Good afternoon at the 28th off September, 2024.

 Good afternoon everyone, 

Today was changing and cold, with a ray off sunshine just recent. Your typicall day in Autumn. 

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My computer was at the Repair Cafe this week, something to do with a broken adapter. But they ordered a new one and I have access to it again. Though owing them 30 euro's for it. But it's no problem. I have been on Facebook and internet on my phone, but my laptop is more relaxed at certain points. 

The best way to set my mind off off things and have something on my weekend is baking. Baking, small house chores, keeping my kitchen tidy- mind set off stuff, and I needed it. Today was for preparing a batch off peanutbutter cupcakes. 

Frosted with peanutbutter with chunks frosting, and my own adjustment, chocolate sprinkles and coconut flakes on top. The receipe comes from '500 cupcakes.' Except that I left out baking powder and let it fly on self-rising flour on it's own, and adjusted a teaspoon off vanilla to the cupcake batter. I think they have an English version off the book. I needed a mind set off, I didn't see myself just coffeeing and doing nothing all day this weekend. I used the 'swoop and swirl.' technique for it's frosting. A piping bag is still too much off a difficulty, though I could try and practice. But maybe when food prices are not that insane anymore. 'Swoop and swirl.' with a fork is a guarantee for succes, while piping bag technique could fail. It's 18 cupcakes with a massive amount off icing sugar and peanut butter. I'm going to share these tomorrow at de Boed's afternoon coffee time. I was allowed to store them in their fridge, mine has little space at the moment. They look decadent and delicious. 

I still think, bad case, 2028 will be for the end off the Ukraine- Russia war. Just an insight, I can't explain to most. But it's not why I need a set- off. I barely dare to speak out WHY I needed a mind set off on this very weblog, while actually I discuss everything on here. But it's kinda sensitive. It's difficult. But a buisy Saturday helped me through. It's something about a man, and it's too close for comfort. That's all I can say. To seek a way to set off your mind is what they always reccomend to us, mental patients. So here we got 18 nice peanutbutter cupcakes. 

Allright, that's about it for now, - 

Thank you for reading.  

 

Good evening at the 10th off September, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's raining cats and dogs this evening. 

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I wish for you to consider a certain possibility, something, an outcome that might be. 

Namely for Trump to win the American elections and the situation in the world to continue the way it is. It is very well possible Trump will win those. I don't know why I'm telling you this, just the fairies whispering it in, so to say. It's a potential, it's drama, it's not the end off the world, but it could be bad for economics and peace. 

Why do I think so? Is it just a personal fear? No, it's the fairies whispering in conservative America is not ready for a black female president. It's too much for them to handle. Despite Trump having records as long as an arm. (It's how they said it back in the olden days in films: 'A record as long as an arm.') 

I know some off you believe in fairytales and Kamala sounds too good to be true. Be aware conservative America might strike in this. I think I should warn you for the possibility. I don't know if 'the world ever after.' will come true with Trump for the American president. And all MY hopes for the future are fairytales after all, including that wicked 'New Grunge' look I have foreseen. 

'Een gewaarschuwd mens telt voor twee.' As how they say it in Dutch. 'A warned person counts for two.' As how it goes translated, I don't know if there is a litteral American translation to that proverb. I think the world should be warned. It's something that might happen. Don't be too optimistic about the future these days. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

Good evening at the 9th off September, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was the last nice day according to weather forecasts, we're at the beginning off a period off Autumn, cold and rain. 

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I'm on period pills, pills that are supposed to cause a woman's menstruation period. And I feel it. I'm emotionally kinda wobbly. And I'm mentally wobbly. Kinda stressed these days. I could do better. 

Maybe they will call Dirty Blonde hair Mayonaise and Ketchup hair later on. You know, that modern 'IT-hair.' In the shade Dirty Blonde. I also have it myself. Mayonaise and Ketchup colour. I told Mark van der Stelt's ex-wife to 'vreet her arrogance with Mayonaise and Ketchup.' ('Vreet die kapsones op met mayonaise en ketchup!') On the back off a letter omce. I don't know if she got that. To think you are a whole lot off something is one thing, to think I respect that when it's not adjust is another. 

But yes, the Mayonaise and Ketchup hair off modern war-era. And everyone has it. I think I'm the first one to come up with 'Mayonaise and Ketchup hair.' While having it myself. I have the feeling we're not off that trend yet. I'm moody enough to offend people with that certain hair to Mayonaise and Ketchup hair. It's something else than calling it 'statement hair.' all the time. 

I have trouble eating and getting food in. I eat, but with difficulty. I still get my meals in, but not that much and not wholehearted, and not scorfing it in like a wolf, like sometimes. It's in moderation and that's allready kinda hard. Not because it's expensive- I eat according to Dutch standards, and it's not too bad, but with trouble getting even one plate in. I think it's not worrysome yet, but it could be better. Maybe because there's such a burdensome topic about food going on, which makes it hard to eat. And maybe I should respect my nature. And not go against it. As long as I get basic needed food in. I even had fried eggs for lunch and because it's 'that time',  I forced myself a chocolate bar in. (Which was very good, actually.) I need food to keep the medication working. A start up in the morning to fill my stomach before I got my meds. I think it's not that worrysome yet, As long as I eat. But it's strange how actually I eat less, and gain weight. Since food seems less appealing to me. I think something is wrong with me if it makes me lose a crazy amount off weight. Since that's not the matter yet, it's only a small issue. 

Maybe it's even a good thing, given I'm a big woman with enough fat to handle less food. And maybe I'm going back to honey blonde when this crisis is done. I love a nice shade off honey in my hair. No matter if it's the latest trend. It could just be an awfull lot off time further when I do so. Just like new glasses. Maybe I should not wait too long with them. I just hope I don't have to owe up in vanity when it comes to frames. I'm sensitive for them looking awesome, but it's probably gonna cost. 

Maybe I need to reveal something about this crisis and war. There are rumors about Iluminati wishing to enslave us to make us work for them with high debts to owe up for basic life costs. But that's not true and that's NOT going to happen. After this war and crisis, it's truly done. And people can act a little barbie-goth unruly for a while. And we're going to see better glamour than the Mayonaise and Ketchup fashion off nowadays. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

 

What are we supposed to do nowadays?

 Good morning everyone, 

It's still fresh outside from the night, I have my windows wide open so the room can cool ahead to a hot day. 

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People might wonder what we should do nowadays, war, crisis, negativity- but honesty is, that I think people are not about to do it at all. I think most will not like to fight a war, but they won't fight the government either. 

I can't give advice on how to do it during a crisis. I'm not the right person to ask. I think cooking and having a tidy home will help me through. But I'm not an expert on war or crisis handling. I just think you should be capable to cover the massive costs off this crisis. I can't deny. You need a good job for this. And a work mentality. Or a place to stay with little costs. Like my care home. I don't have to owe up much. I just have to sit it out in here. 

I think to eat and to live go before all else nowadays. But that's my advice to the poor people. I can't help with mindset, since my own is wrecked allready and stressed. But I think we should postpone big plans, or cancel them if they don't fit in the long term. If they can't be done in the long term. It might be a bit sour, a life without kids for example, or a home you can't afford nowadays. But don't act stupid and act, and fall down on your face because you where thoughtless. Sometimes we have to take things and be strong. More strong than what was ever demanded off us before, but we have to. That's how life can work. 

And it's a long sit. Allow yourself to breathe every now and then and do a little luxury for yourself. Don't go overboard, but purchase those nice clothes every once in a while, and listen to good music along the road. I should not go too far on advice, I can't take that responsibility. I think you should furniture your home nicely and listen to the good old stuff to cope and make it through. Since it works when you're poor. Keep the thing tidy and homey, and be certain to have a hide out when you need it. It works for me. But that's all advice I can give. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.    

 

The 'Aquellium'.

 Good evening everyone, we're close to night. 

It's just that I had the idea short before bedtime to explain the Aquellium to you, the Pluto in Aquarius era we're passing. 

Aquarius is future and peace driven, but as far we can see, Pluto only comes with stuff we already know and war, it's the exact opposite off the Aquarius, and that can happen. Sometimes people are the exact opposite off their starsign, and I think this Aquarius to come with the old fashioned, is due to war. Appearently, when war occures, it became incredibly old fashioned and sober. Also due to lack off money, but it's something that stands out: The crave for the old fashioned. I believe it's the 'Aquellium.' As how I had it 'whispered in.' That causes it. And we will have to deal with it for the next 8 years at least. After that, it becomes a bit more modern, but Gothic. Not your average airy Aquarius style. Fashion will become dark, somber and Gothic. I swear. From a lipstick trend, to a serious 'It' hype for Barbie Gothic, as how I call the style. And I think the 'Aquellium.' will continue diffrently, since it's out off the usuall Aquarius style. But as far as I've seen, people who are an Aquarius, can be incredible cranks. Being all negative all the time. So, yes, Barbie Gothic. But it's more rich and decadent. 

I think the internet and people who are into Astrology are supposed to know, since it might make them wonder why Aquarius is so negative these days. It's because it's acting it's opposite. Extreme outcomes are less money, less improvement, war-driven and the crave for the old fashioned when it comes to style and fashion, and no improvement in entertainment and make-up. We will be a generation without true legendairy icons. These 10 years will end with a number one hit we heard time and time again by the Rolling Stones. And it's a bummer for the music industry. Namely 'Angie.'  Which will be 'The' hit for this decade. 

Most sergeants will tell you 'who the hell cares? It's war!' But it has a massive impact on youth, welfare and perceivement off these years. It's the most sober time since WWII, 

A time where we better be glad we can still live. Still eat, still dress, and sunshine on outside benches is free. Despite it will make us such poor idiots without a choice. And it draws us back to a minimum. Though it does to those without a safety net. But honest, Pluto in Aquarius does cause this, but it's an Aqualerium. Not the positive direction from the French Revolution, but more the negative side off it's opposite sides. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.  

Good evening at the 7th off September, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was sunny and bright summer weather. I've read it has been raining in the Sahara desert. And flowers are blooming. Someone should film that. 

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I would like to share with you again peace will officially be in Ukraine in 2028. And unofficially in 2026, when Russia gets tired off fighting, but won't officially sign peace. It's a long sit, if you have a moment...  And it barely depends on planetairy transits. Just like the economically crisis, I'm sorry for those off you who would like to believe otherwise. Uranus from Taurus to Gemini, Saturn and Neptune from Pisces to Aries, but it doesn't truly depend on that.  

It's stressive, especially for those who suffer from it. If you have strong guts and a big wallet, you can do it. All the others probably have to take and accept a lot. It's what I got 'whispered in.' But I'm not the sanest person out there, it could be wrong. But we'll see after that. It's the same story I hang to the internet for a while. I hope I won't go down in history as a charlatan. But we have to take a lot if it's true. 

And I prepared a cake. The cake box and the eggs where donated by a rich woman who lives nearby, and who does small donations to us sometimes. The eggs are from her own chicken.

It came out nicely, and we have a nice slice off cake on Sunday afternoon with our fresh coffee. They think my cake looks perfect.  

I'm not that fine, it's too humid and dense when it comes to weather, yesterday was for thunderstorms, perfect to clear the air. But it's still nauseas, It's awfull for me. 

I expect the Russia-Ukraine war to be the only war on the European continent for this entire century. It's the only conflict we're going to have. It's the only one for an entire century, but we have to sit it out. I also expect prices to increase. Even more than what they have done. Untill it's a totall off 21% for this entire crisis. I should mind my own business, or go crazy, probably. But maybe I just wish to warn you. Expect a long and expensive sit. Don't think too lightly about it. And use your common sense. And probably no big plans in the short term. It's just too expensive for most. 

My system is full with summer heath. I wish it would cool down sooner. I don't like summer. And everything seems like it's too much to take. It's a bit annoying. Let's end this post here. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading. 

 

Good evening at the 3th off September, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

It's rainy and fresh outside. It's preferable over summer heath. 

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Prick service failed this morning, they will come back next week. My vains are pretty deep to prick. I have a very thick skin. Impossible for a basic blood pricker. It's pretty hard, we need those values asap, but it's such dense damp weather, and inside the homes it's like this, I should not over-act on it. Losing my temper means a lot off sweat. Not to my liking. 

I have been vreeting quite a lot lately. Actually, a bit much. But to cook is my hobby, and it's still fun. 'I wish everything was as easy as getting fat.' And I'm storing liquid. Female bodies can store liquid and become heavier when they do so. I'm going to see General Practice over it tomorrow. And my foods are so good these days. I cook healthy, but it's often a lot. And I do little. Not preferable when you fry eggs on carbohydrate meals all the time! (Macaroni and Nasi with the traditionally fried egg on top.) But it's so yummy that way! 

 

My macaroni is pretty good, it's tasty. 

Today was for a meal salad, but I have been snacking on candies and cookies these days, and I had strawberries for dessert. Two off these boxes: 

Two boxes off street fair strawberries, fresh and delicious. Just too perfect to resist. My food is waaay better than de Boed, where they stopped providing us meals each night, but which was far more sober. Maybe it's due to that that I started vreeting all off this. And I'm one off the few lucky people who can cook, and who can afford to cook meals. And the desserts... Vanilla vla and fruit yoghurt taste better when I purchase them myself somehow. At de Boed they became boring. Served here in my own bowls, it's delicious 

(A bowl off fresh strawberry yoghurt.) I'm a gratefull eater to myself. I have a dessert every night. Usually vla or an apple. But I gained 15 kilograms in a month. That's too much. I believe it's food, heath and storing liquid. I feel like a balloon every time I see myself. It's been pretty much. I love to enjoy life with good foods, but it's so incredibly hard when it makes me gain all that weight! It's a bit frightening it's been that much, I believe it's something to see a doctor over. I'm not pregnant, and I haven't changed medication. 

Previous Saturday I had haring, vegetable soup and French bread with cream cheese. 

And a bag off street fair prunes to finish that meal. It's been delicious. Maybe I should do more to loose kilograms. More excercise. But I can't set myself to that. It's not the food, it's pretty healthy foods, but maybe the amount off food I eat. And the lack off excercise. I have no job, and mainly I'm here or drink coffee at de Boed, or cuddle the neighbourhood cat near the koi-carp pond. This week, swimming starts again. It's just doubtfull that truly works to loose a lot off weight soon. So to say, tomorrow is for General Pracrice, and see what can be done about it and to see if there's something wrong. 

My food is great, it's something to share and to be proud off. (That's why I put pictures on here.) It's wholesome and healthy. And tasty. I love food, but I gained so much weight this month. That's a bit off a downer. I'm heavily obese. It's not hard to deal with, but it's uneasy. So let's see what General Practice can mean for me tomorrow. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading!     

Good evening at the 2nd off September, 2024.

 Good evening everyone, 

Today was sunny, warm, and a bit too hot for my liking. 

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I'm on a medical cure to assure I'll get on my period. 

I'm cranky and tired, and 'not in for it.' Today. I'm not social, I'm introverted and less talkative. 

I had to look for distraction, so I decided to blog. What to blog about? I blog little these days, this previous year. It's not been much. I just think the internet is the same story over and over again sometimes, which bores at the moment. News websites are a bit cliché lately. As if everything repeats itself somehow. It's not that interesting anymore. 'I'm getting old, I've seen it all...' 

Usually, weblogs are a perfect way to release anger and to let painted nails dry. I'm not angry, and my nails are just clean, clipped and filed. But I'm asked to seek distraction. My mind is overflowing with delusions, and stress. I had some strange nightmares lately. And those historical delusions. I happen to have delusions about the 19th century or the beginning off the 20th century all the time. And they're never historically correct, and the characters have never existed. My mind has had a few recently. Sometimes a few during the same week, and recently, it's been about ancient Germanics. In a hut, all covered in a thick layer off snow. It's been a bit much these days. But nothing terrible happened, it's just that regulair staff has been on summer vacation these weeks. Which works a bit distractive for my mind. 

My head hurts from all that tension. I'm getting a bloodtest so they can see if I'm allright. And my blood values are still correct. I'm supposed to have one yearly. It's not my favourite part off being a psychiatric patient. It's been a bit much. 

I have been stressed over the Ukraine war, and increased prices everywhere, and my concern about poor people. I worry a lot about the poor who struggle to come round, but most people tell 'to think off myself first.' these days. I should not worry about them. I can't change a thing about it, so it's not my concern. Truly, I have to think 'myself first.' at the moment, or I'm losing it. So I decided to let go for the biggest part. I can't help them. 

And to lose my mind over it is a bit much. But it's worrysome. I think I already do. So let's quit that for my mental well-being sake. And I feel I'm a charlatan who can't even realistically foresee the weather. 

At least I'm not broke, financially I'm getting by pretty well. But that's personal and I don't like to talk about it. People might come after me if they knew. It's due to bitter hard saving and well-thought out soberness, I can still cook meals. And do laundry wash with A-brands. For me personally, life goes by. 

Allright, that's about it for now- 

Thank you for reading.