begins in the mind. You can look sophisticated, but if you can't talk, that's a red flag. I learned from a crush on a care taker, that to talk to begin with, is important and underrated. I think we better find out as soon as possible about religious beliefs, relationships and political opinions. If it oposes yours, it says everything but at least it kicks you off off your pink cloud. So it's very important. Who you are is what you think. But often we don't speak our minds in public. So it's good to ask if you like someone. Care takers are impossible, but at least his opinion left me with less butterflies. 

Care forces people with diffrent opinions at the same table. It can be very interesting to hear them all. And this situation forces us to deal with each other each day, so we have to keep it mild and 'forgive and forget.' all the time. It's just that I barely speak my mind with them. About spirituality or politics. They don't know me at those points. And they do influence me. I shove a bit more to the centre in politics. I'm not completely left winged anymore. When it's to food or foreigners, I'm not left-winged, just like with the farming plans for the future. While on the social-economic part, I'm completely left-winged. I'm not racist or against foreigners, but the country is full. Too full for new refugees, and our own people have to live first and get the houses. Not the foreigners. The home market is too tight for that, and the assylums are too full in this country. It's not that we are not willing, it's just that it's not possible. We need homes for our own youth first. 

And food, I find the left wing healthy floaty and too strict on things. We have health problems, but to forbid my cookie during coffee time? Uh-Oh, that goes too far bro. The new health rules on health institutes are very strict and impossible to live by. No sugar, no smoking, less salt, and it's decretes from the government. Most fellow clients do hard with no smoking, and I could kill them for stealing my cookie at the coffee moments. It's the only treat I allowed myself for a while, the only snack I ate for a day. But they claim people stuff themselves and it's unhealthy. I'm obese from medication, I have little money for snacks, so that one cookie at de Boed with my cup off coffee was an outcome. I got cookies myself now, but I forget them all the time. I'm not used to snacking at my own home. 'If you don't like it, you can buy cookies yourself.' That's what they told me. I'm a sober person, so I buy cookies for cheap. It's not much off an issue to have them that way, but it doesn't make sense. Now I can stuff myself with it, while my own strict one cookie a day policy kept me from it. Not at all is too strict, too... 'Zeikerig.' from de Boed. They're ant-fucking with this. And people can't keep up with it, I can tell that ahead. But it's all due to health policy. 

I'm a bit classic conservative with foods. Not that I eat a pile off meat each day, but the common things and the ordinairy old fashioned ingredients are more my thing than those floaty ingredients or vegan stuff they try to sell. And it's more expensive. I'm a low income budget who can't afford such high flying elite foods, so I do it feet on the ground. And I do eat meat, since I think humans need it. And if we don't kill animals for it, we are likely to kill ourselves for it. Humans need it for their brain. Not an unhealthy amount, but still a good part off meat with our meals and in the matter 'humans first or animals first.' I picked humans. We need to eat meat, I decided to turn a blind eye on animal rights since we are meat eating species ourselves. Sad but true. 

So no left-winged floaty stuff on the food subject for me. It's too much. I love to eat vegetables and world dishes, though. But in balance with meat and diary. Just what a healthy woman needs. I may sound old fashioned, but I know in the future the left will lose on food, and health will be taken less strict. Since we can't keep up with this style off food. It's impossible or too expensive. To replace sugar is too expensive and not profitable for the west. All the replacements come from abroad, and the scale is too high. It's not possible for The West to replace sugar on the scale on which it's needed. 

I think if you as an individual can handle your sugar intake mature, there's nothing going on with it. Sugar doesn't kill people, it's people themselves who should moderate sugar. No soda and juices, no sugar in hot drinks, and moderate eating can be a good thing. I also got over my sugar addiction, so why can't you? But by force from the government this way goes too far in my opinion. No cookie with my coffee is not fair. I do eat a cookie a day, it's a personal choice. 

But I do prefer it healthy. I eat veggies and fruits, and I don't drink soda or juices. To prepare foods the responsible way is my choice. A bit old fashioned, but old keys open new doors. And it's going to be the best way for this century. I'm not likely to be found at a fastfood restaurant, That's something I'm against, but I do eat moderate meat and normal foods. That's my opinion. 

Allright, that's about it for now - 

Thank you for reading. 

     

Good evening at the 17th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's a rainy, almost Autumn day in The Netherlands, I even spotted mushrooms aside the road. 

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I'd like to share a theory with you. 

What if the establishment wants to regain it's power? Wilders is gone from the cabinet, but what if the ordinairy, wishes to regain their power during the upcoming peace? I think it's almost peace, and de Hague wishes to have it's usuall parties in the cabinet again when that happens, simply to let the country roll a certain way. Under controll of what's always been. That would make these elections a mild scam, for the economy and the regain off power sake. I think it's oldskool parties that will rule after the elections, and short after that there will be iron peace in the world, or at least in Europe. Cause that's 'how things have always been.' And 'How they want them.' In this country. It's going to be right-winged. I think the farmer party and the populists will be gone out off the cabinet after these elections. And it will look oldskool and familiair again in The Hague. Because it will be peace soon, and things have to be under their controll again. It's a theory, a thought, a certain way things go. Just a suspicion. 

If the regulair parties win, it will be peace all off a sudden next year. That's my belief. Out off the air, or mildly forced. It's not coincidence. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

Good evening at the 7th off September, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today is the last nice day off the year according to most. The last sunny day before the rain and fall season truly hits. 

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Yesterday was for a day at ARTIS Zoo, (The Amsterdam Zoo) completely paid for by Leviaan. I loved it. The animals where so captivating, the park was beautifull, and the weather was a delight. And for me it was completely free. Usually we don't go on trips like this, it's been mugging for five years by us before they finally agreed. But the day was fabulous, a dream day from a fairytale. Zoo animals are so beautifull and special, They're from another world, worlds we don't get to see every day. Only in nature documentairies. My family loves those. If they don't know what to watch, it's nature documentairies, and I'm for real. It's just that I got to see wildlife for real yesterday. Really nice and special for a common Saturday.

I feel well, I feel good in my skin and I try to do my best in life. Just my plain best on a household level. Nothing too big, nothing too difficult, and I function. It's just that it's a bit spare on money, but I try to owe up for that by doing my best with it. You can say it's a cheap everything cleaner, but it matters if the floor and the toilet are cleaned with it to begin with, or the dishes are done to begin with with cheap dishwash. And you'll see, it cleans just as good. It's just your mindset towards it. We can fight over it, but if it works, it works. I got complimented a lot on my tidy home lately. It's my way to set my mind off off things. It's the most usefull thing we can do nowadays: To clean. I don't withhold power, but mán, does my home smell like lemons? I don't know if I do well with it, but it's a small act off rebellion. Against lazy slouches, against lazy youth, against filthy pigs. I don't know, it's working in my mind. And they almost accuse me off witchcraft instead off seeking the sane and do so themselves. It's that feeling off brushing your teeth every day in the morning and the evening and simply knowing it makes you superior to those lazy slouches, despite lack off education, intelligence, money or style. At least I'm every day clean. I can say I don't accept it when a person is filthy. I'm not just waging a war with the Russians. But I think I do it perfectly. Filthy, sweaty pigs are not my type off people anymore. I think I beat most off 'those.' people when I'm clean on myself and my home. Most off those know it alls don't know how to use a mop and a toothbrush. It's my way to deal with a lot. If you have more than seven reasons to do something, you should do it if everything falls into place with it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.       

 

 

Good morning at the 3th off September, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

Today is windy, grey and stormy in The Netherlands. Autumnal weather has hit us. 

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Life ebs and flows, usually it's a bit more eb than flow. I walk around town a lot, to do a bit more physicall excercise. It's not much, but every step is one. But I got issues with my head if I overdo. They say I should take it more easily, not overwork myself from walking. It's a bit silly, but I have to take it and accept. When I take walks around this charming area, I take a lot off pictures and I post them on Facebook. I have a lot 'Spotted during my morning walk.' Pictures from this area. I love it. It's often blooming plants, or the antique houses or a nice sight. Over the river Zaan for example. It's a dreamy fairytale when you live here and you are into that antique style. It's really pretty and fancy. Moving around is better than just sitting in one place they say. 

It's just that I'm not a mental patient over nothing. I got issues if I walk too much. So I'm told to do so every other day instead off every day. Today is not much off a problem, it's all rain and wind outside. So let's stay in and take it more easy this morning. 

The best about photographing a nice surrounding, is that it's free. It doesn't cost any extra except effort. And if you wish to do it nicely, a good eye for photography, and a bit off know- how with camera angles. I got complimented by friends, family and neighbours on my work. 

This was yesterday, for example. I should not act like I'm an entrepeneur on this, I'm just an unemployed hobbyist with little to do and a will to take nice pictures on morning walks. It's better than to do just nothing. Fruit trees spring their apples during this season. It's really lovely. 

They say where there's a will, there's a way. I don't believe in being on your ass all the time when you have a wage. Even if you're chronically sick, you should not play the victim and give life a try. I could not work a job, but it doesn't mean I should sit at home, complaining and smoking myself an accident all the time. Life is too beautifull for that. I woe over not having a job, I'm not completely worthless. That's how I feel. Sick is sick, but some deserve a kick under their ass for being lazy and stupid. I think effort is the new chique. We don't have money, but what's more chique than a little effort for things? A little affordable elegance. To show you are not completely lame and drained empty from being low on money. People who do so have never been chronically sick or truly poor. Just by this economic crisis. If you have always been poor and sick, you are still willing to put effort to life if you have a fighting spirit. Otherwise you're not just as poor as a streetbrick, but also as dumb as a streetbrick in my opinion. 

Most people might hate me over this, lame as mankind can be. But I feel I'm taught up a bit diffrent than them. Being lazy is not chique. Being so easy it looks stupid is neither. I think they can't follow me in this. It's how life works during this crisis, if you want something, you should put effort to it. That's what I think. It's never been easy for me, It's just that during this economical crisis, life still works for me. And it's doable, it's not impossible. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

   

And a picture off a low calorie dessert to end this weblog with for now, low fat peach yoghurt with fresh sweet strawberries from the yearly market. It was delicious. 

 

Good evening at the 23th off August, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

We're in a cooler period in between warm periods, It's breathable but depressingly grey. 

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Shabby, clean, a little less giving- buisy with trying to do cheap groceries and the household, I'm trying to handle and fight inflation and my feelings about the war this way. It's for the kitchen honour off a war. But not really. Most Dutch say we're not in an actuall crisis, everything is just darn expensive. Still it works against my good moods. I keep on thinking about all the poor families without food on the table. Very sad. But I can't do anything for them. I need my pennies myself. Sometimes I donate a small amount off money to charity. But not that often. I'm like many a Dutch, sober these days. Honest, I'm not that diffrent from average people in my head. Especially when it has to be more cheap. I'm nothing more or less than most people. Just a simple yet fat girl from the poor part off the country. It's such a discovery how I'm like the rest off them when I have to live cheap. 

What I do to try to keep it togheter- to be a little more clean. I got complimented all the time by care staff how my small flat is more clean and tidy. It's a crisis reaction. I feel so good about it when I cleaned something and it's all fresh and smells like lemons. I'm an average clean jerk nowadays. I think I can ditch people over being ungroomed an unhygienic. It's below my cleanline standard nowadays. It may sound a little bit arrogant, but I'm at that point. Cheap, clean, and a little old fashioned. I'm in line with this country. With crisis, actually. 

Strange enough I feel less wobbly and more 'on my feet.' when I do that. More sober, more grounded. But also more cranky in an ordinairy way. Fighting the crisis and waging this war my way makes me feel moody. It's also this place, it's vulgair and there's always things going on here. But I handle and deal with it as much as I can. Perfect life is for a princess, I feel too common for that. But man, do I feel good about managing it this way? I would feel proud to have handled it like this, even if we lose this entire Ukraine war, and Gaza falls entirely. It may sound egocentric, but kitchen honour during a war is not so bad, it's better than none. To feel usefull, healthy and fed, and not bankrupt. Oh, and it's not in conflict with the law and institutes off power can't fight me over it. So it's not dangerous. It's a good thing nowadays. It's just that they don't see me as very serious with this. I'm not off might, I outshine that, and they mention. It's not really edgy or fashionable, the calliby cat and Brussle sprout honour off a war. But it's better than doing nothing at all and just be stressed. It feels as if I put my tensions to use, and make people happy with it. It's fullfilling. Spoiled princesses live in a palace, I clean dishes and mind my money. But do I feel it's worthit? 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.    

To end this weblog, a picture off tonight's dessert. Low fat strawberry yoghurt with fresh raspberries on top. I ate the entire package off raspberries with this. Just very nice. 

 

Good afternoon at the 11th off August, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today it's sunny and hot in The Netherlands, and it's said to be a tropical heathwave 

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Today was for baking a plum pie. With plums / prunes from a care taker's garden. I think it looks quite nice. 

It's done with cinnamon, kardamom, vanillin sugar and star anise. It's going to be served at Wednesday, when that care taker works. I made this today, since tomorrow the weather will be too hot for baking. It's done with cream butter, sugar and real eggs. It's as old fashioned and traditional as can be. It's supposed to be delicious. I even purchased an old fashioned can off whipped cream with it. 

Allright, that's about it for now - 

Thank you for reading. 

 

Good morning at the 23th off July, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's warm and muddy in The Netherlands these days. 

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New items in a series I collect- It's almost as if I discovered fresh hope. Despite it's a bit expensive, but it's the latest news on the market, and it's kinda cool to discover. The cooking bible series appears to have almost 5 new titels to collect. I need more space on my shelve for it. But it's 34,99 euro's each. I know if I wait, some enlower in price. But usually I'm kinda fanatic in collecting them. I love these, it's all the information in the field off cookery you need. Almost all the information known to mankind. It's perfect, it's beautifull, but it's high class nowadays where I eat shabby. I think for now it's not worthit, but I'll wait untill it's enlowered, or untill this crisis has ended. Everyone has their fanatical side, The Cooking Bible series is part off mine. But just, really good grief- five titles without me noticing it, I'm thát big, fat behind. Before getting poor, it's almost been pride to 'have all off the latest editions collected.' On my shelves, as if it's a real edgy, cool thing to do so and to have that. In this country, you could say it is, but I walk around on potatoes, veggies and meat and fruits for dessert, and expensive cookery is such a 'far from here' - show, it's almost insultive to myself to own such pricey books on the subject, but not being capable to work from them. So it's a waste. But maybe I can pass by bookstores and the internet every now and then, where it ends in my basket somehow, and badabim, badaboof- it's on my shelves somehow. I think it will end up like that. I'm not that steady in forbidding myself these, I'm afraid. 

And I wish to test fries, French Fries, to see which cheap brand out there is best for Sunday evening. I'm not going to do so every day, I still have to fit my pants. It's a Sunday evening thing. I should not grow more fat from it, and my blood level should stay as good as it is now, but I'll do so in moderation, to a point where the damage is minimal. So it's not dangerous to try what PicNic in The Netherlands has for cheap fries. Last weeks, it came down to a 6, not really well done with my Airfryer power. I wish to keep out all expensive A-Brands, and try the cheap ones. A-Brands give perfect results, but are we rich? I don't think so. So I'll try cheap fry brands. Usually I eat these with vegetables, so it's still kinda healthy. (And a doll up off Zaan mayonaise... so not completely healthy.) It has to make a festive meal perfect. 

And last thing I woe about- Autumn pies and bakings. Something says I won't be so fanatical with these this year. I happened to bake the stars from heaven in Autumn my way each year. It was beloved by fellow clients and staff. It's not as much as it used to be. Cooking an average meal already takes up a lot off time. So a common farmstyle cake is already much. Sometimes I'm a bit high in my head, like with that banana bundt cake from two weeks ago. It really just had to happen. It's constellations where just too perfect, and it just had to be. But it takes up a lot off energy, so I have to be spare with it. Both costs and energy, almost like owning a company in The Netherlands nowadays. It's a bit doubtfull wheter to bake or not. I think I have done my best to it this year so far. High point really was the Valentine's Potato orange chocolate chip heart cake. But Autumn usually asks for a bit more. It's the pressure home bakers have put on themselves nowadays. Autumn is for perfect bakings. It's just that that's more off a '5 years ago'- thing, and this is crisis Netherlands. As long as faces aren't caked in make-up, you know money is spare for baking. Otherwise I really would like to do a square apple pie, and a pumpkin pie this year. With fresh mashed pumpkin. It takes up energy, but the results are usually great. Maybe it's worthit the spending, and I can get eggs for it for free. You know, these inner dialogues off wheter to do something or not. I think it's best to await and see how much it will cost. It's best not to sell a bear skin before shooting it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.        

Examples off Shabby chique dining

 

Good morning everyone,

 if you wonder how Shabby Chique dining can look, well, like this: 

It's just boiled potatoes with fresh carrots and peas, and a normal piece off meat, but it's done on a nice place. So it also serves the eye. 

Fried potatoes, chicken and brocoli, same story. Very normal foods, but served on a nice dish. It makes a diffrence. 

And this is cauliflower with potatoes and a slice off meat, also served on a nice plate. Just sided with water, but I could not feel more decadent than when served on a nice plate.

It enhances the feelings you have during dinner time. It looks good, and you'll feel less cheap when you have these, and it's expensive and looks cheap. Nice dishware is the key! 

I hope you got something onto it, 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good morning at the 19th off July, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

It's very early, but it's cloudy and warm in The Netherlands. 

I keep on having this idea that the economic turbulence off the world might take a little longer, and we can still be stuck in it for at least five years. I wish I was reliable and could say something like: 'Please take count off it.' It's not a joke. This crisis is not a joke, and we're not free from it in the short term. We have to be sober, and use our minds with our money and spendings. I think you better do that. The days off splendour and luxury are over for a while. I have shared some tips on this weblog on soberness already. It's what I do: Be sober and use what I already have. It's my way to handle it. A clean and fed body is most important, aside to a clean home. All the other stuff is not necessairy. 

Offcourse we need clothes, but we don't need trouble, so we can do with less. It's that trend from a few years ago, but now for serious matters. I think it ain't so bad. 

Think basics, think health, last tip: Try to eat healthy, since doctors are expensive and unreliable. Keep your body functioning well, by eating veggies and fruits. It's worthit your money. It's what I personally do. I eat healthy to keep out off trouble with my body. And I drink a lot off water. Fresh fruits are less expensive than most desserts nowadays, so I eat them to finish meals. 'She finished her meal with a piece off fruit, and a glass off water.' In a book, you are usually not off high rank when you do so, but for now I don't care. It's either fruit, or low fat fruit yoghurt or quark for my desserts. It's affordable and healthy. To maintain functioning well is important these days. Since doctors and hospitals are unreliable and expensive nowadays, and surgery and medical treatment seems only for the rich. So for the sake off it, to eat healthy, you could give it a try. I'm not going to beg you. 

But yeah, another five years at least for the bad economics and the expensive prices. It might become even worse. Don't think this will be easy. 

I hope to have shared with you what I think. I might be wrong. Don't rely on planetairy transits to think it will end at that time, some things need time. It's what I think will happen. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

   

   

Good afternoon at the 12th off July, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today it's bright and sunny in The Netherlands. It's a small heathwave. 

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It's been a while, but I had an idea in my head off a beautifull bundt cake, banana, decadent and tasty like sin. It's almost sin to bake them nowadays with these prices. In our idea off the Wild West it's waste if it's not utmost good. But honest, I made one. Like before the crisis, like before everything got too expensive. 

I believe this bundt cake mold by Nordic Ware is called The Crown. And I love it. I felt 'It's not like I purchased a new hat when buying it.' It's been unused for a while, and it almost became a waste. But I made it work, and it came out even and perfect. I will share it at de Boed, a small community centre specialised in mentally sick people, tomorrow at our noon coffee. And it has fresh nuts and coconut in it, and spices. But I got the spices from mom. It's my own invented receipe. And it's dusted with icing sugar. It's a fairytale. I believe the constellations where perfect for it to come to be, but that might sound a bit supersticious. It's just that I felt like dusting off my baking stuff today, and it worked out well. It's promising for tomorrow. 

Allright. That's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.   

Good afternoon at the 30th off June, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today is a bright and hot day in The Netherlands. 

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Today is for staying in during afternoon, in the morning I had coffee at de Boed, community centre focused on people with a mental handicap in old Zaandijk, the Netherlands. 

But this afternoon is for staying in behind the van with a pilch off water with my obesity and my pale skin. I can't withstand summer heath. On days like this it's a blessing not to have a job. Did you know that hot sun beams can increase mental problems? When it's scorching your scalp, it can worsen. It usually does with me. I don't withstand heath well. So I have to stay in on days like these. 

I'm in with a sore throat. I sneeze and cough and it hurts. I think it's due to changing weather all the time. And sleeping with windows open without a blanket one night. It started that morning. They say I have to drink a lot. I tried sage tea against it. 

People say my tray cake is better than HEMA tray cake, I checked their tray cake, they call it a strawberry vanilla sponge cake. So if I want to be better than them, I need expensive strawberries. And 'vanilla.' Whatever that means, in baking it can mean a lot. From extract to actuall vanilla bean. And theirs is probably from scratch. I think I leave it due to expensive ingredients. If HEMA's had apple- raisin, I would be better. But a restaurant wants it fancy, offcourse. And spongy. So I won't take the challenge. 

I have a lot off food on my bucket list. What to think off summer berry cake, with actuall berries from someone's garden? But I don't know someone with berry bushes. The bouquet on top would probably only take place that way in this time and era, donated and free. But it's like being a celebrity demanding free goods 'because they're good at it.' When I would ask someone. Or expecting them to do so out off nowhere. I don't know someone with a garden. I don't have that luck. I mean something like this 

Zomertaart met rood fruit

Koopmans fruittaart

I already get a lot off items and baking mixes for free from friends. Free berries are a diffrent stage. Sometimes gardeners have them left, but something tells me I won't find it. But it's an example. Wat would be more off a pretty sight than a cake or a tart, with a layer off cream, with a summer fruit bouquet on top? And you can say 'It's all fresh from the garden.' It's so fancy, and you haven't spend a penny too much on it. Or does thinking it like this make me a bit frumpy?   

Spontaneous ideas pop up in my mind. Fruit tart is a classic. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good morning at the 15th off June, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

The weather has cooled down a bit, it's less hot than yesterday. I hope I can take it better today. 

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Some people have no respect for me anymore at all, they keep on pointing out to me as a 'him.' or 'he.' While I'm actually a 'her.' or a 'she.' And it comes from their idea off femininity I don't display. I'm something more fierce. But I think those idiots at Vana Events are so disrespectfull, it deserves a weblog to point that out at you. 

I'm a woman, but inside I feel as strong as a man. The power off a man, but I'm truly feminin. I don't like what they do and catcall me as a 'he.' to make me ugly or stupid. They bully me with it and it's stupid. I rather want them to take on me a bit normal, but usually they treat me like romans would treat a celt without rights. Very scandalous. Respectless, not worthit to listen to. They think they can do anything to me without having to owe up for it or appologize afterward. To stay safe, I left. I think it's a form off respectless violence I can't take. War against my dignity after stating the truth. That's what it is, it's all against my dignity, so they don't have to take me serious and can get away with whatever they want to put me through. It's really horendous and dangerous for me to be there. It hurts. 

Do you think I should keep my mouth shut over it? Well, forget it. This should be stated and Vana should not get away with this abuse. It's a form off unforgivable abuse. And they're not sacred, They should behave respectfull once more. They're too high in their head for propper respect. And they're not dirty off bullying themselves. I think they're not above anything. I think To kick an ass is legid. Outcalling me a 'he.' over not grooming with a lake off make-up they wish to have made money over, like they do, or what they would like to see, makes them stupid. I'm more No Nonsense with my look. Make-up is not my holy grail in being pretty. I wear more common clothes, my face is natural but fine, and I'm not going on a diet, more than I already am. And my hair looks a bit slouchy compared to them. I feel relaxed with it. I don't need to doll up that much for how I like it. But I'm not a 'him.' or a 'he.' That makes them superficial and arrogant. Someone should tell that organisation tut to shut up. I feel better when I'm laid back with looks. I don't like the idea to be forced to wear make-up. Usually I don't wear it at all. It's my preference. No make-up, it would clogg your pores all the time, and causes acne and pimples if you wear it waaay too much. It's more healthy to let skin breathe. It's not my preference to wear it too much. On a daily base, I don't wear it at all. I rather keep my skin clean and healthy. 

But it's so superficial to outcall me over not wearing make-up and be more laid back with how I look. It's as if they want to put confidence for themselves out off that. It's stupid. I feel fine with not dying my hair for 6 months, while they almost force you to do so every week. Really, I haven't dyed ever since February, but it's got a haircut and it's clean. I regulairly wash. It's my choice for it to be like this. I don't like to be outcalled as a 'him.' over it. Or to be offenced any further with it. 

I'm fine with the way I am. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

    

 

      

 

Good evening at the 14th off June, 2025, 2.

 good evening everyone, 

I got all windows open wide, so it can cool down at home after a hot day. 

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I have no clue how bad the impact off this crisis is, if people suffer a lot, and what will happen if it really continues for 5 next years. It's possible, since the country ia already suffering from 5 years off crisis. I think it might take a little too long for people to accept. I hope the economical crisis will get off, and supermarket prices won't be so expensive anymore. Inflation should be off. But honest, I think it might take a while. Longer than we are willing to take. And maybe emergensy lights are not much off a bad idea. I got some for when they want the energy off during winter. I think the government is going to force us a few winters without energy at night. From 21.00 untill 05.00 AM, no energy. It's going to be hell to pay. Emergency lights on batteries and books for entertainment are a requirement during such winters. I suggest you to buy emergency lights for when you need them. On batteries. 

I think the end off the situation won't be determined by Uranus in Gemini next year. It might end during that period, but I don't expect a miracle during the exact transit, though I expect it to end during that period. The end off the economic crisis might be the other end off the story. 

I got an idea they think off me being buisy in the kitchen or cleaning is already intimidating to them. I think they're horendous. Except if they are really lazy slouches who do nothing all day, then peeling potatoes and baking meat well might allready seem like too much, just like baking tray cake. I think that's a bit weird. Or maybe they're really easily on their guard, thinking I got a bitch attitude for doing so. I think it's strange. Maybe they should do more themselves. Some men are really easy to annoy, thinking we, women, should litterally do nothing and just be pretty. But that's not what I'm made off. I rather do a bit off work. I'm not a mindless doll. Household should not feel intimidating. And women's classic heroistic tasks should not be seen with jealousy. It insists you're a really wee man. If people would only be less jealouse... Or peel those potatoes themselves... but that's my opinion. If only my generation was raised to survive to begin with. But that's how I think it is. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

   

Good evening at the 14th off June, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was muddy, grey and warm in The Netherlands. Really the edge off a swamp. 

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Today was for baking a tray cake, taste chocolate - cherry, from jar. I haven't been around begging for ingredients this week, I purchased all except the eggs. I got them for free from a rich friend. I made it to honour Father's day. my dad passed away in 2012, and most fellow clients don't have a father anymore. They're old folks. But in honour to father's energy, I felt like baking. It came out perfectly. 

They already think I'm better than HEMA's when it comes to the apple one. I hope they like this one just as good or better.  Maybe people can use a little mood enhancer at Father's day, given it's a bit sensitive. I made this without following the instructions on the back, I rather felt like baking it like a pro instead off dumping everything in all at once. I did so by creaming butter, then eggs one by one, then the cake mix and the milk in stages, ended with the milk. You get more off a volume in cakes if you do so. I hope they will make something out off the way they serve this tomorrow. I will picture it. I hope it's picture worthit. I hope it's not too dense. Or sticky. That's a bit the trick with chocolate cherry tray cake during summer heath. I hope people will like it. 

Edit: 

This is what it looked like on our pastry plates, and they kept complimenting me on it. I love it. it's one off my favourite tastes now. It's delicious. 

Allright, that's about it for now - 

Thank you for reading. 

Good evening at the 13th off June, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today has really been a hot day outside in The Netherlands. 

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Scapegoat... That's what they make me. It's not real. Vana has it in their head to declare me and everything I touch ugly or distastefull. That's how they try to keep their head up high towards their audience. But it's wrecking reality. False information, Fake news, playing the audience- to a point where they don't get it anymore and start to believe that. 

I'm not ugly, but I'm not much off a style guru. I rather want it natural and soft with my looks. I believe in clean over made up. Those filthy slouches are just jealouse off my looks. And they want to make you believe I'm ugly because I can pass without make-up, and I'm actually more clean than they are. What they sell you is lies and fake. 

Just like hating Omnia and saying they can't play music. Omnia being on the black list doesn't mean they can't play good music anymore. It's just Vana's dumb way off keeping their heads up. I rather want you to think for yourself than to follow this stupid propaganda. 

Vana could also finally admit they have always been wrong, and appologize towards me for everything. But by now I know those childish jerks will never do that. They will spread more hate instead. Please, keep a clear mind- And don't follow that nonsense. They haven't formed a wickerbeast in 2017 after my image over nothing. Me being ugly out off nowhere feels like the scam off the day. In the beginning, when I was still around, There was no princess like me according to them. It makes me a little insecure in times where my clothes are a little more cheap. If they shove it up to a cheaper appearance, they are actually mean jerks with no heart to begin with. Please don't believe them. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.   

Good afternoon at the 10th off June, 2025.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today it's windy and cloudy in The Netherlands. 

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How to dine like royalty on a budget, or when food is expensive enough to respect? The answer to that, in my opinion, is minding the dishware and how you prepare and serve it. You could have a boring white plate, and bale over your string beans and Brussle sprouts, or serve it on something nice and enjoy them. It's a trick I got from Martha Stewart, and which I also do myself. Mind the disware, it doesn't has to be the headprice, as long as it looks nice and good enough to be appropriate. It can have colours, patterns, ridges and ceramic art, prints, all seasons on them, but sure, a good looking plate. And minding how you cook is almost personal. And a tip: If you keep them clean and tidy, you can do quite long with dishware and glasses, as long as you don't throw them on the floor on purpose. Or by accident. Who am I to judge?  Make sure your food doesn't look cheap on a plate. 

I also feel like I don't need that much food when it's served pretty and well. The style off serving feels like food for my soul, so my stomach doesn't need to be filled too much anymore. Maybe we get to times where food keeps on being expensive, and respectable enough to be treated like this. We should not think lightly about it. So respectfull and nicely done plates and servings can make it a little better.  Shabby fancy dining, done with eye for presence and respect for foods. I support it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

 

Good morning at the 5th off June, 2025.

 Good morning everyone, 

This morning it's cold yet clear in The Netherlands. 

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I often got these ideas: 'After the war I want to share toffees and candies at de Boed.' 'Oh, look, this or this and that looks perfect for a baking after the crisis and the war.' While people think I'm mental over it. Mental care takers think I'm not sane for saying the war will be over in the short term. They're all on their guard and think I'm not right in my head for stating that. While before the war, it was the other way around. I was the only one in the area thinking it would become war, while others thought I was absolutely mental. I still got the idea this Ukraine war will be over in the short term, and thinking off after-war treats is legid. 

Most common people don't know and think I'm cheering too early. I keep on having good spirits and good hope it won't take too long. It's just that they think it's crazy. 

I got a few nice ideas for candies and cake after this war. Nowadays I have to do with box bakings, it's barely from scratch anymore. Not that it's bad, and bakings aren't allowed every weekend anymore by them, so for this period it's not an issue to be a bit cheap with baking. And toffees are too expensive for me to eat myself. Whenever I feel like treating it's one euro a box cream puffs from the market. I heard no one complaining yet. They all like it and it's tasty enough for nowadays. It's good enough. Cream puffs are the cheapest and the best treats I can get for that cheap. When I feel like going to the market on a Saturday, I take two boxes with me for them. One with a flavor, and one plain cream puffs. I don't go every week, but when I feel like it, my fellow clients are lucky. I always got 'serving them nice so I can picture them for Facebook.' as a request, and they're answering to that. 

Latest action off sharing cream puffs: 

But yeah, toffees are a bridge too far nowadays. Just like castles off bundt cakes. Even for Christmas that would be too much during a crisis like this. I can perfectly see myself spoiling them with boxes off chocolates all the time after shopping when this is all done, to a point where they (They already are) complaining I should watch people's sugar intake and 'It's not good for the diabetics among them. Please shut it would you!' Like they do when I would do it freely. It's not a celebration when I would murder diabetics with all that sugar, and I wonder if I can still handle it myself, that much sugar. 

My candies, my cookies and my cakes are on a mild level nowadays. It's not really too much. It's not too bad, but often I only eat one cookie a day with my afternoon coffee, handed at de Boed. It's on an unemployed level. But peace and the end off this crisis would ask for a celebration. I always got such pleasure out off sharing home made cake. I hope I can still feel that. 

Nowadays I feel it with plain cake or an almost free and donated box baking, so that's not really the issue. I hope I can level to a world where it's peace, and it's not much off an issue to be generous anymore. I'm used to crabby soberness nowadays, pretending I live up to Dutchness. Usually that makes me feel tamed down and a bit cranky since I associate it with short mindedness. But nowadays I got my budget on my mind when play pretending with it. It's what Dutch would see as well - behaved what I do. At least it's not vulgair, still I hope we will see better times where I can fill the treat box to de Boed with toffees and nougat every often. And make them happy with generosity again. It's really a good feeling I got from that. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.      

Good evening at the 28th off May, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's been a dreary day which ended sunny. 

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I've prepared our Ascension day Tray cake with half my ingredients donated. It looks very delicious. If I do say so myself. It's almost tempting. 

If you bake it more professional instead off following instructions on the package, you can get more airy cake and more amount off cake out off a box. And offcourse not using the cardboard mold they include, but your own if it's bigger. It's unemployed cake at it's finest, but it looks so temptingly good, it's promising. I hope it will blow away the worse dreary Ascension day blues for me and my fellow clients tomorrow. 

de Boed starts providing evening meals again. A good care cooking company started to do buisness with them. they're better than my potatoes, veggies and meat. Really good quality for affordable pricing, so I will start to eat there again soon. It's like the Universe has mercy for me with those meals for that price. And it reliefs me off dishwashing. It's really dreamy meals. Are we, unlucky mental patients, lucky for once? I do think so. I can't picture those meals, I think it's not fine with them. It's really three star restaurant quality they serve. Almost unbelievable. But then you should see it. It's really a miracle. They will start after vocation time. When all care takers are back. 

Allright, that's about it for now. 

Thank you for reading. 

 Edit: This is how my applecrumble traycake got served, I took pictures: 

Good evening at the 27th off May, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

We're in a heavy rainstorm. It rains and storms against my windows and I got my curtains closed. 

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Around Easter I was blogging about a sore in my side muscle, I found out after a massage with lavender massage oil, it got all out. We have a beauty specialist at Leviaan, and she massaged me and the sore from the stretched muscle came out. I think it might have been the holy grail in curing my sore. 💖 It's been lavender massage oil and a good back massage that worked. 

I feel a bit floaty and wobbly on my feet. It's really hard to stay on the ground. But life is still fun these days. Today was for dance Bingo at de Boed. I even had Bingo at one point and won a dessert bowl with oranges on it. Really cute. I think it would make a nice sight with a scoop off ice cream in it. Something not too pricey yet good like vanilla from a good brand. (I'm sorry I'm that cheap. You could almost see and feel on my food pictures I'm unemployed.) And then one scoop placed elegant in the centre. The bowl is decorated nicely enough to make it an impression when it's that simple. If I would have money again, I would make it more off a celebration. But I think the war and the crisis are over by then. It's Ascension weekend upcoming weekend, It's almost asking for it. But maybe fruit yoghurt looks good in it, either. It's a cute bowl. 

 

I do eat low fat fruit yoghurt for my health. Dance bingo was really fun, despite my numbers did not had to be danced to. They where all left out off dancing for points, so I had a little luck. I have the luck I have to do that for a job every week. Bingo or music quizzes, and usually I win something. It's really a party every week. 

I listen to 80's pop a lot in my free time. It's so much better than modern music. I love these golden oldies. Even if one day it becomes old junk again I would still hang on to it. I blame my father to it, and it being on the golden oldies radio stations all the time they have on here. But these are older people, and they still love it. I would not know what's on modern stations or in the hit charts, honestly. Usually we stick to 70's 80's 90's stations. And yes, I also listen to that stuff at home. I may be a little weird for someone my own age. But there's not much good music out there nowadays. I might be a bit silly in it. 

At Ascension day, on a Thursday, I will serve home made apple crumble tray cake, and have a morning coffee service, despite it being on a holiday. They asked me for it and I said yes. I don't mind doing my plight on a holiday. I almost feel a little important when doing so. It's almost dutyfull. And not to brag, they love my coffee. I come to almost believe I got The best coffee in town when I'm at coffee service. It's really honourable. The old Leviaan cowboys can't be more gratefull than for me serving coffee on Ascension day, aside to the cake. Otherwise it would just be boring, it's forecasted to become grey and cold. And just a little more harsh than a common day. 

It's going to be my version off unemployed apple tray cake, with more than half off the ingredients donated, in a 1 euro oven dish. I saved points with gorcery shopping some time ago, and then got two Pyrex oven dishes for one euro each. Even my raisins come from a donation, just like the apples. All I have to add is cream butter and milk. In this case it can be real cream butter. By measuring raisins, I do longer with a package. I hope my spirit won't be damaged from all off this freeloading. But life is expensive. So it's my unemployed apple pastry. Served on de Boed's cute pastry plates, with their whipped cream. All I have to do is the work to bake it. That's how I manage my luxury nowadays, or at least my bakings. With lots off donations. It's a bit... cheating. But at least I don't cheat on a man, and critics don't owe up for my groceries, so they have no right to speak. But home made apple pastry enhances hearts. Especially on cold Ascension days. When people don't have a penny too much. I hope the Universe forgives me. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

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Good evening at the 23th off May, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was a fresh and changing day in The Netherlands. 

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I don't know how the world gets by during this economic recession. I don't have a vision to that. It's a bit unclear. I don't know if they're rich or poor. In The Netherlands, it seems to get by well. People live less luxurious and cuttings need to be made, but there's no life threatening danger with most in my opinion. Maybe it's a bit bad doctors do less due to costs. Doctors, lists, hospitals- all a shame due to costs and time it takes to be helped. Other than that, I think this country gets by. Just a little poorer. Just a little less snobby. But is this a crisis? I think most can take it. 

Offcourse the war should stop, preferably as soon as possible. And prices should be acceptable again. But I think they're getting by allright. I actually have no real clue to it. It's not like the masses die from it. We just have to use our minds and common sense. Maybe it's worse than I think. I should not take too much conclusions out off what I see. People die, but they're old and sick. It's not like they die from starvation or cold. They're dressed and they have a roof above their head. That counts for most. It's not slant luxurious, but is that an issue? I just mention they're a little less groomed. They could use a wash, but isn't that a trend movement? I just don't know if it's out off crisis. I wish someone would do research about this era. In the future, when times are normal again. Fashion is more humble, but I think the country gets by. 

I think a girl should be capable to withhold a crisis. It's important. If you're a young adult woman, you should have savings and security. The world is too cruel to let it depend on someone else. Women should start savings, get stability with their finances and start a life where they can keep on living even when things get nasty. A woman, at, say, 25, should be already capable to do so. I'm certain about that. Men are not dependable, and something could happen where you could stand alone. So a buffer is not a bad idea. And ways to stay somewhat independent. Since men are not likely to be a safe option. And the option to say No when something or someone doesn't feel right. Financial independency helps with that. 

It's good to have the capability to still stand on your own two feet when everything goes wrong, and not go through life mindless. That's my opinion. I hope someone has something to it. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

 

Good evening at the 18th off May, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's been a cloudy and cold day in The Netherlands. 

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It's Ed the dragonslayer, the coolest man from the entire pagan scene, and I believe my feelings for him where a mistake. It's been a mistake. 'I'm sorry, it's wrong.' And a bit shallow, and normie-based the way I felt it. 'I think it's best not to...' At least nothing happened. I kept my purity, and my pride, and no one can claim they have done stuff with me for real. It has not happened. There's no evidence, no where ever. It's all gossip and stupidity if someone claims so. Not a single soul has the rights and the true evidence for an accident. It has NOT taken place. It's more likely I saw UFO's 14 years ago than that someone there has messed with me. Gossip is just stupid. 

It's my goal to keep on looking everybody here in the eye, and knowing I'm innocent. That's my true story. I can't break the heart off our elders, care takers and fellow clients. My purity is almost a trade mark. Anyone who claims diffrent is actually a pathetic pervert. I'm so much better than them. If we would set true, honest standards, I would be far above them. And that's the truth. 

'You can claim things, you can act mafioso, but there are eyes... eyes off the divine to watch you.' 'If you have things, done certain things, talked certain things, they are there to see.' Maybe the audience takes crap, the divine doesn't. And I'm certain they respect me. with a fairness that might now seem strange to you. But it's not. I believe in Karma. Having to remove the forum after my prediction came out is pure Karma for example. 

It's another day in another world for you and me, and then we'll see. Did I make myself clear? 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

 

 

Good evening at the 14th off May, 2025.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's windy and sunny outside in The Netherlands. A promise off summer fullfills the air. 

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Life is getting by, it's not too bad these days. I feel a bit floaty and wobbly on my feet, but when don't I? I don't feel depressed, just a little moody. But at least I'm capable to feel it. It's best to feel and experience your moods. Not to keep them tied up. Psychiatric patients do a little hard with that due to medications. It's really hard to feel our moods most off the time. It's difficult, but these days at least I feel moods. Am cranky, and live them. Feeling moods in my case also comes with a big heart for nostalgia, the surrounding, the old fashioned in Zaandijk and farmstyle life. It's such love and tranquility with this old place. It's love for where I live I feel often. I love it. It's part off me. I belong among this old fashioned stuff. It's really a great feeling. The feeling off love for the surrounding, and belonging somewhere. Actually, it's quite luxurious, not many people I think have this. Usually, this retired feeling is my main feeling. The love for where I live and the old, I try to deal with the crankyness, 

How do they call it? Patriotism, it's dangerous to use the term. Since it's associated and claimed by the extreme right in politics. This enhanced (Enchanted? You'd almost call it that.) feeling off home and belonging is better than love most off the time. It's more safe, either. It's so beautifull and lovely and authentic where I live. It's hard to compare, you can compare it to Hawaii or Venice. It's that touristic and typicall for Dutch. And time by time, I grow to love it more and more. It's so sweet. There's no place like home at the moment to me. It's to swoon over. There's no one my age who has this and who fully understands. I have my own home and I love the place where it's situated. It's more luxurious than winning the lottery. Buying a villa and having to start anew somewhere. That's superficial luxury. But I think this is more meaningfull and real. 

I'm fine with not having kids or a relationship, if life keeps on being this meaningfull. A man can be such a wrong choice, this place has never been a wrong choice. It's the positive off feeling moods. I'm so thankfull for this beauty in my surrounding, and the understanding people I live with. It can pass for a fairytale. It's the surrounding, and it's real life. It's a timeless legend. 

Allright, that's about it for now - 

Thank you for reading.